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"i'd rather just settle for being your friend than lose you as something more."

finn looked up at jack as he said that. jack realized finn was leaning against the counter, still facing him, and jack's legs had found their way leaning against finns hips. jack wanted to wrap his legs around finn and hold onto him in that moment, but he felt as if the timing wasn't exactly appropriate. finn continued to stare at him, looking slightly bewildered, and jack just wished he could know what was running through his mind.

but finn didn't even know what was going on inside his own head. all he could smell was the light vanilla scent jack always to seemed to bring with him, and all he could think about was the fact that he had gone months, a year, without kissing jack. the first time he kissed jack, he had tasted like a strawberry fruit roll up and peppermint; he wondered if he still tasted the same.

finn didn't even know what was going on inside his own head as he pressed his lips to jack's.

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

jack inhaled sharply as he felt finn's lips meet his own, and felt as if he was frozen in place, his body stiff. after a quick second, however, jack came back to his senses and leaned into the kiss, not even realizing how much he had missed him. his lips, more specifically. finn kept kissing him, nearly pushing jack against the mirror, and jack found his arms around finn's neck, his forearms resting on finn's shoulder. finn just kept leaning into him, his body almost curving into jack's and jack lightly played with the curls on the back of finn's neck, causing him to shiver slightly due to the smaller ones touch.

the makeout session got sloppy, the two boys trying to make up for all they had missed the past couple months. finn rubbed light circles jack's back, opening his mouth slightly and allowing jack to slip his tongue into his mouth, shuddering as jack ran his tongue along finn's teeth and then continued to kiss him. finally, jack tried to back up a bit more, but that just caused him lightly hit the back of his head off of the mirror behind him, causing a groan to escape his lips. it quite obviously threw finn off, who slowly moved back an inch and looked at him curiously, jack growing slightly red, his lips tingling, longing to be against finns again. all that could be heard in the room was heavy breathing, and jack leaned his head back on the mirror he had just hit his head on only moments before, and stared up at the ceiling, properly catching his breath.

finn's mouth was slightly open, still panting, and he closed his eyes. "fuck."

he looked up at jack, making himself audible this time. "i didn't think that—"

"again." jack said, almost in a whisper, his voice hoarse. his eyes met finn's again, and he licked his lips, scooting forward, closer to finn again. "please."

"well, since you said please."

jack giggled as finn quickly kissed him again. he arched his back, sitting as tall as he could on the counter, his arms on either side of him, leaning into finn and smiling as he felt finn place a hand over his.

they stayed in this position for a minute, slowly kissing each other, letting themselves enjoy the moment and savour how they felt. finally, jack gave finn one last peck and broke apart from the kiss, looking at the boy.

"you got pancake batter on my face." finn grinned sheepishly. jack smiled and wiped it off with his thumb, shrugging. "maybe you should've cleaned my face better."

"i got side tracked."

"by what, my lips?"

"mhm."

"shut up." jack laughed, gazing into the boy's eyes. he felt so happy; so impossibly free in that moment. he didn't understand how another human could make him feel like this. make him feel like his heart was racing a million miles per hour. make him feel like he was the only boy in the world. make him feel so impossibly giddy, like a child with a brand new toy.

but he liked it. he loved feeling all that. especially with finn.

finn softly wiped an eyelash off of jack's cheek, placing his pointer finger in front of jack. "make a wish."

"i don't have anything to wish for."

"you must want something."

yeah, i want you, jack wanted to say. instead, he grabbed finn's pointer finger and placed it in front of his own lips. "i'll give you my wish."

finn smiled and closed his eyes, thinking for a moment then lightly blowing on his finger, looking back up at jack. "there. happy?"

"we can't stay mad at each other for long, can we?" jack said quietly.

"i don't think i've ever actually been mad at you. just scared that i'll lose you."

jack nodded in agreement. he was right. the only time he could remember ever being upset with finn was times when jack's feelings towards finn were involved. and he was never really angry; only jealous. or hurt, would maybe be a better way to explain it.

the pair jumped as there was a knock at the bathroom door, and they turned to see jeremy standing there.

they had forgotten to close the bathroom door.

shit.

finn backed away from jack, giving jeremy a nervous smile as jack jumped off of the counter, looking at jeremy.

"what were you doing?" jeremy grinned.

"oh, just getting cleaned up, like we said." jack looked up at finn, who nodded.

"right. well, pancakes are ready. finish cleaning up, alright?"

jeremy left, and finn finally exhaled and looked at jack while grabbing his own shirt, starting to change.

"that was too close."

"i know," jack muttered, throwing off his dirty shirt, and grabbing the shirt finn had brought for him, slipping it over his head. "we're idiots. why didn't you close the bathroom door behind you?"

"i didn't think that was gonna happen."

"we can't tell anybody, finn."

"i know."

jack almost felt an achy feeling as he looked at finn. he wanted to tell the entire world he had kissed finn wolfhard again. he had kissed finn wolfhard again! and god, he liked it. he loved it.

but he knew that he wouldn't be able to tell people. he wouldn't be able to tell anyone; not even his friends.

as jack and finn rejoined their friends, finn was still on his mind. he didn't want to hide anymore. but he had no choice.

he wasn't sure of his sexuality, he wasn't sure of his feelings. all he knew was that he loved finn, and he would do anything to keep him safe and happy.

which included not telling anybody about his... romantic interactions with finn until he was sure what they meant.

if they even meant anything.

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

idek what to say dude. this chapter is unedited so there's probably a whoLe lotta typos.

now, i know i'm not very active as it is, but i'm abt to be hella inactive soon. i'm turning sixteen soon (on October sixth!!) so i have to start studying to take my beginners, (i think it's called a permit in america?) and i'll also be taking drivers ed. plus, i just really have to focus on school work.

i'll be active when i can be, and i'll probably be pretty active on weekends! life just gets busyyyy.

thanks for reading!

- courtney