I'm not shocked at how I'm feeling when I'm at work. Overall I thought the day would be good, but lately, it's just been so exhausting. Between trying to balance my relationship with Jax, learning how to be a parent with him again, balancing the kids schedules, and keeping my mental health in check, I've been so busy.

But I think it's worth it because I've never felt better, even if I'm exhausted. But today's Kurt's birthday and he's six, six years old. I of course got called into work before he woke up this morning and Jax stayed home to help set up his party. He's similar like Maddie, he wanted a party at the house but since the weather is cooler outside he's only getting a bouncing house, not the water slide experience he wanted.

It's all race car themed though, and he wanted a race car, which I know Jax bought, and a new baseball bat, that I bought. But I'm leaving in fifteen minutes, hopefully to get home in time for his party this afternoon.

I'm not rushing, but I'm slightly speeding through my paperwork per usual, like I always do before going home. I just miss Jax so much today, and when I get home, I just want to fuck him until I can't walk. I just want to be close with my husband and forget everything I'm stressed about.

That's when horrible screams come from outside my office door. The first thing I do is run outside the door onto the unit. What I don't expect to see is Poppy Jenkins running through the emergency unit with her daughter in her arms. Her daughter who looks just like her, pale as a fucking ghost.

"Oh my goodness." I whisper rushing into the emergency bay. I immediately see her bawling her eyes out as the male nurses take her daughter, who can't be more than two, from her arms and puts her into a bed and starts her EKG and oxygen. I see two more little girls holding her hands as she stands there trying to contain her tears.

"Poppy what's wrong?!" I ask as she wipes her tears as I immediately pull her into my arms hugging her. When I look at her I see what Jax was talking about, she's put on a few pounds but honestly, she looks healthier now than she did the first time I saw her.

"Rylee?" She asks as I nod. "I'm the head nurse on the unit what's going on with her?" I ask moving over to listen to her lung noises. But she's not moving, she's not breathing.

"She stopped breathing-, she's had seizures since her second birthday but never like this. Is it something I've done?" She asks out of breath as I instantly grab my stethoscope and start listening to her lungs again.

"She's-, she was at the park playing, she-, her name is Ally, she's my baby Rylee." She tells me as I nod. "Listen we have her, I'll come and get you when she's okay. I promise you I won't leave her." I tell her trying to calm her down as the nurses take over and I page the doctor clicking the button on my side.

"Okay, go with one of the nursing assistants to the waiting room and I'll bring you back once we have her seizures under control with medication. Can you fill out some forms for me while you wait, maybe some medications she's on?" I ask as she sighs.

"She's been on medication forever. My husband, he had them growing up but it never was this bad." She tells me as I rub her back.

"Okay, I need a medical history for him too, I think that would be the best can you call him?" I ask as she starts to talk but the doors to the emergency room open as she looks back.

"That's him." She whispers wiping her tears as she moves over to hug him. And that's when it hits me what true love looks like, because I know I look at Jax the same way that she looks at her husband. He opens his arms hugging her as I look at him softly, he's tall, and blonde, and he looks a lot older than her, but he's the man she loves. He then bends down to their two little girls holding poppy's hands as they stand there together as a family.

I give them privacy and shut the doors to the room where Ally is before seeing she's now stable with the doctor here. They start her physical examination while she's stable before I start my own, because I don't trust a doctor farther than I can see them. I went to nursing school, and I catch more doctor mistakes than nursing mistakes everyday of the week.

That's when it hits me looking at her mouth during her evaluation. I look at the doctor before I open Ally's mouth and I confirm my suspicion. She's got diabetes, she has ate candy, which causes a spiked blood sugar level, which is linked to seizures. Which means her dad most likely has diabetes and didn't have seizures after it got under control.

"Diabetic seizure." I tell him as he immediately nods. "My diagnosis as well, we'll start isotonic IV fluids." He tells me as I nod. I immediately leave the room after taking Ally's vital signs and make my way back to the waiting room with Poppy completely crying her eyes out while her husband holds her and fills out the paperwork.

"Poppy." I whisper pulling the chair to sit next to her. "What's wrong?" She asks looking up.

"I need to ask you a few questions to make a proper diagnosis with the doctor." I tell her as she nods. I can't make a diagnosis legally, but without paper she'd be surprised how many patients I fully diagnose and the doctor agrees with me.

"Excuse me sir, sorry to be so direct. But do you have any high or low sugar conditions?" I ask him as he nods. "It's Eli, and I do. I Umm, I have diabetes and I wear the patch." He tells me pulling up his sleeve.

"Right Eli, when was this diagnosed?" I ask as he starts, "After my fourth seizure when I was around Ally's age." He tells me as I nod.

"Poppy when Ally was at the playground was she abnormally tired? Did she have anything to eat that you know of?" I ask as she nods.

