"alright bitches, i have a game idea!" minho said as he came around with ripped up pieces of paper and pens, "take one of each."

"what's the game?" jeongin asked curiously.

"anonymous apologies!" minho announced once everyone had pen and paper. most of the boys groaned in annoyance, realizing this was hardly a game at all.

"this doesn't sound like a fun game." jisung pouted.

"no, but it's needed. i feel like we all have some apologizing to do, so let's start here. everyone, choose a person you want to apologize to and write it down. afterwards, fold your paper and put it into this hat. then we will each pull a random piece of paper and read it out loud. if we can guess correctly who wrote in only one guess, then they have to admit to it." minho explained his made up rules, and surprisingly everyone agreed to it.

"this actually doesn't seem like a bad idea... it's a good way to start with all the apologies we need to make towards one another." hyunjin nodded.

"yeah that's true. it may be awkward, but we need to start somewhere." seungmin added.

"then get to writing." minho instructed as he began to think of his own apology to write.

after sometime, all the boys finished writing out their apologies and placed them into the hat. to display what the game should look like, minho started with the first apology.

"okay... i fucking got my own." minho said as he went to put the paper back.

"no re-draws! just read it!" jisung shouted, making minho jump.

"why are you shouting at me? jeez!" minho clutched his chest, in shock from jisung screaming so loudly.

"read yours!"

"but now you know it's mine."

"i don't care, read it!" jisung demanded incessantly.

"fine... to the group, chan, changbin, hyunjin, jisung, felix, seungmin, and innie... i'm sorry. i don't know exactly where to start because i know i have a lot of flaws, but i will just start with a simple i am sorry. i have hurt a lot of you by my use of logic instead of emotion in most scenarios. i have jisung to thank for being the one to show me that sometimes using emotion is the logical way to solve a problem.

i will try not to lack so much emotion in the future. it has become a habit of mine to view emotion in a negative way and so i always viewed logical and strategies as the only method for solving my issues. i know that has hurt all of you at one point, i am so sorry for that."

"awe minhoooo! you have me to thank?" jisung asked with doe eyes looking up at the boy.

"yes..." minho nodded shyly.

"it's okay minho, we appreciate that logical side of you." chan stated as he placed a comforting hand on the boy's shoulder. minho just nodded and took a seat in between chan and jisung.

"thanks chan, you can go next." minho mumbled.

"okay," chan said as he dug to the bottom of the hat, "this one says... 'to changbin, i'm sorry for hating you at the start of this school year. i don't really have a justification for it other than the fact that i was jealous of you. i put a lot of blame on you for the sadness in my life, but it was really never your fault. i'm sorry for resenting you so much and adding to the pain you felt at that time. thank you for never hating me in return.'"

"do you have a guess as to whose that is?" minho asked, thinking he knew the answer.

"i think i do," chan said as a small laugh escaped him, "i feel like if i were anyone of you i would guess myself... even though changbin did kind of hate me... but since i know i didn't write this, i'm going to guess that it was... innie?"

"it was..." jeongin stared down as he played with the laces on his shoes.

"you hated me, innie?" changbin asked with a sad expression on his face.

"how could i not hate you? you had hyunjin." jeongin admitted.

"he never had me innie, we were always just friends. you have me, okay?" hyunjin assured the boy who just shyly nodded in response.

"you go pick one now, jeongin." minho instructed and the boy slowly picked one of the paper's out of the hat.

"okay," jeongin cleared his throat, "it says, 'i'm sorry to everyone if i am being honest. i have a terrible temper lately and i think it's because i choose to bottle up my feelings rather than trusting all of you to help me through them.

i know it's not fair that i blow up at all of you when truthfully, none of you have really wronged me in anyway. i am especially sorry to chan and felix, i went after them the most and i was wrong for that. i hope you will all forgive me and help me work on talking through my emotions rather than just exploding. again, i am so sorry.'"

seungmin ducked his head as jeongin finished reading this out. it was obvious to everyone he was the one who wrote this.

"we forgive you seungmin." jeongin said, speaking for everyone.

"yeah, we really do seungmin." felix added.

"we love you minnie!" chan smiled over at the boy who was sitting across the circle from him.

"thanks guys..." seungmin said shyly as he stood up and grabbed a piece of paper, "'to minho, i'm sorry you found out the way you did about everything back then. i hope you don't even remember this, but i'm sure you do.

i'm sorry for breaking your trust and for giving you reasons to think i would ever lie to you. i'm sorry for making you think you weren't enough for me. i harmed you in more ways than one back then and yet you still were able to look passed that and be with me. i'm so sorry minho, especially since it has taken me so long to apologize."

"i didn't think minho and jisung ever had issues..." jeongin mumbled.

"me neither," chan added as he turned to look over at minho who was staring down at the ground.

"well obviously this was jisung," seungmin said as he let the paper fall out of his hand and onto the ground, "i didn't know anything bad ever happened between the two of you."

"it was my fault and minho never even confronted me on it." jisung explained, making minho finally look up, his eyes a bit glossy.

"why are you apologizing now?" minho asked, his voice sounding weak.

"you deserved an apology, it should've happened much sooner though." jisung stated.

"so... what happened exactly?" hyunjin asked, being slightly nosy.

"i was talking to another guy at the same time i began talking to minho. i don't have a good reason for it, so don't ask for one. there would never be a good reason for doing that. minho told the guy off though and he told me about it... that's how i found out minho knew." jisung explained to the group.

