I wake up in the middle of the night and look over at Gon who was still holding my hand. I smiled a bit but turned and looked at the ceiling. Did I like Gon? I mean I think I do. That day when he told me that he had feelings for me I didn't know if I said I liked him because he said it or what. Ugh this is so annoying. Why do I have to like my best friend? I turn my head and look at him before closing my eyes. The next morning I wake up to the smell of food. I sit up rubbing my eyes. I looked around the room and didn't see Gon. I get up and look out the window. I see Hisoka looking up at me. I gave him a dirty look and walked downstairs. I got down the stairs and Gon was standing by the window looking out. I stand next to him confused. I look out the window and see Illumi staring at us. My heart dropped. I pull Gon away from the window.

Me: Are you ok?

Gon: Yeah I'm fine *small smile* Come on we should go eat

Me: Oh ok

We eat breakfast and then head back upstairs. Gon didn't say much while we were eating and I knew something was wrong but decided not to ask.

Me: So what are we doing today?

Gon: Uh we can play some video games, I heard it was going to rain

Me: Ok *smiles*

Gon: Someone woke up happy

Me: Ok I wasn't going to ask again but what's wrong? I know something is wrong so why won't you tell me?

Gon: *looks at me* It's really nothing Killua, I'm just tired

Me: You sure?

Gon: Of course! *smiles* We should go somewhere *stands up*

Me: But I thought it was going to rain

Gon: We can go to that cave

Me: Ok *stands up* let's get there before it rains though

We each get dressed and head out the door saying bye to his aunt. We make our way to the cave. Luckily we didn't see Hisoka or Illumi so we should be good. Maybe we were just seeing things, I don't know I don't want to think about it. Gon ran ahead of me while I walked behind him.

Me: Hey Gon!

Gon: Yeah?

Me: Do you think Leorio and Kurapika are here?

Gon: I doubt it

Me: I'll text them when we go back home

Gon: We're here! *smiles*

We climbed into the cave and walked further. It wasn't a huge cave but it was nice. I sat down and just messed with my shirt. Gon laid down beside me.

Gon: Killua?

Me: Yes?

Gon: About yesterday sorry if that was weird when I asked you to sleep with me I-

Me: Your fine, and I didn't think it was weird

Gon: *looks at me* Really?

Me: Yeah

Gon: So do you actually like me or were you just saying you did?

Me: *looks away* Um well

Gon: I thought so, but it's ok

Me: *looks at him* I- it is?

Gon: Yeah, I'll get used to it *smiles*

Me: Oh

I wanted to tell him that I liked him. Yeah I said that I did that day but I didn't know if it was for real or not. I don't want to get any closer to him, because I'm afraid I'll lose him..

*skip about a month*

Me and Gon went fishing today and it was really fun. I mean more fun than I thought it would be. I also taught him to skate, yes it did take a bit but he got the hang of it. Leorio and Kurapika are coming today. We haven't seen them in years. It will be nice to see them again. When we heard that the ship was going to get here soon Gon shot up and ran. I had to catch up and of course I beat him. We watched as the ship came to a stop. Me and Gon ran to where they would get off and waited. Everyone got off and the last two people were Leorio and Kurapika.

Gon: *smiles* You guys made it!

Kurapika: You guys haven't changed one bit *laughs*

Leorio: Well Killua grew a bit *smiles*

Gon: Did I really not change at all?!

Everyone but me: *laughs*

I wasn't as excited as Gon. Yea I was happy to see them but there was too much on my mind. Like why did Illumi and Hisoka let us go? Why did Hisoka save us? Did they do that just to scare us or to tell my dad that Gon was dead. I balled up my fists and looked down.

Leorio: So Killua how have you been?

Me: Good

Leorio: Just good? Ok well what have you and Gon done for the past month?

Me: Just hanging out *walks ahead*

I could barely hear them but I knew they were talking about me. I decided to walk further ahead and lose them. I wanted to be alone so I could think things through. When I walked off I went to the cave. I sat there thinking and thinking. I heard footsteps and stood up and turned around.