Hisoka: Your fine I'm not gonna hurt you~

Me: What do you want?

Hisoka: What are you doing?

Me: Thinking why do you care?

Hisoka: Let me guess~ Your thinking about Gon *grins*

Me *looks down and blushes* So what if I am

Hisoka: *laughs and walks closer to me*

Me: What do you want?

I sat down looking away from him.

Hisoka: I'm just here

Me: Yeah I know, It's kinda pissing me off

Hisoka: Calm down~

Me: How can I calm down when a month ago you almost killed someone I cared about?! Do you have any idea how scary that is?!

He didn't say anything. I turn my head around with tears in my eyes. He looked at me speechless.

Me: You don't know what it's like, but it's not fun. I thought I was going to lose him. I never want to feel like that ever again!

I could hear Gon and them calling for me and I tried to be quiet while still crying. Hisoka sat on a rock a couple feet away from me.

Hisoka: I only did that because Illumi told me to

Me: Well maybe you should stop listening to him, How would you feel if someone did that to you

Hisoka: I wouldn't be happy I guess

Me: I should get going before they see that I'm talking to you *gets up*

Hisoka: No you can stay here I'll leave

Before I could say anything he was gone. Leorio Gon and Kurapika came up and saw me standing there. My eyes were puffy and red, all I wanted to do was curl up and cry myself to sleep.

Kurapika: Hey Killua why are you crying?

Me: *wipes eyes with sleeve* I'm not

Gon: *looks at me with a concerned look*

Kurapika: You sure? You can tell us anything

Me: It's nothing ok!

I couldn't keep myself together. I cared about Gon so much that yesterday I really thought I was going to lose him and that scared me. I felt stupid crying infront of them, like I was weak or something. But I couldn't hold it in. I fall to the floor cupping my face. Gon sits next to me and puts his arm around me. Leorio and Kurapika sit down not knowing what to say or do.

Gon: Killua whats wrong?

Me: A month ago

Leorio: What happened a month ago?

Gon: A lot, but why are you upset? I'm alive right

Leorio: Wait you almost died?!

Me: I was scared ok! I thought I was going to lose my best friend..

No one said anything for a minute.

Kurapika: Killua I understand that you were scared, I know how it feels to lose people who you care about most. But Gon is still here he's not hurt

Me: I know

Gon: Then why are you crying? That was a while ago

Me: Gon you don't understand! *stands up and looks down* You were my first real friend. I didn't want to lose you! If I had lost you I wouldn't know what to do with myself

Gon gestures for me to sit and I did.

Gon: *hugs me*

I was surprised by his action. But I hugged him back. Kurapika and Leorio joined in on the hug. I try to pull away but Gon doesn't let go. Leorio and Kurapika let go but Gon held on.

Gon: I won't leave you I promise

Leorio and Kurapika left the cave and went back to their hotel or something. I hugged Gon tighter and cried into his shoulder.

(authors note: Pretend that they're in a cave lol)

Me: I- I love you Gon

Gon tensed up before saying anything.

Gon: I love you too Killua *smiles*