saturday

12:31 pm

lmao y'all im in the middle of my very! first! psychiatrist appointment! and i didn't even know i was going here today!!

i straight up thought i was going to the fucking dentist til and hour ago when we left the house.

but wow i though this would be good and abt me getting better and helping myself but

omg my dumbass mom

wont

shut

the

fuck

up!

like istg the lady asked me a question and this bitch tried to answer for me :)

like o m g she keeps calling me a good child and said i have good grade even though i told her 2 days ago that i have my very first c in a class.

omg my favorite subject, jesus!

honestly all this jesus talk is probably what made me agnostic. i sound like a hypocrite, i hate when other people talk about their religious beliefs and implement them onto other people or like tell them why and justify themselves. but here i fucking am :)

lmao now shes getting kicked out. and shes still talking :)

wow its so easy to lie to these damn people. i just had to say "i don't plan on killing myself" and like talk about my basic plan for college and shit for the future to make it seem like in just depressed and not suicidal. wow practice really does pay off my guys.

ok well my session ended a while ago peace out idk if that helped me it just convinced me mom that i need to talk to her more bc another. person. agrees. with. her :)))

online therapy just made me realize therapy w professionals or people that want to help suck ass and i should just vent to this dumbass storybook journal thing or wtv instead

lol thats another thing i lied abt. i was honest and said that i suck at writing and english and the lady just kep going off abt how she was surprised and how i seemed very creative in my writing and a bit angry (which literally sounds like the opposite of me btw). so i just said stuff like yeah i kinda just go to sleep and then drew the convo to my retarded sleep schedule lol

now im actually shitting up, peace out