❝ and namjoon-hyung helped me with most of the biology terms. i think i get it, but his teaching is a little hard to get used to. i kind of wish you were here to tutor me like old times, hyung. say-❞

❝ oh, fuck. i just talked to you for six hours. dammit... i'm so sorry, hyung. you probably will never listen to my voicemails and i'm probably just talking to nobody and nothing, but if there is a chance that you do listen to these, even if it's the slightest chance, i hope you're doing okay. i'm not asking you to forgive me, i'm really not. i deserve to be hated and to be ignored. i'm no good at anything and i don't deserve a caring hyung like you. i just hope you're living your life happily. the thought of you doing just that makes me happy and that's all i can ever wish for. i'm sorry again, love you hyung. bye. ❞