"She was exhausted after he had a few pieces of candy. She begged for some after we passed the candy store on main, and of course I caved because she's my baby and I can't tell her no. Eli and I we aren't too big on that with our kids and I told her no, but eventually I caved and I had the twins with me so I couldn't say no." She tells me while Eli holds their daughters in his arms. They can't be more than five, and of course their in matching outfits with big bows in their heads.

"Okay. I think I have everything I need." I tell her holding the pen as she reaches out and grabs my hand. She rubs it where my wedding band is before she stops me, "Can we talk for a minute?" She asks as I nod immediately.

"Here you can see Ally." I tell her as she nods. I open the doors and immediately close them once she's in before closing the privacy curtain as she looks down and sighs in relief when she sees Ally sound asleep from the medication, with her heart monitor and IV running.

"I need to talk with you. I've been meaning to, and this just I guess gives me an excuse in a fucked up way. Rylee I love my husband with my whole heart, I really do, and I love our kids, I love being a mom. I know I've had a rough patch in the past but being a mom, I love it. I'm so sorry if it's not okay that I contacted Jax about getting me a personal trainer and I will stop if you have a problem with it. I had no idea that it would be an issue considering him and I both knew we were nothing more than just friends. I just-, after having the twins, it's been harder to get the weight off. With Ally and my first one who's with her grandmother, Zoey, it was easier to lose weight, and then the twins came." She tells me as I nod.

"Poppy, I'm not upset at all. Jax told me, and I'm not mad, I fully trust him and I really believe that you wouldn't do that to me or him. I have a feeling that man in there is your rock too" I tell her as she nods and smiles.

"Thank you. And for what it's worth, he was only there once to kind of supervise before he put me with my trainer now that I absolutely love, she kicks my butt but I've already lost ten pounds. I knew Jax could help, that's it. I promise you and yeah, Eli, he's my person. I met him and just kind of knew I wanted to spend my life with him and only him." She tells me as I smile.

"I'm really glad he was able to help you. And like I said, I trust my husband, I know where we stand. I'm just glad that you came here for little Ally to be taken care of. She's going to be okay once the medicine kicks in and we adjust her diet a bit. The doctor should be in shortly in about thirty minutes." I tell her as she smiles.

"Rylee really, thank you. I wouldn't want anyone else making sure my Ally was okay. And I wish you and Jax nothing but the best." She tells me as I smile and check the clock to see I'm officially off, well since fifteen minutes ago.

"Thanks, I know Ally will recover. If you'll excuse me it's my sons birthday and I have to be getting home. Have a good one Poppy." I tell her waving as she waves me off and I immediately grab my bags walking to the car.

And when I drive home, I don't know why, but I just feel a sense of relief over the whole situation and I'm just ready to see my children and Jax.

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The birthday party is perfect, absolutely perfect. And by the time it's over the boys are crashed out off of sugar highs and Maddie is with Izzy at her moms house for a sleepover. Which means Jax and I finally have some alone time.

"God I missed you so much today." I immediately tell him walking into the bathroom before I lock the door behind me. He's washing his hands when I move closer to the sink and start kissing his neck.

"Why's that?" He asks moving to hold my hips as I suck on his neck veins. He smiles and rubs my back chuckling as I grip his chest.

"Because I was thinking about coming home and doing this." I tell him as I push him into the bathroom door. His eyes darken when I reach for his jeans and immediately unzip them. He reaches up the dress I slipped on for the party and pulls my underwear down before kissing my lips.

"Fuck Ry" he whispers moving his hands to my hips and lifting me onto his waist. I pull his head closer to me, kissing his lips, never stopping while he opens my legs around his waist. I push his pants down before he's grinding into me and I'm panting waiting on him.

"Jax" I moan when he pushes himself into me and immediately hits so deep I see starts. He smiles into my lips when I clinch myself around his member and keep bringing him closer and closer to the breaking point.

I'm trying my hardest to make him finish in seconds and he knows what I'm doing when he pushes my back into the wall and stops moving my hips. "Fuck no. You first." He whispers into my neck as he palms my breasts and starts fucking me against the wall.

I'm a panting mess seconds later, and two minutes later I'm complete mush. I'm on the break of orgasming when I feel him softening inside of me, meaning he's close. Our bodies just know, and we always finish together.

"Now Ry." He demands into my ear as he palms my ass and pounds into me one solid time making me cry out his name.

He finishes inside of me, kissing down my neck as I hold his scalp, panting from what I just experienced.

"How does that get better each time?" He asks pulling his face to mine before I grab his face in both my hands and kiss his lips.

"I have no idea but I never want it to stop." I tell him back losing myself while kissing him again, before he's pulling me closer onto his waist and starts all over again.