reopening my crusted over eyes, my line of sight was blinded from the morning sun bleeding through the curtains. i had no desire to get up today, it just felt so unneeded. "good, you're awake." eric called as he slammed open my door. his arms folded over his chest whilst his tone in voice was haunting. "what the hell happened last night? mind explaining?"

"what-what do you mean?" i hummed, barely awake and too far away to even understand what eric was talking about. "last night?"

"audrey? she ran out crying last night, mumbling something inaudible and pushed me away. cam, what did you say to her?" he was obviously irritated that i made his best friend cry, but we all cry and we all have bad days, and people will cause them to happen. my mind couldn't grasp the fact that i made her upset when i told her last night i never ever wanted to do that. "wake the fuck up cam!" he snapped in front of my face as i stared into space.

"eric, i don't know what to tell you." i declared and stood from my bed, tripling in height. but swagger was persistent, plus he knew i wouldn't hurt him. ever. not like matt would. "we just got into an argument i guess. people do that swagger, it's not all rainbows and sunshine all the time." he shook his head and stared intently into my eyes.

"cam, it wasn't like that. the way she-she was crying, it wasn't like she was angry... it was her being sad. she was hurt and in disbelief. whatever you did was fucked."

"swagger-"

"don't worry about it. i'm going over to her house to talk with her. when i come back, you better be gone or i will knock you out, cam. i'm not intimidated by your height." he huffed and marched out of my room. damn.

my hands gripped the silk sheet as my eyes peeled open, revealing a dark room full of silence once again. well, except for the constant ringing of my phone that woke me. looking at the time, i noticed it to be almost 7 am which angered me to say the least. who needed to be up this early? "what?" i answer with the rude tone intended.

"what the hell happened last night, audrey?" swagger's voice invaded my ears, his soft and smooth voice becoming more gravely. "cam isn't talking, so i'm coming over whether you like it or not, because that's what i'm here for." my legs stretched out as i felt my head become filled with even more annoyance. i didn't want anyone over, let alone someone who wanted to talk about last night.

"eric, i want to be alone. i think that would be best for right now, anyway." he huffed over the phone and i could practically hear the roll of his eyes.

"like i said, i'm on my way, audrey." well i'm not getting out of bed, so if nobody answers the door, technically it's not my fault... right?

-

my hands twist open the door handle to be faced with swagger. "can i come in?" he questioned. i nod and move aside to let him in. "cute silky pajamas." he cooed and stood by the stairs. my cheeks reddened from embarrassment, i should have changed, but no, i decided against that whole ordeal.

"thanks, you moron." we both went up the stairs and found my bedroom. "sit anywhere you'd like, but i'm laying in my bed." i mumbled and push myself back underneath the sheets.

"so, how hard do i need to beat cam's ass?" he query with a smirk playing on his lips. i hated that's where his mind went first. even if cam had done something rude to make me cry, i still wouldn't suggest swagger to beat him up..

"no, that won't be needed." my head shook as i covered my eyes with my hands. "he's sweet, swagger. he's all a girl could ask for... but i'm just not the girl he needs, or he deserves."

"you're not really explaining what happened here babe."

"right, right." i sighed. "last night i went up to speak with him because i knew he wasn't acting like himself. but when i entered he was upset to see me. it was almost like i had killed his dog or something."

"okay..?"

"well the other day he walked in on me and matt... making out, but that was all. well it seemed to really hurt him."

"hmm."

"yeah. well it hurt him so bad he cried rivers full of tears. he explained to me how i was basically his world and my smile radiated his life. but swagger i just don't... i don't see it. i don't see us. i've known cam for a while and i just don't. me and matt, sure but i know i won't do that again because he hurt me before and i just know he'll do it again. but there is something between us that constantly keeps pulling me in." we sat in complete lull for a moment while swagger took in everything i just said. i could tell by his facial expression that he was slightly confused but also displeased.

"so, tell me if i'm wrong please, but you turned away the perfect man for a complete asshole?" swagger comments, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his knees. "like honestly audrey... i see why cam is upset."

"i know eric. i feel like such a horrible person for hurting him like that... but in all honesty i don't want—i don't want to hurt him. and i don't want to be with matt either."

-

after swagger left, i got multiple texts from matt asking why cam and swagger were yelling at each other this morning. i pretended to be oblivious to the matter it had to do with him, and just went on to say they are probably just doing their normal shouting session. he believed me, but seemed cautious still.

picking up my phone, i once again found it ringing. it's vibrating taking me out of my trance as i overlook what has happened. "hello?"

"hey audrey." matt. his deeper voice entered my ears and i immediately fell into a bliss. "so, about the other night. i was wondering if you wanted to go to dinner with me this thursday night?" i know i shouldn't. i know i can't. cam, i can't hurt him again even if i really wanted to, that's not what type of person i am.

"i'm sorry matt, i don't think that's a good idea." i murmured and felt my breath start to leave my chest and a feeling that i was going to pass out soon invaded me.

"oh, okay. that's fine." he sighed. "the boys and i are having a little get together thing tomorrow night. swagger told me you weren't feeling well, but just incase i still wanted to invite you since you are now apart of the misfits."

"thanks, matt. i'll see what i can do."