I am currently drawing the black cat y/n always goes to meet. I'm planning to leave this in her locker. but wait would that make me a stalker? Would y/n freak out? gosh, I'm overthinking this.

But I guess this drawing would be fine inside my sketchbook.

"Omg is she staring Yamaguchi, could it be she is thinking of making him his errand boy. is she going to bully him?" a bunch of girls gossiped about y/n.

"No she isn't and she won't, " I think to myself.

I hate this. I hate myself more because I can't bring myself to stand up to them. To tell them off, to tell them y/n wouldn't do such a thing. Y/n is the most gentle person I know. If only I wasn't such a coward.

sigh

I hear the chair being dragged and I see y/n leave the classroom. She usually does this when she wants to take a break. I feel more guilty, I just wish I could be a bit braver and not feel anxious all the time. I wish I was the type of guy to be unafraid of anything. But I'm not and that part of me makes me think y/n would be better with someone as strong as her. She never cries or looks sad whenever someone talks about her like that. She always looks unbothered. I wish... that I could just be a little braver.

I get up and walk to the hallway. The empty one where you can see the school garden. I know she will be there.

I see y/n smiling at Ms.Midnights and a smile appears on my face as well. I don't understand how she could make me so happy by simply existing in front of my eyes.

but I am jealous of Ms.Midnight, I wish I was sitting next to her instead.

author's note:

8 Nov 2020

don't worry we are getting into IT. its gonna get spicier from now on 👁👄👁✌💛

thanks for reading.