"You watched me bleed until I can't breathe, shaking, falling onto my knees," I sang quietly along with Shawn's sweet voice. I usually went to listen to him when I was sad, which was happening a lot lately. I basically had the album memorized. A knock on the door made me turn the music down, embarrassed, and yelled it's open. I wasn't expecting Lisa to pop up.

"Hey, can we talk maybe?" She asked, not asking if she could come inside before barging in.

"I guess." Since you're already in here.

She sat up so straight it was like she was afraid of my gayness rubbing off on her. I stared at her because I didn't know what to say, and I was waiting for her to start. She looked down at her lap, then cleared her throat and looked back up at me.

"I know you heard about what happened with Alex and I. It may not look like it, but I'm really shook up about it. I do love him, and it hurts that I had to do that." Could've fooled me. "But I'm not here to tell you about this. I want to ask you to stay away from Alex." I let out a giggle.

"Are you serious?" I asked, giggles erupting from me at rocket speed.

"Yes I am very serious. I feel like you're getting into our relationship and I won't have it. He's over you Jack."

"You do understand what you're asking right? You're asking me to stay away from my best friend, who just so happens to be the lead singer of our band. That's gonna be pretty hard to do, taking in the fact that I would even listen to your stupid ass. Get out of my room." She gasped. Her face started getting red, and before I knew it her hand had collided with my face and she was storming out the door. I was still laughing when Zack and Rian came in ten minutes later.

"What's got you so giggly?" Rian asked.

"I think Lisa was trying to threaten me," I said, "she told me to stay away from Alex, and when I refused she slapped me."

"At least she didn't rack you." Zack butted in, looking up from his phone.

"I'm surprised you even heard that, Merrick. You've had your head stuck in your phone for three days straight." I said through a smirk.

"I have not."

"Yes you have."

"Have not."

"Yes."

"No."

"Yes."

"No."

"Yes."

"Okay fine. I have."

"And whom have you been texting?" I asked, even though I already knew the answer. His face started getting red, and that confirmed everything. "Zack that's a bad idea man."

"I know, I know! I just, I don't know. She's a cool girl."

"Who just so happens to be underage." Rian added. Zack looked down at the floor.

"Let's all shut up and go get something to eat." I said, ending the conversation.

.

"We need to think about the tour and the fans." I said with my mouth full of fries.

"We can't really go anywhere without Alex. We can't leave him here." Zack replied.

"Call Hopeless. Let's make them decide. You can sing the songs just as good as Alex."

"But the fans don't like me."

"That's bullshit Zack and you know it." Rian butted in. "I'm calling hopeless."

We had an argument with Hopeless, but they soon agreed that we had to continue with the tour. We were losing money from all the concerts we were doing. They weren't happy with us right now, but they knew we could make it up to them. So the next day we were on the road again to Cleveland, Ohio.

•

"Ready?"Rian asked me. He had his hand on my shoulder. I breathed deeply, nodded, and we walked out onto the stage together. The crowd screamed their high pitched screams as we did. I smiled widely and stepped up to my microphone.

"Hello Cleveland!"

•

We were half way through Stella when it happened. Zack was singing loudly, louder than he usually has ever, when all the lights went out. I stopped playing and tried to see what was happening. A light shown to the side of the stage and I saw that Alex was standing there with a microphone.

"Hey Jack." he said weakly. He gave a small smile, and I felt my legs go weak a little.

What's wrong with me? I'm supposed to hate him.

"I've done some shitty things the last couple of weeks. I know I shouldn't have. I can't explain why I've been such a dick," Alex started getting closer to me, who probably looked like an idiot with my mouth hanging open, " but I do know that almost marrying Lisa was the biggest mistake of my life. She's not the person I love." Alex stood in front of me. He put the microphone down, and said quietly,

"I love you, Jack. Always have, always will."

I pulled him into a hug.

"I'm sorry, but I don't love you." I whispered, tears going down my face.

"What?" He pushed me away.

"I don't love you anymore," I said again. "You hurt me to a point where I can't love you."

"You're lying." He said, completely baffled.

"Of course I'm lying." I said smiling, pulling him by his collar towards me and kissing him. The crowd screamed so loud I thought my ear drums were going to burst. I didn't care though.

Alex loved me back. That's all I needed. That's all I've ever needed.

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I M SO SORRY THIS CHAPTER SUCKS IVE HAD NO IDEAS FOR THIS ETORY AND IVE JUST BEEN HAVING BRAIN FARTS I SWEAR ILL MAKE IT BETTER FONT GIVE UP KN THIS FAN FIC