November 16, 1999

I think Tyler likes me again! Yesterday and today we were both online at the same time and we had conversations. And they weren’t boring conversations, they were like how they used to be in the summer. He brought up inside jokes from a while ago subtly, like not on purpose - but it probably was on purpose. [Yeah, it definitely was on purpose.]

He even asked me to hook up with him a few times. In the summer when he did that, it was like oh, haha. But now, if he’s serious, I’m all for it. Today is Monday - next Wednesday, we get out of school early. Jenna is coming over that day. Maybe we’ll walk into town with the guys.

Jenna is not into hooking up with guys in our grade. She had sex with one of Aaron’s friends from Catholic school and then didn’t get her period for two months. I was so worried she was pregnant! But then she got it last night and she told me today. That would be awful if she were pregnant. She’s only thirteen! She shouldn’t even be having sex. She has the lousiest reputation right now.

Once, about a week ago, I was at the playground after school. Tyler and Jacob were having a contest to see who could hold himself up on the monkey bars longer. Jacob kept losing and Tyler said, “Wow, Jacob, you suck! This is easier than Jenna!” Everyone laughed, but I felt bad.

Jenna is easy, but I still feel bad. She needs to stop being a slut. Otherwise, next time she will get pregnant. [No mention of birth control here, whether or not she was using it, which seems like an obvious miss on my part.]