//SHAWNS POV//

I was still with the man who told me Heart and I had a bond, he had canceled all his further appointments to talk to me. He said it was worth it because things like this only happen once every thousand years. He said it was very rare and that we should handle it wisely. He wanted to advise me.

He told me it would be better to stay away from her because I'm dead and she's not. He told me about the possible ways of making this possible but every way involved the devil. How can something as beautiful as love require something as demented as the devil himself.

He also told me it would be impossible for us to stay apart. He said that she is always going to look for me when I'm not there and that I'm going to come back to her all the time.

He told me it was my decision, not hers.

I walked out the office and I was pretty shook.

I didn't know what I was going to do, everything relied on me. I had to make choices and I had to pick wisely.

I teleported back home which takes a lot of energy but it takes less time to get there.

What happens when I lose all my energy?

I can't die, because I'm already dead obviously, but I can be stuck in the same position for hours not being able to move.

I walked over to Amanda's room and watched her sleep, I didn't want to wake her up because she needed sleep, she hasn't been sleeping. I blame myself for it.

I sat in the chair and listened to Her breathing, I miss that feeling. I mean, I still have to breathe but it's an automatism. I can't feel the wind in my face anymore, I miss that.

"Shawn don't"

Here we go again with the nightmares..am I really that bad?

I chuckled to myself but I'm curious and worried.

"Shawn I said don't leave me here"

"Come back you fucking asshole"

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Shawn was leaving me, I had just heard him play the guitar and he left, he's such an asshole, he always disappears. I don't want him to.

I want him to come back..

I want him to stay here..

Something is making me want him here..