looking in the mirror today

a million thoughts at once

"i'm not a boy because i don't want to be one"

"i'm not a boy, i just like being called sir"

"i'm not a boy, i just freak out when someone says i'm handsome"

"i'm not a boy, but i wouldn't mind being called a boyfriend"

"i'm not a boy, but what if one day i was a father?"

"i'm not a boy, but if someone mistook me for one, i wouldn't mind"

"i'm not a boy because i like wearing makeup sometimes"

"i'm not a boy because i still enjoy being girly and dressing up"

"i'm not a boy, but sometimes i wish i looked like one"

"i'm not a boy, i just wish i could sound like one"

"i'm not a boy, but sometimes i think i'd be happier if i looked in the mirror and a boy was looking back at me"

"i'm not a boy because i don't think i am"

"i'm not a boy because i don't always feel like one"

"i'm not a boy"

"i'm not a boy, but i wonder what it would be like if i was born one"

"i'm not a boy, but what if?"

but when i looked in the mirror yesterday

a million more rushed through

"i'm not a girl, but it would be easier if i was"

"i'm not a girl because i hate the idea of it"

"i'm not a girl, i just like being girly sometimes"

"i'm not a girl because that's disgusts me"

"i'm not a girl because i like being masculine"

"i'm not a girl, but sometimes i like sounding like one"

"i'm not a girl because i'm happiest when i look androgynous"

"i'm not a girl, i just love the idea of being in a lesbian relationship"

"i'm not a girl, but i want to be a mama and a wife someday"

"i'm not a girl, but some days i look in the mirror and i see one"

"i'm not a girl, but when i shower, all i can see is a gross one"

"i'm not a girl because i don't feel like i am"

"i'm not a girl because if i was i'd be dead right now"

"i'm not a girl, but wouldn't life be nice if i was?"

"i'm not a girl, but what if i'm wrong about all this?"

"i'm not a girl"

"i'm not a girl, but i can't help wondering if it would be easier if i was"

"i'm not a girl because i know i'm not"

"i'm not a girl, but what if?"