"'Cause I still fuckin' love you, babe"

~Olivia Rodrigo, Driver's License

"Is she going to reject me?" "Will she push me away or say the she loves me too?" "Should I go back?" That is how Cole's head swarmed with thoughts as he headed to her trailer, they were on a break from filming Riverdale, so unless she was out, he was almost sure she'd be where he headed to find her. Despite his effort to stay calm and confident, nervousness spread through him, making his whole body shake as he saw the familiar trailer that she had been staying in since back when they were filming season 2. This was the trailer in which they had spent a lot of time making out and laying together in bed, Cole thought, the memories coming back into his head.

He raised his hand to knock on the door and calmed himself then knocked.

A few seconds later, she opened the door, surprise evident on her face as she stared at him.

"Cole.." Lili said worriedly "Is everything okay?"

"Uhh..yeah, everything's okay, I just came to tell you something..." Cole told her, his heart pounding so fast.

"Okay, why don't you come in?" Lili told him, he stepped into the trailer and looked around, surprised but glad to find that she saved his brown coat and bouquet of flowers that he gave her while they were still together.

"So what's up?" She asked from behind him.

She was standing so close to him that it was extremely hard for him not to envelop her in his arms and put his lips and mouth on hers.

"I just wanted to tell you..." Cole hesitated.

"Tell me what?" Her eyebrows furrowed with concern as she waited for him to reply, her heart beating as loudly as his.

"I love you, Lili. I love you so fucking much and I miss you so much that it hurts me to even look you in the eye when we're not together. I regret everything, and I mean everything, everything from our break to our separation. These last months without you being mine and us being together were absolute hell. I don't know how I even survived them. I really want you back, more than anything, but I understand if you don't, I just came here to get this out of my head. In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you."

"Cole.." She began, for she absolutely did not know what to say, just that she was surprised, and shocked.

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