Things with Scott are getting messes and I don't like it. We're forming this extremely comfortable family -like bubble and it scares me, because we're not together anymore.

And our past is very mucky, one that either one of us have really acknowledge since coming face to face again.

As a mom, I don't want to confuse Remi in all of this, I don't want her dreaming up the idea just because her daddy came into her life, that mommy and daddy are going to get married or some crap like that, because I don't ever see me and Scott getting back together.

Also, there's my mom, she's not really pleased with Scot being back in our lives. And I understand where she's coming from, I do, but sometimes I just wished that she kept herself out of the situation, because it's already hard enough as it is, without having to fight her on every decisions that I make for my daughter.

"So, Remi is at Scott's house again, is she?" I heard my mother's voice say out loud, as soon as I step foot through my front door.

Shaking my head and sighed.... here we go.

She has made it very clearly to me over and over again, that she doesn't think Remi should going to his house alone. And I just can't keep having this same argument with her, especially considering that he is her father.

Dropping my keys and purse on the kitchen island and looked up at her.

"Yes mother, she is at Scott's.... he is her father after all" I stated.

"Ella, I just want you to be careful, when it comes to him" She argued,

"I am mom, but now that he is in our lives. I need to accept that Remi will be spending time with her father, and so do you" I fought back, she shakes her head.

"I'm just trying to protect you and Remi. He's already destroyed you once, I don't want it to happen again, let alone my granddaughter being caught in the crossfire".

Taking a moment to calm my own emotions down, because I don't want to fight with my mom about Scott, believe me we've done enough of that over the last few years.

"I know why your so protective mom...you were there for us when he wasn't. And I get that letting him back in, is a risk, but it's the right thing to do".

She just looks at me, longing to say more about it and I hope she doesn't.

The truth is it is a risk because Scott could get bored of being a dad at any moment, to go back to his party, playboy life, that doesn't include us, and it would hurt.

It would probably destroy us both, like my mom said, but he is her dad, he has the right to know her, and she has the right to know him.

Seeing them together now, it's made me realised that I made a childish mistake years ago. When I refused to tell him about the baby...about Remi.

And at the end of it all, my daughter suffered the most because she didn't have her father in her life, from the moment she was born.

I will live with that and carry that with me every single day of my life.

I can't....better yet I won't make that mistake again, I won't be the reason that Remi doesn't have her dad in her life anymore.

But I do also see mom's point on it too, a little bit of good doesn't out weight the bad, of the past and that still hurts but I'm trying to move past it all, so Remi has the best life she can with two parents. I wish my mom would try and see that or at least try too.

"Ella, I just need you to go into this with your eyes fully open okay...I know he is her dad, but you have been her mother much longer" She snarled sadly.

"Mom...I love you, but I am done having this conversation with you. Scott is going to be in our lives, and quite frankly I like having him back in our-lives, which I know is stupid because he hurt me, but you've gotta understand there's a lot of history there".

"I love you too, just promise me you will be careful and protect that kind heart of yours" She sighs and then gently kisses me on the check, before heading out of my house.

There are only ever two things my mother and I, have never saw eye to eye on.

First one, my very own father who she has always refused to speak about.

And the second, my love for Scott Vaughan.

I can't control the first one, I stopped asking about my own father years ago.

But unfortunately, she needs to accept a part of me might always love him, and that Scott isn't going anywhere, he is Remi's father, and he will always be her father, now that he is getting to know her and building that bond with her, he isn't leaving her.

I think in my stubborn heart I know that to be true, I've seen him with her, I've seen that love in his eyes, I see how much he loves exploring the whole fatherhood thing and Remi has him wrapped-around her little finger already.

Scott is forever in my life and our daughter's now.

My own mother has to come to terms with that, because I don't want to be caught in the middle of my mom's dislike like for the father of my child.

My head is messed up enough as it is, with everything else that has changed these last few months.

Mom will just have to sort out her own issues with him, without me because I don't have the energy to keeping having the same fight with her.