to be still burning on this fire that is long gone feels like hell has camped in my heart and is killing everything that was left inside me.

When will the ocean cover me?

When will I be forgiven for my sins?

Punishment is only the answer of a crime

and I'm afraid I've never loved this way before,

I'm afraid I won't be at peace for a while now,

but I've learned my lesson,

I swear I have.

Show mercy and I shall never love again.

Show mercy and I shall never ask for anyone to soothe my burnt ground and ruined soul,

show mercy and I shall never come close to anything that looks bright and powerful,

any source of light that will warm me up.

Any pair of arms wrapped around me.

I never asked to go to heaven.

But I never deserved this hell.