Sebastian asked me for about a million times and as usual, I nod my head and indicate him to open the door on from the other room.

Even though I'm scared, terrified even but I stilled myself. My hands clamping towards Sebastian warm and big hands as I treat them as my anchor. I was going to drown but I let myself be. I need to test the water first and then if it goes well, maybe,just maybe I could live myself without the frequent turning off my head as I search for unwanted stalkers and waiting about something that going to happen to me or worse what may misfortune will befall on me.

I need closure.

Sebastian look at me one more time and held me in my small frame, his arms coiling around me. Like a warm jacket that warms in the chilliest nights in winter, he make me feel safe.

Tiptoing to his tall frame was hard and I need to grab his massive shoulders for support, muscles in his back tightening and I couldn't help but send a mischievous smile at him. He shakes his head and laughs at me silently, pecking me in my lips but I held his neck, urging him to go deeper.

I need assurance, someone to be here with me by my side in my important day in my life. We held each other as we deepen our kiss, I know that he won't ever let me go. The way his hands tightened on my waist and how emotions fluttered in the wind, sparkling and lightning the sexual tension around us and how he close his eyes, as if he put his trust on me.

And there I know that our love was real.

We, unfortunately stop ourself midriff and I could feel myself blushing when I saw some people sneaking glances at us and some are gawking shamelessly, as if we're in a movie and their the audience. I look at him again and he just pecked me in the lips, making me redden more. I glare at him while pouting, unaware of his groans and his darkened eyes that we're misty with list and love.

I was shocked on his sudden proclamation in love that I gape in front of him, eyes wide and mouth agape in astonishment.

His hands make way into my arms again and I can't help but let a few stray tears on my face. I don't know anything I'm just blank and I was speechless.

I can't believe the heaven granted me a man like him.

The two of us opened the door and right there, I was stunned by the sight in front of us. Gone was the man with his dark and calculating eyes, and thus was replaced by a desolate gaze, as if he was lost in a deserted desert. Hollow cheeks and upturned lips that's been chapped for maybe years and his hunched back.

He seemed tired.

And he is tired. His gaze moving tantalizingly slow, as if he was gauging a violent reaction from us. But we stay rooted in our state.

We can't believe how much he change, his confident self was nowhere to be seen and only a man who look like he's been in a war back in forth with nowhere to go, stood I

in front of us, with his eyes steel cold from wariness and detachment.

Suddenly he sprang into his bed and I became terrified, memories I tried to bury crawls up in my head and a scene from one of his many mental tortures on me flash through my eyes. Tightening my hold on Sebastian, I bite my lips to stop myself from shrieking in terror and breathe a lungful of air. Sebastian hold me in his arms so tight, making me burrow my head in his chest while gazing at Leonard frightened.

Sebastian was angry no furious. His veins we're bulging and his jaw was grinding from too much tension. He heaved another deep breath and close his eyes for a second. Burrowing his head into my neck as he sniff my scent to calm down, holding me in my waist, practically gripping me so tight (if I was a fruit I'd be crushed and even leaked some fruity juices).

I know he's lost, confused and angry at his friend. At his best friend. The two of them were like true brothers and they shared a special bond. Memories and heartaches, they were side by side.

Before I came, Leonard was the one with that stayed at his side and his sister too. I know how hard it is for him to accept that his best friend tried to kill the girl he love.

No matter how much consolations and "It will be well soon" sayings, the hurt will always be with him. The pain,betrayal and mostly the love he had for him won't diminish itself and he will carry that for the most of his life. But with his vulnerable moments, I will come.

I will be the light in his darkness from now on.

He stopped screaming and thrashing after he heard that. The silence was heavy and nobody stated a word. He looks at me like I was a lunatic and the one who should be in this mental hospital not him.

It was hard.

The pain was still there and the memories still flash in my mind but I hold it in. I needed a closure and even though it's hard to forgive the person who hurt you and even more people. I need to forgive him.

I need to be free of him.

His mouth formed a sneer with his eyes mocking me, Taunting me as if he wants to break the facade I had on me.

it was hard for me to look him in they eyes but I want him to see me, that o only wish for him is for his best.

We left him there, heaving with his bloodshot eyes, fist clenching while he thrashed around his room.

The two of us stay silent in the car, his hands found its way to my face. I gaze at him, he kissed my forehead and I savor the smell of his cologne combined with his natural scent. His warmth enveloped me like a blanket, holding me tight.

A ghost of smile was found on my lips as I nod my head at him.

it's true and I could feel his mouth twitch in response. We laugh together as we feel every burden was lifted off our shoulders. Completely.

It was over.

His eyes were filled with so much emotion, love,adoration,relief and many more. Kissing him was always my favorite type of skinship and he didn't seem bothered enough, instead he want bit more than I do.

His gaze only reflects me as well as mine. Lips crashing towards each other. It was gentle at first, like a dragonfly skimming through the water, gently nearing and touching it making the water shake a little bit. But it grew intense, hands on each other, biting and nipping, fingers threading on his soft hair as he combed his into mine.

Gone was the gentle touch and was replaced by a hunger,a desperation to hold into each other and be lost within the passion brewing inside us. After a while we stopped and breathe for a minute. His hold was still on me and even if the seatbelt was making me uncomfortable and making my belly button hurt, it was worth the pain.

It was intense and his eyes was so focused on me I momentarily forgot to breathe. He just make it more real, his kisses, his warm hands touching me, making me shiver and all the while making him more real to me.

I don't know how much good karma I had obtained in my past self that I end up with him by my side.

