Right after the breakup, I was an emotional wreck. I knew our relationship was over the minute we both quarantined with Covid. You lied straight to my face about how long your ex had been quarantined. You lied to me when you didn't tell me she was at our place for two days before I even entered the quarantine. You, your sister, and her boyfriend betrayed my trust when nobody told me. Damn right I would be mad, but I wouldn't have been as mad if you at least asked my opinion first. Then, you had the audacity to take her side and throw me to the curb. I lost ten pounds those nine days, and it's not because I lost my sense of taste.

I feared going down the stairs because your ex and your sister would snicker and make irrational claims against me that you would believe. You never once took my side. Watching you flirt with your ex in front of me while we were all quarantined threw me over the edge. Do you realize I screamed and cried the whole way home? Bet you didn't. I bet you sat with your sister and told her a completely different story. I called the landlord and arranged for my name to be removed from the lease immediately. She told me to calm down and she would work things out.

That night, I felt like my whole world collapsed around me. I moved out of my house to live with you. I dropped my parent's financial support for college. I started vaping because of your influence and the stress you caused me. I quit after the last vape ran out. Did you know it would be that easy for me? All of the bullshit you put me through somehow still didn't stop my feelings for you.

Do you know how much support I received when I went home that night? Both of my parents shook their heads in shame, but they were happy I wasn't with you anymore. My little brother brought out a hatchet and asked if I needed his help getting revenge. That was perfect comic relief, but you don't know how bad I wanted to agree. I would have easily taken the hatchet to everything you own and cared for more than me. Within fifteen minutes of me being home, I had my mom's van and my little brother's truck secured for move out the next day at 10am, when I knew you would be at work.

'Die From A Broken Heart' by Maddie and Tae and 'Cruel Game' by The Relentless are what I felt that night. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't stomach anything, I could only cry. Looking back, I honestly think it was because I would also be losing the baby, not because I wasted one year and eight months of my life with you. I spent one year and eight months of my life properly caring for that child while you neglected him and claimed to be a good uncle.