After our one time together things moved slowly but I developed an unhealthy obsession with him.

On the field during bootcamp I found myself watching him more than usual, the way his body moved hidden behind the material of his shirt yet I could imagine all of his muscles so vividly as if the shirt wasn't even there.

I watched his lips, mostly they would remain straight, no emotion whatsoever behind them. But sometimes I would see them twitch in amusement, often at the expense of others. Yet he would throw his hand up over his mouth or cough or something just to hide his secretive smile. They were perfectly pink and looked so soft, I thought about kissing them almost every second of every day.

When he barked orders in my face I found myself inhaling his breath deeply, just to keep a part of him inside me for longer.

He always smelt like pear drops and his eyes captivated me wholly, like a golden, warm sunrise with the promise that something new and exciting would follow.

He was my every thought, my every dream and my every wish. So why wasn't he making the second move?

It had been a week and we fell back into normality, worse than normality. We fell into non existence. He was the Lieutenant, I was the criminal. Coexisting on the field only.

"Why didn't you come to dinner Harper?" Hannah asked me as I got dressed in my army slacks.

Truthfully I didn't go to dinner because I didn't want to see his face. I was too addicted to him, now I needed to avoid him the best I possibly could in order to protect my heart.

"Nate gave me his metal stick thing so I'm going to take one of the cars out for a drive and pick up some food elsewhere. You wanna come?" Hannah started laughing, like rolling around on her bed laughing.

"Harper, you're crazy. That's too much for me, you're gonna get yourself kicked out. I'm surprised you've lasted this long." I just shrugged. I couldn't stay cooped up inside like a caged animal, which is ironic because I will literally be thrown into a cage if I'm caught. I pulled on my jacket and waved her goodbye, slipping the metal rod up my sleeve.

The parking lot was dark, not much light at all. I walked around trying to find the cheapest looking car to steal, I figured the cheaper it was the more likely it would belong to one of the lower ranking officers. I set my eyes on a small Nissan looking like it came straight out of the nineties.

A nearby whistle made me freeze as soon as I set my hand out on the glass pane. I looked around and couldn't see anyone.

"Harper."

"Fuck!" I shouted as Axel crept up behind me, "you scared me half to death!" I clutched my hand over my heart to settle the pounding.

"What are you doing here Harper?" His eyes flicked down to my hands, though the metal rod was still hidden up my sleeve.

"Nothing I could tell my Lieutenant." I swivelled on the gravel, planning to walk away and avoid punishments or even worse, awkward conversation. But he grabbed my arm and turned me around, only then could I see the sadness in his eyes.

"That's all I am to you now? Your Lieutenant?" I wiggled my arm free, mostly because he was pressing the metal rod into my skin.

"Aren't you?" I turned the question back around on him and he frowned.

"We can't discuss this here." He jangled his car keys around his fingers and then looked toward his car. With a sigh he muttered "get in."

I felt awkward, sitting in the passenger seat of his car, I couldn't help but check him out. There was something about seeing his hands and how they gripped the steering wheel with ease that did it for me, or maybe it was the carefree way he positioned his legs. Like driving made him truly relaxed. Is that weird?

"You didn't come by my living quarters to see me afterwards." He pointed out after about twenty minutes of silence.

"You didn't ask me too. You didn't talk to me out on the field. You didn't shoot me secretive smiles in the cafeteria. I thought you regretted it." I admitted, not able to look at him.

"I can't say I didn't have regrets because I did. I do." My heart plummeted. It clenched deep down inside my stomach in the most painful way. "My whole life I've tried to prove to myself that I'm good enough, that I'm capable of making my father proud. But I broke the rules, broke my oath and let myself down."

I listened to him carefully, trying not to show that I was bothered by the words he was speaking right now.

"You know how many recruits I've had try and seduce me over the years? I refused to let myself feel any sexual urges so I could remain in complete control. I never thought about sex, ever. I didn't feel turned on. I didn't watch porn. I didn't jerk off. I didn't even feel attracted to people."

"That can't be healthy." He shrugged one shoulder.

He took one hand off the steering wheel and then moved his finger over his short stubble.

"And then you turn up and at first it was the attraction, you're beautiful Harper but then you looked at me and I felt myself get nervous around you. My palms constantly sweat, my heart raced and I was conscious of every word I said because I didn't wanna sound dumb.

Your smart mouth made my dick twitch, your absolute incompetence to perform the simple tasks made my insides burst, I looked forward to seeing you every damn day and prayed you stepped out of line just so I could spend longer with you in the only way I could.

I was in trouble because I was so drawn to you. I stopped watching the other recruits just so I could look at you. You had power over me like I've never known, among the rocks, you're my diamond.

But that is exactly why it can't happen again"

I breathed out quietly, I wasn't ready for that.

"I liked your speech but is that what you really want because I can think of a funner alternative?"

I put my hand on his inner thigh, his body stiffened beneath my touch and I slid it upwards towards his crotch.

"Harper — fuck! — I'm driving." He gasped out as my hand grabbed him through his jeans.

"So, you drive. I'll eat." I unbuckled my belt and then unzipped his jeans and pulled out his dick.

The car swerved a little but the roads were pretty abandoned so I don't think we were in any real grave danger.

"Are you gonna tell me no?"

He squirmed in his seat, his cheeks turning a little pink. Not through embarrassment more in a flustered way. Temptation was placed on a plate in front of him, was he going to refuse?

"No." He said sternly and I smiled back at him as he gripped the steering wheel tighter with both hands.

"No don't do it or no you're not going to tell me no?"

I moved my thumb over the head of his dick, spreading the pre-cum to all of his nerve endings. He gasped lowly and fluttered his eyes closed before remembering he needed his eyes open to see the road.

"What's it gonna be Lieutenant? You want my tongue all over your shaft or not?"

More pre-cum oozed out of him and I massaged it into the soft head of his penis and then gripped his length and started a really slow hand job.

"Fuck, Harper!" He hissed, clenching his teeth together and swaying the car more.

"Yes, Jesus Christ yes! I want to feel the back of your throat with the head of my dick." He took one hand off the steering wheel and grabbed my hair, thrusting my head downwards in frustration.

My mouth wrapped around it like a blanket and Axel moaned then tilted his head back, the car slowed down to a snails pace driving up the dirt road.

He scooped all of my hair back out of the way as I milked his dick with my mouth. He took the lead, moving my head and up and down his shaft roughly by the grip of my hair, I was powerless to resist.

Forced to worship him as he sat back and moaned deep within his throat and cussed and gasped. His hips thrust up and down, deep throating me. I couldn't breathe but I didn't want to breathe, I would choose Axels dick over oxygen any day.

He yanked my mouth away completely and then back on it, practically screaming each time I made first contact again.

"Fuck Harp, I'm gonna fucking explode." He pulled my face out again and held me still, not allowing me back on his dick.

He pumped a few times and then just as promised he exploded all over my face like I was some dirty little whore.

His breathing was ragged and he looked at me, a little worried about my reaction to the cum shot dripping all over my face. I swiped my thumb in it and seductively dipped it into my mouth and sucked.

"Jesus Harper, get on me right now I need to fuck you senseless." He demanded. I didn't hesitate to fulfil his wishes.