Today was Willows 3rd birthday, I'm filled with mixed emotions as I get us up for the day. I'm so happy for Willow but I'm also very sad for the death of our mom. I shake my head trying to clear my thoughts, I have a few things planned for her birthday today. I even told my teachers that I wouldn't be in today so that I can spend the whole day with the birthday girl.

Once we where ready we waited for Alan to pick us up, while we waited I played tea party with Willow. She was so cute in her little tiara she got at Christmas, Willow was the type of kid that made you smile just looking at her.

Willow's Spirit has always been bright she has always brought the life into a room, willow has a very excitable love for Disney Princess her favorite is Ariel she loves her vibrant red hair and the fact she lives in water.

Willow is happiest when swimming, I think it has to do with the fact she is a water child. She hasnt come in to any of her abilitys yet but our mother told me she came in to hers at 12, which is a normal time for children to usually get them.

They say the goddess granted us with abilitys because we are so close with nature, the whole species is elemental.

I developed my abilitys at birth, as an infant I could control and manipulate all nature. Earth, Fire, Air, and Water Ive always thought I might have come from a powerful family. But if I was important I'm not so sure they would have abandoned me here. But I never let anyone see except my mom, and my mom had kept it a secret from even my father no one knows about them. I'm always afraid of what would happen if they did.

Buzz* buzz* I look down at my phone and Alan had texted me.

*I'm here* it read I quickly texted him that we where headed outside, I grabbed willows present and we headed outside. I was extra careful to be quiet today was one of the worst for my fathers abusive rage, its the Anniversary day of her death I always made sure willow and I where not here around this day.

Once we where finally outside I spotted Alan sitting in his truck, I opened the door and let the chair forward so I can put willow in her seat. "Hey Alan" I say cheerfully "hello my lovely ladies" alan says and smiles big "Happy Birthday" willow giggles and cutly says "thank you".

I hopped in the truck and Alan headed twards the park, I had Matty go early and set up for us. I got Willow lots of Ariel princess birthday decor for her party, only a few of her friends where able to come but I was happy that she at least would have a few there.

When we got there Matty was just finishing up setting the decor, I jump out of the truck and get willow out of her seat and set her down. She runs to Matty "Aunt Matty!" She yells and runs to matty, matty gives her a big hug "Happy Birthday Princess" she says putting her little tiara on her head.

Willows party was a success she had a blast and even got a little kitty pool as a present, we filled it up for the kids and she stayed in there the whole time splashing happily.

By the time we where done cleaning up after the party willow had fallen asleep tuckered out from the excitement.

"Hey do you guys want to stay the night?" Matty askes

"Sure, that would be fun" I say as I lay willow down in the truck so we can switch her seat over to Mattys car. Once we are all switched over to mattys car we head to her house, this is the first time I've stayed out in a while. I was excited for girl time, between my fucked up home life and school I hadent had much time to hang out with Matty.

"Hey Matty can you stop at the cemetery really fast I want to take Willow to see our mom?" I asked

"Sure, not a problem" she says

I just remembered that we hadent stopped by her grave and put flowers on the grave yet today, It wasn't much but I wanted to show my respects to her even though today should be a happy one.

As me and willow approach mom's grave sadness overwhelms me and tears start rolling down my face. Willows hold on my tightens "why is sissy sad?" Willow asks concern all over her face.

"I miss Momma" I say hugging her tight willow doesnt quite understand but she doesnt ask anymore questions. When we got back in to the car I took a deep breath and smile at willow in her seat "even though mommas gone you still have me, you will always have me" she smiles at me "I Love you Willow" I say as Matty starts the car "I Love You!" She smiles big and Matty starts heading back to her house.

By the time we got to Matty's it was getting dark, I was happy to be out of that house, that house will forever haunt my dreams.

Matty prepared popcorn and I set up a movie, I brought a ton of Willows favorite Disney movies. I also brought a few more popular movies for us to watch after bed time, so it wasn't all princesses all night.

The weekend passed so fast it was like we didn't even have one. But it was also so amazing that I have a smile glued to my face. Willow even seemed to be more lively and chatty, at least here she isn't just confined to one room.

I hate that it is necessary for her to have to only stay in our room but just the site of Willow makes him furious he hasn't seen her since she was weeks old. The first time he ever raised a hand to anyone was when he seen willow for the first time when she was 4 weeks old. It was the first time I took a beating for her, little did I know it wouldn't be the last.