i'm sorry i haven't updated. i didn't know people still read this- i need to rewrite the whole thing, and i might just do so.

it has a lot of in y/ns mind btw.

but the next few chapters involve rape, abuse, drug use, horror(i so highly advise if you cannot handle horror/gore please don't read chapter fourteen.) there will be deaths.

i could feel Sunas arms all over me pulling me to him tightly every time the rivers sounds roared.

"love" i pushed at his wrists that were tightly wrapped around my waist.

he really had a grip but i knew he was only scared.

"hmm- hm" his eyes barely open as he held me so tightly to his warm body.

"you're holding me a bit tight" i rolled over a bit to signal him to let go, he did so. i rolled over pressing my back to atsumu, and now facing Suna.

i could feel his warm hands grabbing on my ribs and thighs.

"nooo" he groaned rolling his eyes still blinking frantically to try and see me.

he grabbed me pulling me on top, i laid stiffly. he pushed me to his spot, it was very warm. now him in the middle.

i could tell atsumu would wake up if the sleeping bags and blankets hit our bodies any longer, his groaning for silence was enough.

"why" i pushed my hot hand under to the cold side of the pillow.

"don't touch stanky atsumu" his hands rubbed along my arm as he held his fingers around my wrists.

i only scoffed trying to hold back a huge laugh. just seeing he wanted to laugh made me almost laugh

"go back to bed" he caressed my body, once more with his soft finger tips. "night night" he slapped my arm softly now closing his eyes.

he pushed his shoulder up against the padded sleeping bag now breathing softly.

i guess i go to sleep.

i don't know what time it is, but i don't even want to check. i felt so vulnerable, i shouldn't be depending on Suna for the feeling of comfort. i know he's scared as much as everyone else is.

i pushed my arms under me flipping over pushing my back into him.

he lifted his arm, i could feel him pulling his arm from his blanket holding it open for me, i pushed my body to his as he covered my shoulder.

we laid in a small portion of the tent slowly pressed together, when i felt his touch leave me closely i just couldn't help myself.

he already had his knees pressed behind the indents of my knees, his arm wrapped around my stomach.

i held his hand to my stomach mourning his touch..

_

i don't know how i woke up but i did i could hear the raindrops on the tarp from the tent head.

smelling the mildew, it smelt of plastic burning, gas, i could feel my nose becoming irritated.

everything echoed in my ears, the faint talking, the snoring, fire sizzling and begging to be lit again.

"dude, if you wake y/n up she'll beat you." is all i heard for me to open my eyes fully.

my eyes felt weak and heavy, my lips felt crusted together, and chapped.

"oh hey" a bubbly voice broke through my head.

my blurry vision finally coming through, atsumu sat on his back knees propped up chewing his nails, and suna was on his phone, yet he wore grey sweats like always, and sat as if he wasn't hurt.

i don't understand how men can go from enemies to friends just over night. i don't get it, i don't understand it, why can't i understand it. isn't like they don't feel the same way they did yesterday.

i felt my brain zoning out more than usual, because suna doesn't ever have to shake my leg to ask if i'm alright, i don't feel alright.

"i'm okay" i rubbed my eyes feeling my eyelashes become messed up.

"sleep well?" suna rubbed my body for a sign of my comfort, his soft tiny smile, it wasn't a smile; it was his soft worried eyes that made me believe so.

"i slept great, how did you sleep"

i slept terrible, i can't tell him that thought, he'll only worry for me, and hold me tighter until he can't no more.

"well i slept good. maybe should of let you sleep in the middle, you seemed freezing lastnight."

"yeah because she put her feet on you" atsumu chuckled, his chest raised and deflated from his raspy chuckles.

doesn't sound like he's okay, sounds like he has to cough up something. but can't.

"dudeee shut up, i thought you were sleeping" suna slapped his side only making atsumu tense up and let out a "uag"

i'm glad they're back to normal, knowing atsumu will never apologize to me from embarrassment, hurts even worse than the slap.

"shut yer lil trap. i thought you guys were gonna fuck" he has wide eyes and frown that curved downward sarcastically.

the rain drops seemed to play a beat to my chest, my heartbeat felt fast, rapid, i felt like a drum being hit too hard, i could feel my chest becoming heavy.

hearing their voices space in and out from conversation only made my eyes seem heavy once again, my blinks while listening to them.

