tired of processing the agonies

of others then being abandoned

at their joys, become, yet again

for yet others, a vent-bucket

for them to rant-vomit into.

just because i don't have a light

of my own doesn't make me the moon

nor does orbiting other bodies

bulge-bloomingly massive with life.

in a world obsessed with broadcasting

everything, i want to narrowcast—

if i see a meme i like i want to carry it

like a baby to your particular arms

rather than tossing it hoping it sticks

to your slippery attention— i want you to know

i thought of you when i thought of this.

but i'm a cloud and a cloud has to rain

everywhere in its vicinity all at once

otherwise it's just a tap in need of a fixing

crying unasked water.

but then, what's wrong with a leaking tap

when it's raining everywhere anyways?

~ ajay

10/5/2022