we all have that one person

the one who breaks us

and heals us

defines our smiles

embodies our laughs

resides in our tears.

the one who loves us

then forgets us

and throws us away

to move on with the world.

while they move on,

where are we supposed to be?

in a dark and broken room

lit by the sounds of choking,

the candles snuffed by the echoes

of laughter.

they exist, then they don't.

they're the poisonous candy

the garbage we long for

the forgotten soulmate

who makes the future into a dead memory.

we all have

that second person

the one who shapes us,

forms us,

and lets us emerge from our shell

and fly when we're ready.

they open the wounds

and make you remember

so that you can know,

you're not alone anymore

you aren't broken

you're okay,

it's all okay.

they rest in the wrinkles of your eyes,

swimming in the happiness

and dancing in the laughter

that they caused.

the one who falls

willingly

because they know that you

will catch them.

the trust

the love

the knowing

the memories.

they're the memory of joy,

the embodiment of trust,

the broken healer,

the laughing moonlight.

two people

different as can be

but crucial to the existence

of you.

of me.

we all know those two people

so thank them.

remember them.

don't forget the pain of the first,

but relive it with the second.

don't envy the second,

but be grateful they're not the first.

don't steal from the first,

but share with the second.

don't forget pain,

but embrace it.

so thank you to the first

and thank you to the second.

you will always live inside my brain,

and exist in my blood,

and shine in the crevices of my heart.

and even though I may not deserve your pain,

or be worthy of your love,

I have experienced it

and can not

will not

go back.

so before I go

my love and apologies,

to and from

that one person.