maybe there's something

you're afraid to say

or someone you're afraid

to love, or somewhere you're afraid to go.

it's gonna hurt. it's gonna hurt because it matters.

~ john green

in the past six months you have known spencer you have never been happier. no matter how much he worked or how much he taught he always made time for you.

he was currently working a case that was local, two girls had been kidnapped and one was found dead. you had a bad feeling about this case but you didn't want to worry him at all, but now you were feeling slightly guilty that you hadn't told him.

it was ten pm and you were getting ready to go to bed when you heard your phone ring, it was spencer so you quickly picked it up and answered it.

"hey spence wha-" you started

"hey kiddo" you hear rossi's voice on the other line, knowing that it's not spence you hear makes your heart start to race.

"uhm hi rossi is everything ok" you ask feeling the nerves creep up your body.

"no y/n spencer is in the hospital" you feel your heart drop at hiswords "he was shot we don't know exactly where but it was near his heart" you feel your heart sink even more as the words leave his mouth, "he's in surgery right now" you feel tears start to form in your eyes.

"uhm i- uh ok where are you guys" you stutter out trying to keep yourself from breaking down.

"sentara northern virginia medical center, west wing" he replies

"i'll uhm i'll be there soon" you stutter out again trying to keep the sob from coming up. he gives you a quick ok before he hangs up.

you quickly put a sweatshirt, sweatpants, and some random slippers, you grab your phone and keys before walking out of your house and lock your door.

you sprint down the stairs and into the parking garage, you get into your car and turn it on before speeding out of the parking lot and into the street.

as you're driving you feel the tears start to fall, a month ago you guys were just talking about how your scars made you stronger and how they could hold so much more than pain. you can't help but let the sob leave your chest as you drive, spencer had already been through so much and this was just adding onto it.

after twenty five minutes you finally arrive to the hospital, you quickly park and get out of your car and walk in. when you walk in your are met with the team and a blonde lady you've never seen before. matt immediately looks over and walks towards you and wraps you into a hug, you feel another sob leave your body as he rubs your back.

"he's going to be ok y/n, he strong, he'll make it through" he comforts you, you guys continue to stand there before he breaks the hug.

you both walk over to the team and you wave at everyone before sitting next to the blonde lady. the one thing you notice when you sit next to her is that she smells like sugar cookies, the smell brining you comfort.

"hi i'm penelope you must be h/n the boy genius is so into" she says through sniffles but still had a smile on her face.

"nice to meet you penelope, i've heard a lot about you" you smile at her through your own tears.

"thank you" she says grabbing your hand squeezing it tightly

"for what" you ask completely confused

"making spencer happy, i haven't seen him happy in a long time and every time he talks about you he can't help but smile" she says smiling at you, you can't help but let more tears fall "oh sugar plum

i didn't mean to make you cry more" she rubs you shoulder comfortingly

"oh no it's not that it just that spencer has made me the happiest i've been in a long time and i- i don't know what i would do without him" you feel your heart drop at the thought of losing spencer.

"oh sweetheart you aren't going to lose him, he's going to make it through this, he stronger than all of us combined" she reassures you with a smile

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after a couple of hours the doctors finally came out to talk to you all.

"he will be fine, luckily it was lodged in his shoulder and is set to make a full recovery" he says giving you a small smile "he also awake and wanting to take visitors" he lets you all know before walking away.

after some arguing you let them know that they can go first, you let them go first because they are his family. as you're waiting a black man walks in, he's about six foot and has a beard.

"morgan" you hear penelope squeal from across the waiting room. she walks over to him and gives him a hug a hug.

"hey how is he doing" he asks concern lacing his voice as he hugs her back.

"he's up, luke and matt are in there right now" she replies

"hey y/n he's asking for you" luke says as he walks out of the room, matt following behind him.

you slowly get up and walk last everyone and walk into his room, as soon as you walk into the room you feel relief rush over your body.

"hey" you let's out shakily as you sit in the chair next to him

"hey" he whispers his hand to grab yours, squeezing lightly. you feel the tears fall from your eyes, they aren't tears of sadness they are tears of joy.

"hey i'm alright" he reassures you rubbing his thumb over your hand

"yeah i know but you really scared the shit out of me"you say through tears making him chuckle "try not to get shot again" you plead making him full on laugh

"i'll do my best sweetheart" he smiles you, making you smile.

"you better because i plan on keeping you forever" you get squeezing his hand

"forever" he asks

"mhm" you hum

"i like the sound of that" he replies making you smile "and you know the perfect way to start off forever" he comments

"and what is that" you question

"y/n y/l/n will you do me the honor of being my girlfriend" he asks

without hesitation you kiss him, the kiss is sweet and passionate. you both kiss for a minute before you both break apart, you look into his eyes and smile.

"yes"

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hey heyyy

i was crying and listening to chasing pavements while writing this chapter, partially bc i'm heartbroken and because this chapter made was sad. i hate hurting spencer but it was the perfect opportunity for him to ask y/n to be his gf. i hope y'all enjoyed this chapter as much as i enjoyed writing it!!

lots of love

brielle