"y/n"

"Y/N"

"what" suna with a clearly worried or disgusted face, i hope it's worried.

one eyebrows was pushed up and a puckered out bottom lip and a look of "what the fuck"

"yeah what?" i said once more seeing atsumu pausing from his nail and toenail biting.

he looked at me, looked at the back of sunas head and back to me, this was the last time he did this and returned to his yoga like position quickly before giving a disappointed look.

the silence was so loud, i felt uncomfortable.

i could hear the faint whispers of silence from the forest, it felt as if we were surrounded by trees.

sitting up grabbing my half empty bag, i couldn't find anything, i grabbed sunas bag now pulling out his dark faded hoodie.

pulling it over me as the silence only seemed to make me want to leave them.

slipped on my slides and i unzipped the tent and zipped it back, surprisingly no one stopped me.

the mud under my feet wasn't much comforting.

i passed the knocked over chairs, trash scattered throughout the place as if a bear had come through the campsite.

i leaned down unzipping shion, kita, and osamus tent.

i didn't speak until spoken to, "hey y/n" kita said softly.

"sit down."

i pushed my muddy slides to the corner now pushing my weak knees down.

"we got ahold of aran." osamu was darker than normal; his baggy eyes, he didn't sleep much did he?

"and?" i felt a bit more relaxed hearing these words..

"he's gonna come pick us up-"

shion quickly interrupted the white haired boy "and- and we're gonna go to the police station"

kita swift eyes turned to the male and only blinked for his comfort.

his head fell to his lap now apologizing.

"well? i have a charger in my bag. cant we plug it into the car??" osamu grabbed his bag quickly.

"the cars won't start, no use"

why am i feeling so bad, we're gonna be saved.

"when's aran gonna arrive?"

the loudest thing was the silence once again.

"in two-three" another pause "..hours."

"are the cops on their way?"

a huff "a hour and a half almost two hours is the closest town

i paused..; footsteps encountering the tents door.

"hello"

all three of us only stared at the zipper, it slowly pulled itself from the bottom now opening, i could feel everyone's hearts in the tent drop.

"s-una!" osamu jerked now removing his grasp form his jewels.

"yeah" he entered the tent now pushing his shoes off outside.

"come on fuck face" he was on his hands and knees signaling atsumu to come on.

6 to a 4 man tent. nice.

atsumu ran into the small tent almost collapsing ontop of osamu and kita now breathing heavily.

"lord." kita said calmly now looking at atsumu who was acting immature.

"we're being saved boys" osamu said throwing his hands up letting out a gasp.

"oh really?"suna-

"yes"osamu-

"finally decide to call someone? we finally were freaked out" his sentence was calm but the way he said 'WE' and 'FREAKED' sounded way more harsh than it should of been.

i rubbed my fingertips slightly feeling my (long/short/chewed) nails.

"guys don't freak out during the last hour, be happy! the police are on their way" osamu had his index finger pointing at the tents door.

some might of been confused, but he was pointing down the road.

atsumu gave him a odd head tilt slightly looking behind him now returning eyesight to suna.

"not you oh my god" rolling his eyes now holding them there in a deep silent think.

"speaking of leaving, did kiyoomi drive his care with atsumu's girl here?" suna was a little shaken, you could tell by his voice.

"i guess, that's the only way unless they were dropped off. but no ones dumb enough to offer a ride to that slut and kiyoomi." his eyes were the eyes of a curious kita, something i've never seen.

"unless"

"unless?"

"unless you're that carrot and blueberry"

"hinata got his license??" i didn't think he did, neither did kageyama.

"nah kageyama got his permit hinata told me like a month ago" atsumu grabbed the water bottle from kitas lap.

only for kita to grab it and pull it back to his chest.

their fingers seemed so long, sharp, and pale.

everyone's face except the boys who had been in the tent longer than the other two had a face of shock.

"we don't have a lot of water left -, sorry Tsumu."

"wha-t??" suna pushed his hands to the tent floor sitting up slightly, no longer a face of shock but determination.

atsumu quickly pushed his feet under him rushing out of the tent kicking people in the process, he had his arms spread in the heavy storm now holding his tongue out;

his struggling breaths could be heard from over the rain.

"atsumu!" kita pushed shion off his side to osamu to bolt out of the tent grabbing the taller boys shoulders, struggling to pull atsumu back to the tent.

i got up slowly now stepping over sunas legs, i stepped into the wet ground grabbing kitas shirt that grew wet.

his pale face turned to me.

the look that someone crazy would give you, is everyone sane? why would he look at me this way, he's lucky i didn't stare back.

