Summery: Your family (the sleepy bois inc) had always been there for you. But so had dream. So when you lost the both of them you had a tough decision to make, where your loyalties actually lie.

Over half of this is made up of flash backs which will be in italics. Also this is set in game.

A/n: this was weird to write but I actually had a load of fun. Count how many Hamilton references are in here and I'll give you a cookie lmao 🍪. Anyway I really enjoyed writing this and it's probably one of my favourite fics so lmk how you feel about it because I have a similar idea for a Techno fic :)

Also Wattpad is being a bitch so if the font randomly changes I'm so sorry

Warnings: swearing, fighting, burns, manipulation, toxic relationship, death, a shit ton of angst

Word Count: 5515 (it's a long one, tbh I could probably split this up and drag it on enough to make a full book)

~ Not proof read ~

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I stood outside the doorway of the prison, awkwardly spinning my sword around my fingers (a bad habit I'd picked up from training with Techno).

I was waiting for Sam to meet up with me, to escort me down to Dreams cell.

I couldn't help but feel guilty standing here, after everything he'd put me and my family through I don't owe him anything. Yet I couldn't stay away.

~~

"I want to see white flags! White flags outside your base before dawn or your dead!" Dream screamed down at us from the top of the hill.

I pushed Tommy and Tubbo behind me slightly and looked up at dream with a look of pure hatred.

The white mask smiling back at me was enough to make my stomach churn, but at the same time filled me with rage. If your going to threaten us have the courage not to hide behind a mask.

Dream dramatically turned his back to us and walked back into the Dream Smp owned land, SapNap and George following behind him.

Once it was clear that he was out of earshot I turned to face Wilbur.

"What are we going to do?" I looked up at him but his expression matched mine, scared, angry and determined.

"We fight Y/n. We fight for our life's." He walked back into the van, leaving me stood outside with Tommy, Tubbo, Eret, and Fundy.

Tubbo looked up at me wide eyed "We're going to war aren't we?"

I sighed and gestured for Fundy to come over to us. "You'll be okay Tubbo, we all will."

He nodded and me and Fundy led him away. Taking him and the others to the armoury to prepare.

I walked towards the van instead, opening the door and marching over to Wilbur.

"War! Wilbur seriously! We can't go to war!" I stood my head at him as he sat there, blankly looking out of the window.

"We have to, I built this country. We built this country! A place where everyone's free, we can't let them take that from us." He pinched the bridge of his nose and shook his head.

"Wilbur their children! You can't put children into a war!" I pull at my hair and paced around the small space. "How can you not see that!"

He quickly turned around to face me, he looked angry now but his eyes were glassed over. I'd never seen my own brother look that scared and broken."I don't have a choice Y/n! Do you think I want to danger them! My little sister and brother, my friends, my fucking son!"

I shook my head at him and looked at the floor so I didn't have to meet his eyes "Wilbur we are out gunned! Out manned! Out numbered! Out planned! It's almost impossible for us it's unfair to put them through that!"

He scoffed at me and rolled his eyes "Do you think I don't know that! What else am I supposed to do, surrender and give up everything we stand for! I can't, not after everything we've already lost."

I stood there for a second just looking at him, my eyes started to water but I just clenched my jaw and balled my hands up into fists to prevent myself from crying.

"Fine, I'll fight with you. But you better be prepared to die for them. Because I sure as hell am and if it comes to us or them I'm not hesitating."

He just nodded at me and I left the van without another word to find my other brother.

~~

It's Dreams fault that happened, not Wilburs.

Yet I couldn't bring myself to completely believe that.

Wilburs my brother, we've always had each others backs and we always will, but Dreams different. I know he's in the wrong, yet I'd rather convince myself my own brothers in the wrong than admit that.

"You ready?" Sam said from behind me, causing me to jump.

"Huh? Oh yeah. As ready as I'll ever be." I laughed awkwardly and watched as Sam placed down an enderchest.

I emptied my inventory into it without him having to say anything.

Once I was done I waited for him to talk.

Instead he just walked straight past me and through the gates, I followed behind him.

We both slipped into a comfortable silence as we walked down the obsidian corridors.

I let my mind wander again, probably to the moment my bond with dream started.

~~

I sat alone at the top of the mountain next to L'manburg overlooking everything.

The sun was setting over our country and I smiled slightly to myself, a tear rolling down my cheek as I watched the houses light up as the darkness the moon brought with it settled on the sky.

I smiled out of bittersweetness and enjoyed the moment of peace for a second.

We had won.

Tommy had lost his discs and we all lost a life but we'd won.

We were free.

I sat there taking in the peace for another second, no fighting, no wars, no arguing, no pressure of being Wilburs right hand man, no needing to protect Tubbo and Tommy form the horrors and traumas of war. Just me and my sweet unfinished symphony, L'manburg in all its glory and freedom.

I smiled to myself and looked back down and my hand that was half bandaged.

I hadn't gotten that hurt luckily.

My chest still stung slightly from George stabbing me in the final control room.

Although the pain of my physical death was nothing in comparison to the pain of watching Eret, my trusted ally and friend, betray us. I couldn't even look him in the eyes after that.