"is that why you hate relationships without a label?" changbin asked, and all minho could do was nod in response.

"can we just move on?" minho begged, and jisung quickly pulled out another paper to read.

"okay, moving on..." jisung said, "'i want to apologize to jeongin. i have liked you since we were in our first year of high school and all this time i kept quiet because i was afraid of ruining our friendship.

i was always pretty selfish about it and never once thought about if you would want to know or not. i depicted you very poorly in my mind and convinced myself you would hate me if you knew... which is so far from true. even if you didn't like me back, you would never hate me.

but that's not all i want to apologize for, i also want to say i'm sorry for never taking you seriously when you speak to me about your mental health. i always just brush you off and that is so incredibly unfair of me.

i'm sorry innie, you deserve more than i can give you, i am selfish a lot of the time. it's easier to only talk about happy things and to make you laugh, but i should be more considerate to how you are feeling. i will try to do that from now on, please forgive me...' am i wrong in thinking hyunjin wrote this?"

"not wrong at all." hyunjin shook his head and looked over at jeongin who was teary eyed.

"idiot!" jeongin slapped him hard in the arm.

"ow! what was that for?" hyunjin whined as he rubbed his arm.

"for being an idiot! i accept your apology though." jeongin rolled his eyes, he was strictly teasing hyunjin because he didn't know how to be emotional in front of the group. later he did plan on speaking about this to hyunjin though.

"at least you accept my apology." hyunjin shrugged.

"here jeongin, pick one." jisung said as he handed the boy the hat.

"okay, this says, 'dear hyunjin, i don't think anyone really realized this... but i was awful to you this summer and for a good part of the school year. i used you, whether i would truly like to admit that or not... it's true.

i used you to hide behind when things got hard with felix, i pretended to like you and confused your feelings, and i selfishly kept you around me all the time even though i knew you liked jeongin and knew it would harm your chances with the boy.

the list goes on for all the mistakes i made with you, but i know you probably never even viewed it that way. i'm sorry hyunjin.' so this is from changbin, right?"

"it is." changbin nodded.

"you didn't do anything wrong though." hyunjin spoke up.

"please hyunjin, just let me apologize." changbin pleaded, and hyunjin gave in.

"fine... i forgive you." hyunjin responded, even though he still didn't see the full issue with what changbin did. they were friends and to hyunjin, that's what he was there for.

"okay, there's only two left so you will either choose chan or felix's." minho stated as changbin grabbed a paper out of the hat.

"well let's see... it says, 'i have a lot i want to apologize for to each and every one of you if i am being honest... so i guess i will just do that.

dear minho, i am sorry for literally never taking your advice even though it always makes the most sense. you have always gone out of your way to help me and i never appreciate that enough, so for that i am truly sorry.

dear seungmin, i am sorry for not spending more time with you and for not talking to you more. i feel you are someone i am very similar to and that we have a lot we could possibly bond over. i'm also sorry for never confronting you about the pain i can see you are clearly going through, i should be there for you more and i am not.

dear jeongin, i'm sorry for dumping my life issues onto you all the time. i know you say you're fine with it because you're one of my best friends, but that doesn't make it right. i know you have a lot going on and i should respect that, so thank you for being there... but still i am sorry.

dear hyunjin, i'm sorry for probably casting several evil spells onto you. i was just so so jealous of you. i thought you were everything i am not... pretty, talented, funny... etc. but now i realize we are just two completely different people and that is okay. i'm sorry for using you as a human punching bag when you didn't deserve it, you only ever deserved words of kindness, yet i hated you for being close to changbin. it wasn't right, i hope you can forgive me.

dear jisung, i'm sorry for pretty much abandoning you once you started dating minho. i know you would reach out and i would just ignore you and that was partially because i just didn't want to hear about how happy you were when i was just so unhappy. that is so incredibly selfish of me and i promise to never do that again.

dear chan, i am sorry for not taking your feelings into account when you drunkenly confessed to me. i am sorry for keeping you around even though i knew it was hurting you. i am sorry i couldn't love you in the way you loved me.

and last, but never least, changbin...

dear changbin, i'm sorry for trying to leave you... like permanently. i never really thought about how it would affect you until i found out you were by my side everyday after i did it. i guess i never really realized how much you love me and i feel like that was pretty foolish of me.

i'm sorry i ever considered death as an option on a way out of my problems. i should've known that even as a friend you would be there for me if i needed you... and you were. you literally proved that the day my cuts started bleeding in the cafeteria and you brought me home to clean them.

i'm sorry for not loving myself and for not wanting to be alive, but i can proudly say i want to live now thanks to all you have shown me about life.

once again, to all of you, i am so sorry.'" as changbin finished reading this, his eyes were beginning to well with tears. it was obvious to everyone in the room who wrote it.

"f-felix..." changbin stuttered out as the paper fell out of his hand and fluttered down onto the floor.

"i'm sorry..." felix said shyly as changbin cupped the boy's cheeks.

"i forgive you." changbin smiled as he placed a kiss to the boy's forehead. the rest of the group would also say the same as changbin, but they knew it was much more important for felix to focus on changbin's forgiveness in that moment.

"i guess i am left to read about chan's." felix said as he walked over to grab the paper from the hat.

"i guess so..." chan mumbled, afraid of what felix would think of what he wrote on the small, shredded piece of paper.

a.n.

slight cliff hanger??? idk HAHAHAHA

i hope this is good, i really don't know