"let..go." atsumu said wiping his eyes now turning to kita.

"i was just thirsty." atsumu pushed his elbow into the white haired boy now walking to the dead fire.

"no one even does that" osamu called softly.

"release me" kita pulled his shirt from my fingers, pushing himself back into the tent.

"y/n" suna pulled his head from the tent now placing his large hand on my wet back.

"let's go to our tent, what do you say" he pulled me slightly, starting to walking.

"suna?" osamu called once more.

kitas voice was low, upset. he zipped the tent door shut that was blowing everywhere; suna softly guided me to the tents edge, atsumu staring at the fire.

hells woods is what it feels like.

-

"let's get you in some clean clothes and brush that tangled hair out"

i felt his hands all over me: i felt his warm hands pulling my damp shirt off my chilly skin, feeling his hands behind me holding me tightly, i felt the dry flimsy shirt coming over me.

"i can do it" i pushed his hands away as he placed dry sweats on my lap.

"i know- i was just handing you it."

i pulled at the wet pants, pulling it from me now pulling on another pair of sweats

"want me brush your hair?" i shook my head slightly, only for him to grab me anyway.

"come on, gotta look nice when everyone's comes right? i'll brush mine after i brush yours"

i pushed his hand away grabbing the brush from his hands holding his shoulder.

"don't act like you're not a worried" i pushed my fingers to his face pulling the black fluffy hair to the sides of his face.

tranquility was filling the tent while i held his hair to his cheek making sure it stayed in place.

"i'm not"

"you're not"

"nope"

we'll see wont we.

"what time is it" suna threw his hands around feeling for his dead phone.

"i don't know." i pushed my hands around the tent grabbing my phone.

i tapped the screen as suna and me hovered over the black screen.

"no no" suna grabbed my phone quickly now holding the power button tightly.

"the charger in osamus bag??"

i cut him off barely enough for him to stop talking."the car outlets won't work.

"fuck." he pulled his hands to his face shaking his head slowly.

"i'm sorry" i rested my hand on his knee not knowing how to comfort him.

the phone quickly flashed now turning on.

suna still had hands buried in his face.

"suna" i pushed at his leg now opening my phone with no service and 12 percent.

"12:04 when do you think they'll arrive?" i turned my phone face down.

"i don't know prolly soon, dont worry"

"i'm not worried just accused you of being worried"

"well i'm not" his eyebrows went up and a odd look expressed.

-

i lifted my head from the flat pillow looking over to suna who was staring up at the tent ceiling same as i was.

"stop staring at me."

slowly placing my head back on the flat cold pillow; looking at the shadow of the rain falling down the tents roof.

i wanted to respond, but to not feel as awkward after saying something in silence.

i closed my eyes only to be kept up by the rains harsh drops.

-

"y/n" my shoulders shook back and forth.

"wake up arans here"

my eyes jolted open as i grabbed sunas hands now grabbing my phone and opening the flow from the tent.

"y/n" suna grabbed at my waist holding me back.

"carefulll!" he barked.

"do we leave everything or pack up?" atsumu grabbed at he tent rods.

"take valuables. only valuables, once the police arrive we will come back for our equipment"

"okay!" my sight was still wonky i held sunas hands on my stomach.

"let's go get a bag ready"

he let go turning to the tent grabbing his bag now dumping it, the sound of clothes leaving the bag only for our things to be put into it.

- (i'm sorry ab all the skips i'm lazy and i'm trying to eat a apple and my teeth won't allow me)

the rain had stopped for the most part but only to be picked up again once we got on one of the main roads.

it didn't feel as if we were far. we were surrounded by trees, driving on the side of a mountain with guard rails along the sides.

the car drove smoothly. the silence was so loud..

"hey. no need to be so tense" sunas arms squeezed my shoulders into his side holding me.

i couldn't hear him clearly mostly, i don't understand why we were taken along. why did we come, at least it's all over.

or so i thought, arans car jerked backwards grabbing us pulling all of us forward quickly, feeling the car swerve towards the left lane, he pulled the steering wheel completely right making the car rush into the railing bouncing itself to the left lane flipping the van.

-

osamus body weight on me, who was sitting in the front seat.

my head ached, my lungs felt impaled i could feel blood coming from the inside of my mouth and pouring out down my cheeks.

i felt as if i was drowning, right here, right now.

ik she finally updated this crappily written story🙄🙄‼️ i have so much in mind to be written omg. sorry ab badly written sentences.