Apart from the stab wound I was alright though. I had a few scrapes here and there and my dominant hand was red and bruised from gripping a heavy sword all day.

The only other bad injury I had was on my other hand. SapNap had Tommy surrounded by fire at one point. When I saw what happened I didn't even think about it, I just jumped forward to shield Tommy with my own body.

I'd managed to fight SapNap off pretty easily (I can thank Technos teachings for that) while Wilbur got Tommy out of the flames.

I'd burnt my hand pretty badly but it was nothing that wouldn't heal over time.

Although what I was discovering now was its extremely hard to bandage your hand when the other one is pretty badly bruised already.

"Need some help?" A familiar voice said from behind me, causing me to jump up and grab my sword from the ground next to me.

"What the fuck do you want? You have the discs the war is over." I gripped my sword defensively and looked dream up and down.

He just lent against a tree though, he didn't even seem to have a weapon on him.

"Chill, like you said I have the discs, the wars over. I just saw you struggling and was wondering if you wanted help." He held his hands up to show he wasn't a threat and I sat back down. Keeping my sword close though, just in case.

He made his was over and sat next to me.

I looked over the horizon so I didn't have to look at him and he took my hand from my lap. Starting to gently wrap the bandage around it.

I glanced over at him and raised an eyebrow "how can you do anything with that mask?"

He just shrugged and didn't even look up "You get used to it I guess."

"Why though?"

His head moved up at that, I couldn't see his expression but I could guess that it was a confused one "Why what?"

"Wear it. Not to pick a fight but I think it's cowardly."

He laughed lightly and turned back to my hand "And why do you think that?"

"Because it's a way of hiding, if you make a decision I think you should commit to it. Not hide behind a mask to soften the blow of the effects. It's harder to hate someone if you can't put a face to them. It makes you feel untouchable, but to us it's an annoying barrier between you as a person and your decisions as a leader." I looked forward again, maybe I shouldn't have said that to a guy I just had a war against.

"I see what you mean. There all done." The tied off a bow on the bandage and I flexed my hand lightly. Turning to give him a grateful smile.

"Thank you."

He nodded and shifted the way he was sitting to face me.

"Do you wanna break a barrier?" He asked laughing lightly at the end of the sentence.

"What?" I raised an eyebrow at him but my confusion changed to shock as his removed his mask.

He ran his hand through his dark blond hair and smirked at me.

"What- why would you show me of all people? I thought we were enemies." I sat there stunned

He shrugged "you seem trustworthy. I have a feeling we'll be unlikely friends."

~~

I stoped walking for a second and let out a shaky sigh.

Sam turned to face me with a look of concern "Y/n are you okay?"

He came over and placed a hand on my shoulder and I nodded.

"Sorry, I'm fine. Can you just give me a minute?"

He nodded and backed away from me "my office is by there come get me when your ready."

He pointed at a door down the hall and I nodded.

He patted my shoulder before walking off and leaving me to my own thoughts.

~~

After the election me Wilbur and Tommy were exiled by Schlatt.

Soon enough we made home at Pogtopia and Techno showed up.

It was nice to have him back, we were so close as kids but his hatred for governments and my support of Wilburs tore us apart a bit.

Being down there with Wilbur, Tommy and Techno was nice. It was nice being with my whole family again, just without Phil who kept promising to visit but was always to busy.

I know it was an awful situation, we'd lost the country we'd died for, we'd lost everything. But strangely I didn't mind. I had my brothers and when I wasn't with them I was secretly meeting with Dream in the forest.

We'd gotten close during my time away from L'manburg. He'd asked me on a date after a week of walking in the woods every night and after then it was history.

I adored him.

I was helplessly in loved with him.

He was there for me on the bad days and he was the reason for the good days.

Then came the festival, me Wil and Tommy were watching from afar when Techno killed Tubbo.

Life was never the same after that.

After that evening I was there for everyone.

I calmed Tommy down after, stopped him from trying to attack Techno since that wouldn't help anyone.

He cried into my shoulder for hours due to the fact he had to watch his closest friend die.

He was a child it wasn't okay for him to witness any of this.

Soon enough he fell asleep on my bed so I covered him in a blanket and left to find Tubbo.

He was sat by the lake just outside of Pogtopia clutching onto his chest.

He was still in shock.

I sat there for a while, neither of us spoke but the silence was a way of allowing him to know that I was there without me having to tell him.

After awhile he collapsed onto me, talking about how scared he was and how every time he blinks he can see Technos axe and hear Schlatts laugh ringing in the back of his head.

I hugged him close and caressed his hair until he got it all out.

After that I walked him back to his room and he fell asleep straight away.

Poor kid.

When I left his room I saw Techno stood outside, looking at me with a guilty expression.

"Is he going to be okay?" He questioned trying to sound like he didn't really care but his concern was noticeable.

"Well you did kill him, but he's a strong kid. You can't live this life without being strong. It's not your fault you were peer pressed and he knows that." I smiled at him and since I knew he wasn't a fan of physical contact, a comforting smile was enough for him.

