I was standing like a statue digging my nails tightly on the leather desk chair in order to not break down, I was sure that my nails left a mark on the chair.

How would you react looking at the person you've been searching for the last 10 years standing just a few meters away from you?

How would you feel if those eyes that only held pure love for you now avoided looking at you?

How would you feel it the person that meant the world to you, was now feeling uncomfortable around your mere presence?

I was feeling all those draining emotions right now.

When I saw y/n downstairs, thought it was yet another one of my hallucinations.

I didn't want to believe it.

It felt like a dream came true.

I had experienced so many incidents when I ran up or followed women thinking that they were y/n but only to find out that it wasn't her.

I didn't want to be disappointed once again but this time, it wasn't a hallucination- it was really her.

I couldn't believe that I was searching for her all over the country all these years when in fact, she was just under my eyes all this time.

I saw her in flesh. I heard her voice.

She wouldn't disappear if I laid a finger on her.

She was real.

I thought when I will see her, I would run up to her and hug her tightly until I couldn't feel my arms but I didn't or more like I couldn't.

It was only when she disappeared from her life that I realised the position she held in my heart and her importance in my life but it was already too late.

The most painful part was that she acted like a stranger.

I knew that she knew me otherwise she wouldn't have avoided looking into my eyes.

I expected her to slap, scold, yell or at least get angry at me.

But she didn't react at all.

Instead, she looked nervous and scared of my presence.

Did I ruin everything we had together? Our friendship? The bond we shared?

I wanted to alone for the mistake I had committed and beg for forgiveness but was she ready to accept it?

Will she ever?

Without thinking twice, made a call.

"Hyung, I finally found her"

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