My exams are over.I have done good in exams and I am happy because of it but there is always restlessness in my life.I can't sleep,every night i silently cry missing my bhai.My mornings are no more chirpy.My feelings are just in my heart and one is there to listen my blabberings.

Baba calls me titli but that word seems empty.Mama and Sara always try to involve me in other matters to distract me.But how can i just forget the best part of my life?

He will always be in my heart.

Today mama told me about Ayesha Api's nikkah which is going to be held tommorrow.I was very happy about her that she will finaly be moving on in her life.

I was getting ready for going to Ahmed Uncle's House for nikkah ceremony when Sara barged in the room.

"Oh My Allah!you are looking so beautiful Api."she exclaimed.I just smiled in return.

"Don't boast yourself up,I am more pretty"Sara said making me laugh.

"Mama baba are calling so that we can leave."Sara told."Ok,so let's go pretty lady."I said and she hugged me."Ok boss!"she exclaimed while squeezing me in the hug.

We went outside inside the porch.Mama Baba hugged me and said "Ma sha Allah!our cute little daughter,you are looking so gorgeous."

"That's not fair baba!!!!"We heard Sara whining."I am more cute,sweet,lively and pretty also."

Mama smiled and spoke "yes my girl you have all these qualities but our Asmara is the most innocent one."

Baba and Sara nodded and I gave a small smile.They all are also missing bhai,there is no doubt.Yet they are masking their emotions and trying to cheer me up.I will also try my best to be strong and happy for my family."I thought to myself.

When we reached Uncle's House I greeted everyone and went to Ayesha Api's room to take her down for nikkah as she was getting ready.Ayesha Api was looking so beautiful.I went near her with a smiley face.

"Assalamoalaikum Api.

You are looking so beautiful Ma Sha Allah."I told her.

"Walaikumusalam Asmara.You are also looking good as always."

"Ok Api,let me take you downstairs.Everyone is waiting for you."

"Hmm.Ok titli."

We walked downstairs.Groom's family has also arrived.All were sitting for nikkah ceremony.Omar bhai sat next to Ayesha Api.And that was it...I can't handle this anymore.I went in a far corner.I was missing my bhai very much.He loved Ayesha Api.But Allah has different plans for him.Both of them are not destined to be one.

I prayed for Ayesha Api.

After that I told Mama that I am having headache.Aunty sent me in guest room for some rest as we have to stay till night here.

I took medicine and went to bed,I kept thinking about my bhai until sleep consumed me.

6thFeb,2020.