We laugh together and held each other. It was finally over. I will always remember his past self and the memories I have with him, even though we don't have that much contact. It just took one glance from me and right there I knew, he would be the man I would spend my life with.

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I ruffle my daughter's hair as I rock my 6 month old baby boy. Looking at my 5 year old child, I can't help but to rub her cheeks and instantly, it became red and she pouts at me.

Gazing at my two children with love and adoration, I can't help but to look back on the time Sebastian propose on me. It was such a laughing matter yet it was the most memorable time of my life.

"Where are we going Lorena? Are we there yet?"

Lorena tied this flimsy handkerchief on my eyes, attempting to surprise me about something but I don't know. There's no occasions neither some birthday along with our family and Sebastian's. I was confused yet I just agreed at her. I know she won't do anything reckless.

I was shake out of my thoughts when Lorena untied the clothing that covered my eyes. Bright white lights flash on me like stars on the darkest nights, it was dazzling. It feels like I was thrown out of the galaxy and was met by thousands of stars (though I wasn't complaining). It was a sight to behold.

A single table with a dark blue cloth draped on it and some roses with different colors on top of it. There is also some musician playing with his violin in the background. The small shrubs and trees was magnificent it felt like I was in a tea party in the palace back then.

Sebastian came out and I can't help but gape at his sight. With his hair combed nicely on the side and his suit on, he was the epitome of beauty. A beauty that was dark, passionate with a hint of playfulness. He was gorgeous and I can't help but smiled at him. Time was good on him and he didn't seem like he's getting older.

He was still the man I fell in love 4 years ago and yes, we've been together for 4 years. He's still on my side and the two of us develop a bond that was different, much more different and more passionate than others.

" Well, hello there beautiful" he smiled at me and I was dumbstruck for a bit before I came back to my senses after I heard his amused laugh. I glared at him and he return it with his innocent smile.

I really can't get angry with him for a minute. He guide me through the table and held a chair for me. It warms my heart to see how much he cares for me. His actions in the past year probes that and I couldn't help but be satisfied about him being with me. He's mine as well as I'm his. I was giddy and Sebastian with his eyebrows raised send a quizzical look at me.

"So what's the occasion, hmm?"

" Nothing...I...I just want to surprise you" I narrow my eyes at him. He was nervous and I can't help but to think that he's hestitating.

"What's wrong love? Did something happen at your company?" I picked my champagne and took a gulp on me, his shocked eyes puzzled me. Why is he looking at me like that?

" Spit it out! Now!"

He was in a rush and before I knew it, I was held by him as curled his fist and put it on my abdomen. He was forcing me to spit out but why?

"Seb-ugh! Wa..it! Uhh! *Cough* *Cough* wait!" He stop and his eyes were frantic, filled with concern as he look me I the eyes, seemingly searching for anything wrong on my body.

Out of nowhere, my sister came up on us. I didn't know my sister was still here, and people emerged. My mom,dad and even Sebastian's family and friends, even Tim and his wife. Now I was growing more confused. What the hell is happening?

"I called the paramedics now. They'll come maybe in 10 minutes" What the?! Paramedics! I was supposed to say something when my mother butt in.

" Oh God! We shouldn't have listen to the internet and now she'll choke to death because of that stupid suggestion"

" The paramedics will be here don't worry"

I was shocked and unprepared of what happened. I turn my eyes on the champagne and there I see it. Glittering in the darkest nights. It was much more dazzling than a star and I can't help but gasped. My family turned their heads towards me and follow my gaze. There they see the ring inside the glass of champagne.

A ring.

And then I knew why their being secretive for the past month. They were something amiss about their actions and now I know. Laughing with all my might, I hold my stomach. Soon laughter's were heard and the tense moment before fade into dust. I turn at Sebastian and urge him.

" Go on, propose to me"

He smiled at me and take the ring off the glass. Thunk! His one knee drop on the dirt, with his eyes on me, as well as the audience behind us, he asked me.

" Laraleigh, the only woman who make this heart of mine beat, made me lose all my rationality everytime she smiles and the one who stands by my side everyday. Now, would you want to make it official? Can you please send your future on me and trust that I will love you and stay with you on your everyday life?"

" Of course,silly. I absolutely 100% will say yes to you"

Screams and hollered sound filled the silent night as we held each other under the moon and stars watching us above.

" I love you, Mrs. King"

" I live you more, Mr. King"

I was done reminiscing and now, I see the future that the two of us made. Smiling happily at my daughter I led her inside her room and settled to tuck her in. Footsteps were soon heard and the three of us were engulfed by a large and warn frame, making us shriek in laughter and surprise.

My daughter, who resembled me so much, was hanging on her father's tall frame and smiling at him, her front teeth missing making her look like a mischievous child.

He pecked me in my lips for a brief moment and take our little boy off me. He sat down beside me in our massive bed that was specially build for 4 people.

Soon our little daughter and our baby boy snuggled on us. Sleep took them away as the initial bubblyness of mu daughter decrease. We held our children by our side muttering"I love you's" from them.

We smile together and sleep also took us in. We don't know what the future held us but there is one thing for sure. I know that Sebastian will be with me through times snd we will love each other for a long time.

In the past ,when I was maiden, I discovered the word "LOVE",in the present when I was an adult, I fall in love with him and bore him our little angels, and in the future when I go to the after life, I will surely ask God for me to be with him and meet him. And if he didn't remember me, I would go and say "hi".

I will make him fall in love with me ONCE AGAIN.

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