As I said, I lived with it.

I am in the philosophy-class and it is my favorite subject ( and English of course ^^)

One day I sat in front of the classroom with one of my friends, when suddenly C. walked towards A. and talked to her.

A. and I had an argument before so I wasn't really happy at this moment and the fact that C. would go in a class with me didn't make me feel better.

Well I didn't really mind an sat next to another friend who understood me and made me a little laugh. Well after a few minutes we had to fill in words in a list.

Well, C., A. and I like the same Band and we nearly know everything about them. So we had the title "What means Beauty to you?" and we wrote a lot things about 'our' Band.

We laughed.

We joked.

And it was like we had no problems.

In the break, I needed a bit air so I went outside an sat on the floor. After a few seconds C. came to me and wanted to talk.

I agreed and stood up. She went through a door and said

"I wanna apologize, because I can't live with ignoring you"

I was surprised, because it was who said she doesn't cares about me.

So we speak to each other again.

A. said that she doesn't likes it, because she is afraid of losing me and that C. would hurt me again.

Maybe she's right.

Maybe I shouldn't talk to her.

But I can't...

I missed her so much and I'm actually not strong enough to ignore her.

But there's one thing I'm sure about:

I won't tell C. anything important from my life anymore.