PRESENT DAY

To nuni :

Dear Big Nuni my friend , best friend , enemy , soul mate , mama , girlfriend , all in one you probably the best thing that ever happened to me in a long time no cap Shit you been down since Day 1 fashoo that , you helped me at my lowest points even when I did you wrong you was there you was there when I was down bad on my ass. You helped me get through a lot of shit , when my brother died you was there by my side everyday even when I pushed you away you stayed, you was there when I was in jail you always was making sure a nigga was straight. I wanna apologize for making you lose our child I take full blame I was putting you through shit no woman should have to go through I hope one day you find it in your heart to forgive me , I hoped that one day we could start a family get married grow old together but it's safe to say it's too late... You taught me a lot how to love and how to accept love never thought I was gone love a girl that wasn't my Mama but I love you and I thank you for that . But if you reading this that means I did it. I killed myself I'm finally at peace. I was going through some shit fighting demons that nobody knew about so it was bound to happen , it's not your fault or anybody fault I was good at hiding it I made sure to keep a smile on my face but I had enough I felt like it was my time nobody could change the way I was feeling trust me I tried I been trying for many years. But don't let my death make you depressed go on live your life , open up some more shops, start more business , just be successful , last but not least find somebody who truly loves you not one of these bum ass niggas , and start a family go be happy Nuni you deserve it and more. But thanks for keeping it real G the realest one on the team and it's still you over everybody. Stay being you that sweet loving gangsta don't change up , on gang nem you forever in my heart I love you Amour.

From , Santana