I'm so glad

That the ruins of my past

Were good enough

For you two to grow close.

When it all went down,

You did not see the hurt in me,

When I was screaming it

So clearly, for all to hear.

You said it was stupid,

Wanting the best for me,

And that you thought

It was too soon to know

That I was sure of my choice.

In the end, when it fell apart,

You said you understood me,

And that you stood by my side.

And even if I didn't

Fully believe those words,

I still felt like maybe

You just didn't want to pick sides.

That was even after

I open up about

My fears and my ghosts

And you said I was full of bullshit.

But you keep mentioning him

Whenever you're around me,

Even though I'm sure you know

How much I hate that.

I'm sure you know very well

How little I care about

What he thinks of other people now

And what stupid mistakes he wants to make.

When you're not talking about him,

I feel like you are not talking to me at all.

Maybe you like his presence more,

And that's why you spend

So much of your time with him lately.

Maybe it's me to blame,

For trying to express the feelings of the water

To the heartless wind.

But maybe it's you

And your pretty words,

For throwing the crab outside,

In the raging hurricane.