"What about Tommy? Does he hate me?"

"He's Tommy, give him a while and he'll understand."

Techno nodded and turned around, going back into his room.

I sighed to myself and knocked on Wilburs door.

He didn't respond to me but I could hear him rambling to himself.

I opened the door quietly and watched him pace the floor, muttering about not being able to find a button or something.

"Wilbur what's going on?" I stepped into his room, shutting the door behind me.

"I'm going to blow it up Y/n all of it. Manburg will be no more. If I can't have it no one can! Y/n let's be the bad guys, no one treated us right EVER we owe nothing to them. So let's give them what they deserve." He smiled at me in away I'd never seen him smile, that wasn't my brother.

I stood there stunned for a second before running out of the room.

I ran all the way out of the ravine and into the forest, frantically searching for Dream.

Luckily enough I saw him there in the same spot that he bandaged my hand.

"Dream!" I yelled out to him to gain his attention.

He turned to face me and smiled.

I ran to him and threw myself into his arms, finally allowing myself to cry.

My family was falling apart and it was nice to finally be allowed to show how I feel about it instead of acting strong.

Dream seemed to notice something was wrong because he pulled me closer and kissed my head.

"Darling what's wrong?" He asked while playing with my hair which was oddly comforting.

"I don't want to be the villain of the story, I just want my family." I sobbed into his hoodie and couldn't bring myself to explain the situation.

He seemed to understand though and held me tighter.

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I backed up against the obsidian wall and felt my eyes start to water.

Fuck.

I slowly dropped down against the wall, pulling my knees up to my chest.

I let my head fall and I hugged myself tight.

~~

It was gone. All of it.

L'manburg and Wilbur.

They were both gone.

I refused to take the presidency, long term that was probably a bad idea since if anyone could get dream to respect L'manburg it was probably me.

But I think my loyalty's are too split, I can't have Dream and L'manburg. It would never work.

Tommy also refused it because of the discs so Tubbo stepped up.

He had the country rebuilt in a matter of weeks, I was proud.

During the time that we had L'manburg back I decided to make old ends meet.

Me and Eret had met up to make up, no hard feelings on his betrayal.

I became close friends with new citizens like Ranboo and Connor.

And even though I didn't get along great with SapNap and George they were fine with me because of my relationship with dream.

Techno and I weren't arguing, I was slightly annoyed with him and in all honesty we weren't speaking as often as we usually did. I know my brother and I wasn't shocked he did what he did but a part of me had hoped that he would've respected what i wanted and put his family before his political opinions .

Things with me and Dream were a bit off, we weren't arguing or anything but I still hadn't fully forgiven him for helping Wilbur and Techno blow up L'manburg.

So everything was going just fine.

Until I met up with dream by the tree one day and he looked at me with anger in his eyes, an expression he'd never given me when we were alone before.

"Dream is everything alright?" I placed a hand on his shoulder and raised an eyebrow out of concern.

"Did you know?"

I furrowed my brows in confusion and he shrugged my hand off his shoulder.

"Know what?"

"About Tommy and what he did?"

I couldn't help but notice that he had his mask on, sure it was only covering half his face but after he showed me his face the first time we met he never wore it when we were alone.

"What did Tommy do? Is he okay?" I took a step back from him and ran my hand through my hair, admittedly Tommy was mad at me currently for my relationship with Dream but he was still my brother and without Techno, Wilbur or Phil around he was my responsibility.

"Oh yeah he's great. He spent his week burning down Georges house and laughing in my face."

I looked at him shocked and I sat down on the floor, pulling Wilburs old trenchcoat that I always wore closer to me.

We were supposed to do this together, we were supposed to protect our family and our country together. But he had to go and fucking die and leave me.

I've been left with a mourning child who was acting out and I didn't know how to deal with it.

"I'm so sorry, it's just after Wilbur he just doesn't know how to deal with his emotions. I'll talk to him tomorrow."

I looked down at the grass and pinched the bridge of my nose.

"No it's fine. I'm dealing with it don't worry." He put an arm around me and I lent into him.

I moved to face him and removed his mask.

He smiled slightly at me and kissed my forehead, making me smile slightly.

The next morning I woke up to see that Dream wasn't next to me.

I sat up and looked around confused. I quickly threw on some clothes and my trench coat before heading outside to find Dream or Tommy.

As I walked towards the outskirts of L'manburg I saw everyone gathering around Dream and Tommy.

I slowly walked towards them and listened in.

"Dream please escort Tommy out of L'manburg." Tubbo said taking a step back.

Dream approached Tommy who tried to back away.

I ran over and forced myself between them.

"Dream what are you doing?" I asked pushing Tommy behind me protectively

"I'm resolving an issue, he committed a crime and he's being punished."

I clenched my jaw and looked at the smiling white mask that was between me and him.

"Your going to exile a child! He's lost everything you can't take this away from him to!"

He stepped closer to us again but I took another step back, taking Tommy with me.

"Y/n, darling step away and no one gets hurt." His hand travelled to the handle of his sword and I flintched slightly.