the story

the song

the person

the night

the smiles

the joy

the noise

the memories

the tears

the ideas

the girl

the new feeling

the laughter

the worry

the freezer packs

the disappearances

the rejoicing

they leave

the paths

the oceans

the rivers

the click

the puzzle

the friends

the home

the heat

the shivers

the noises, so many

the emotions

the walls

the hate

the sadness

the judgement

the understanding

the screaming

they're forever gone

the fluff

the color

the time

the death

the life

the baths

the rush

the thrill

the feelings

the smile

the questions

the fear

the song

the story

the crying

the laughing

the first

the last

nothing

everything

no one

everyone

wait, wait

hold on

stop

each beat

each beast

each calming breath

each wrong word

each twisted thought

each end

thinking of her

how she hides her smile

because i said i loved it

how she laughs

because i did

because she did

because i said something dumb

how she hates that song

because it makes me cry

how she claimed that word

because she could

how she listened

because she actually wanted to

how she can clear everything

because she said one thing

how i love her

because she deserves to be

how i'm so fucking lucky

because she's the most delightful person to exist

how did do this?

thinking of them

how they can do nothing

and still make me smile

how they can be absolutely gorgeous

and still think i'm prettier

how they've made it so far

and dealt with so much

how they're simply good, just good

and i blank out trying to think of words to describe

thinking of him

his strength

their lack of spelling

her hair

his smile

their laugh

her humor

his passion

their kindness

her dedication to make me screech

his creativity

their writing skills

her music taste

his book taste

their general vibe

her whole everything

what did i do to get here?

how did i deserve this?

why do they stick around?

who did this to them?

will this last forever?

is there a chance they'll be okay?

and it wavers

and it flutters

and it stops

and it pounds

and it goes

and it goes

and it goes

a thought

oh, this is why

oh, it's her doing that

that's why

but it's also them doing that

that's why

but it's also him doing that

that's why

confusion

love

admiration

realization

that

this

is

love.

i love you all. now deal with it.

you're gorgeous. now deal with it.

your face, your smile: it's adorable. now deal with it.

your sense of style: on fucking point. deal with it.

your laugh is the cutest thing ever. now deal with it.

you're as close to perfection as it gets. now deal with it

i.

love.

you.

deal.

with.

it.