"Well," Delilah paused the second she laid her eyes on the creation of Edward and Bella Cullen, "Its not the cute little baby I was expecting, but it'll do."

"Are you saying she's not cute?" Emmet Cullen shot back.

It had been a frosty reception since Delilah had arrived at the Cullen household. That was partly because Olivia had wasted no time in spilling all the beans about her conversation with Delilah the second she arrived home. Meaning glares were being sent her way by every family member expect, Bella, Esme, Carlisle and Rosalie. The latter not even looking in her direction.

"I would never say that about my niece." Delilah shot back, quite offended, "These curls are the most beautiful. Are they natural? I wish mine were." The vampire bent down to the child's height and picked one of the ringlets up, Delilah was almost jealous of a child, "I spent years perfecting mine and you just get gifted them. Aren't you lucky?"

Now, she might have called her the spawn of satan and the next hell raiser before she was born. But that didn't mean Delilah was going to say that to the girls face, that would be rude even for Delilah.

Besides, it was her niece after all. The least she could do was be kind.

"Maybe only nice people get nice hair." Emmet replied, it seemed he had woken up on the wrong side of the coffin.

"That's not a very nice thing to say, is it Renesmee? I think Uncle Emmett's just jealous he doesn't have nice hair like us."

The former Volturi guard was doing her best to ignore all the hate comments, but it was hard when she felt like she was the Lindsay Lohan in a room full of Paparazzi.

"Uncle Emmett's hair is nicer." Was Olivia's input.

Delilah didn't bother replying to that comment, instead she just pulled a face at Renesmee, the little girl smiling back at her. It seemed not everyone hated her, "Oh look at that bracelet, it's so pretty. Do you think I could borrow it sometime?"

Renesmee nodded her head, she was happy to lend her aunt the bracelet. However, it seemed not everyone shared the same enthusiasm. "No, you have a habit of not returning things you take." It was like Olivia and Emmett were tag teaming Delilah, and right now she was getting beat to a pulp.

"Enough." Rosalie turned around to face the room, her harsh glare landing on her pretend siblings. "Will you guys just stop it? Please."

The couple sunk back in their seats, they had just been trying to defend Rosalie, but somehow they had upset her. "But-"

"Delilah," The blonde interrupted, "May I speak with you?.... Alone."

A worried sort of look feel upon Delilah's face, her eyes shooting straight to Isabella, "Actually I was hoping to chat with Bella, wanted to chat up and stuff."

"That can wait." Bella slightly smiled.

Well, so much for having your friends back, Delilah thought.

"Right...... I guess we can then." The brunette stood up and rubbed her hands on her jeans, a new habit she'd developed when she got a bit nervous. "You lead the way."

And so Rosalie did, she led Delilah right out of the house and then started running. At first Delilah wasn't sure where they were going until the trees started to look familiar, and she could hear the soothing sound of running water.

"My waterfall." She commented once the pair had come to a halt. It was quiet between the two for what felt like hours, but was only actually minutes, "You know, I couldn't come back to this place once you left. I tried to, once or twice. But all I could think about were the words you said to me here, how you made me feel. This was the last place I felt hurt but also loved by you..... I just couldn't bring myself to come back."

Rosalie didn't look at Delilah when she spoke, she instead focused on the droplets of water that splashed onto the rocks. They had all split up from the group, and Rosalie wondered if they felt alone. But that was just her reading too much into things.

"I come here a lot. I guess I feel connected to you here somehow." It was weird for Rosalie to be so honest and open, when she had hardly spoken to anyone in months, "Sometimes I watch the moon reflect in the water and wonder if you can see it too, wherever you are. I wished you could see it....... You probably did, but you just saw it with someone else."

Oh no, Delilah thought, they were really doing this now.

"I needed to move on, Rosalie."

Now the girls were looking at each other straight in the eye, neither of their looks holding any love.

"Why?" Her voice was so quiet, it was like she could hardly talk.

Now was the time to be honest, "What we had was great, god it was amazing. When I was with you I felt love for the first time..... But then we fell apart, you left and-"

"God, you always mention that!" Rosalie couldn't help but explode, "I know I left you. I know I hurt you. But don't you think I felt horrible? I never wanted to do any of those things. But I had no choice, okay?.... I thought we'd moved past this, but clearly not."

Delilah couldn't help but return that anger, "No, I'm not gonna let you make me feel bad for having feelings! That hurt me, Rosalie. A lot. I felt worthless, I felt unlovable, I felt like every bad thing I thought about myself was true." She took an unneeded breath, "And I should never have been made to feel like that by the person that loved me. That's not what your soulmate makes you feel like."

A laugh fell from Rosalie's lips, "So I'm not your soulmate anymore, huh? What happened to all the dreams you had with me? They've just gone now?"

"They don't mean what they did before. Things change, people change. Our dreams are exactly that, dreams. They were impossible."

"I bet you have dreams with her though, don't you?"

Delilah sighed, Rosalie had always been the jealous type. "Of course I have dreams with her. She's my girlfriend."

"How could you?" All Delilah could hear was anger, and all Rosalie felt was sadness.

The brunette sat down, her legs dangling over the edge, "I felt like I was drowning. Everything I did was wrong, my own thoughts were killing me. I had been convinced you didn't love me, like I loved you. I didn't think you looked at me the way I looked at you. Sometimes it felt like you had no choice but to kiss me, or hug me..... I started to feel like I wasn't worthy of your love, or of anyone's love to be honest. It actually started to feel like none of you did love me, and it wasn't just in my thoughts anymore. It became real that day I spoke to Leah. So I had to leave. I was going to go back to the Volturi, I was going to become that person again. A heartless monster. I was starting on the path to destruction." Delilah paused, "And then I met Mary. She saved me. She-"

"-she was everything I wasn't." Rosalie stated as she sat down next to Delilah.

"No, that's not true..... She just doesn't see any of the bad things I've done, and I feel like that's all you see when you look at me."

"No," Rosalie shook her head, "When I look at you I see my soulmate. I see our little cottage in France, or Germany, or wherever you want. I see our dogs, Freddie and Mercury or whatever you wanted to call them-"

"- Chandler and Bing." Delilah replied with a small smile on her face.

"I see our children." Were the last words Rosalie spoke.

The small smile vanished, "Rosalie......" Delilah started and then paused for a few seconds, "When I look at you, I see everything bad we've both done. I became a murderer to try and get over you, I manipulated everyone just to feel something after you'd broken my heart. And you became a girl I'm not sure I know. When we met I would never have imagined you would have made me feel so alone, or so worthless......... No matter how much I love, or loved you, we're toxic together, and that's no good for either of us."

"Can we not fix us?" Rosalie almost begged.

Delilah stood up, she had to do what she did best and run away.

"I don't know." She looked at Rosalie one last time before turning around, "And that's why you have to let me go."

hi again. song for chapter is more by 5sos cos it just fits so well. i also feel like this is kinda messy but it's 1am and i was wide awake when i started but now i'm so sleepy.

don't worry yourselves yet, delilah IS staying in forks for a little while. she's not running away away. anyway, i hope this all makes sense. it's also made me start shipping rose and delilah super hard again.

also so many thanks to you all. this book hit 200k readers which is crazy, because i never even imagined it would have hit 200. so thank you so much for ur support, even when i'm slow with updates :) love to u all <3