"Get the fuck out Olivia." I pointed at the door.

"Alex jeez, we can still make this work." Olivia said as she was packing her suitcase. Desperately

"Olivia, you've ruined our fucking relationship." "I am not in the mood to give you a second chance so please, for fuck sake, never come back." I raised my voice.

"Sure why not, have fun with your bitchy little Bella that you obviously still loved while we were dating, you son of a bitch." Olivia said as she walked out the front door and smacked it.

Fuck her Alex

I sat down on my leather sofa and started thinking about how to get Bella to even look at me.

I can't even imagine how much I must've hurt her. I fucking hate myself.

There were only 2 days left before the boys and I had to continue the tour.

I needed to see her.

I can't live without her.

...

(Bella's pov)

"It's already healing again Bel." Sarah said while gently picking up my wrists.

Sarah stayed at my place the last couple of days cause she wanted to make sure I was okay.

It was Wednesday night and we decided to watch a movie to get my head away from everything that's been happening.

"Thank you Sarah, for everything really." I smile a bit at her.

"I'm pretty sure you don't really want to hear this, but Matt told me that Alex dumped Olivia today. Jamie told him about everything." Sarah looked at me a bit guilty.

"He did?" I look up at Sarah. "He finally believed me after Jamie had to tell him?" I got an angry feeling again. "He's such a bitch. He didn't believe me, but does believe Jamie." "Sure I get it." I rolled my eyes

I was fucking furious

And really really hurt.

He never raised his voice at me before, and this time he did. And it was the worst thing I ever experienced.

"Bella, I here to help you get your mind off okay? Let's make some hot chocolate." Sarah smiled.

I nodd and smile aswell.

...

(Alex' pov)

"Alex we should go." Matt said as he, Jamie and Nick tried to leave the pub. He grabbed Alex' arm.

It was 02:55 am, it was time to get going.

But I was pretty bloody drunk.

"Get the fuck off of me Matthew!" I raised my voice. Matt stepped back "wow, calm down Al."

"I am sorry, I am just hurt man..." "you guys go home, I'll be fine." I look down at my drink.

"Just get home safely Al. We need you" Matt said looking serious.

"I promise."

As Matt, Jamie and Nick left the pub. I took another shot of tequila and looked at the clock hanging on the wall.

Why is it foking melting?

- 3 am -

As I downed another shot, I walked to the bathroom. I coughed and it felt like there was fucking fire coming out of my mouth.

I locked the bathroom door and grabbed my phone out of my pocket.

"Pick the fuck up Bella." I mumbled as I tried ti call Bella.

"I miss you so much and I want to apologise."

No answer.

After leaving multiple missed calls I decided to text her.

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: Bella pick up, I'm trying to change your mind. I even left multiple missed calls Bel.

: why'd you only call me when ur high Al?

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My eyes lit up.

She finally answered me.

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hi

why'd you only call me when ur high Al? I don't want to talk to you clearly.

but Bel I can expla

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And then, black.

My fucking phone died.

"FUCK SAKE" I put my phone back in my jacket and get out of the bathroom.

I walked out of the pub and ran into people.

Thinks straight Alex, you can't be fucking drunk all the time

I walked around the corner and saw light shining out of Bella's apartments window.

I pressed the bel.

Nothing.

Again.

Nothing.

What now?

"BELLA LET ME IN!!!" I shouted hoping that Bella would hear me.

"BELLA I NEED YOU! I AM SO FUCKING SORRY." My eyes started watering.

"I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER BELLA..."

I hear footsteps walking to the front door.

A simple click.

"Al... go home." Bella opened the door without looking at me.

"Bella I-..." i was fucking sobbing.

She looked up at me. And looked shocked.

Bella:

He looks like shit

"I just... I need to talk with you Bella." I look at her in full pain.

I've missed her so fucking much.

"Alex... you're drunk." Bella looked concerned.

"I can't fucking survive the night if you don't let me apologise Bel. I am fucking serious." I start sobbing even more.

Bella stepped towards me and gave me a hug.

I started sobbing even more.

All the fucking pain came out.

...

(Bella's pov)

"Al... it's okay. I'll listen."

He pulls away from the hug and starts talking.

"Bella, I should've trusted you. You were right about everything. Olivia manipulated the shit out of me and I am so sorry for not listening Bella. I am so fucking s-..." he looks down.

"Did I fucking do that?" He looks at my wrists in full shock.

"It's okay... I am getting better." I say softly.

"I can't live with myself Bella. I've hurt you." He starts tearing up even more.

I've never saw him cry like this before, I could tell he was broken.

"I am so sorry." He said

"I know Alex. I know." I look in his eyes.

He does the same. And gently holds my hands.

"You don't have to Bella... you deserve the world and I couldn't give it to you. It is impossible though since you are my world Bella." His eyes glistened.

"Oh Alex... don't be so hard on yourself." I say. "I believe that you're sorry. I really do. But I need time Al." I look down again.

I need time to heal from the thing you said...

"I know, and I won't bother you anymore Bella. I just needed you to know that I am so fucking sorry Bel." He looks at me desperately.

"I'll give you space Bella. Goodnight." He looks at me with water boiling in his eyes.

"Goodnight Al..." I said as I let go of his hands and close the door.

...

(Alex' pov)

My hands never felt more cold.

As the door clicked in it's lock, I faced away.

"I love you Bella."