Recap

I wanted to say those hurtful hurts he said to me before like;

"What are you bipolar."

"Someone's a crybaby,"

And etc.

But I knew seeing him upset would break both of us.

To be continued...

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I was laying down on the ground, watching the stars sparkle in the sky before my eyes.

It's been 8 hours. 8 hours laying down in the cold outside. At the school's garden. What gojo did was, unexpected...

Flashback

Gojo said in his dull tone.

Gojo grabbed my wrist and went on my bed. He laid down and covered both of us with my blanket. I tried resisting but he was too strong.

If things couldn't get worse, gojo wrapped his hands around my waist.

I tried to fight back but it was no use. I figured that the only way to get out was to wait until he fell asleep. For one hour, I was hugged by gojo.

I could smell his scent and feel his heart beating fast. He felt warm despite his cold attitude. I feel safe with him. I can't describe the feeling in words. But If I had to, it would be "soft pleasure,"

The aura was uncomfortable. It was tensed, making it an awkward moment.

It was one long and intolerable hour. To be honest, I almost fell asleep in his arms but I refused to let that happen.

End of flashback

Then here I am, out in the cold, not wanting to see his stupid face.

Usually, I would feel at ease alone, in peace. But something feels missing.

It's like the same feeling as having a lot of money but without happiness. How do I know that feeling? I don't know, I just do.

Soon, my eyes started to feel heavy and I fell sound asleep.

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𝗦𝗛𝗨𝗧𝗨𝗣

"ʸᵒᵘ'ʳᵉ ˢᵒ ʷᵉᵃᵏ,"

ꙅ

𝕖𝕖𝕕

Soon, I woke up from a nasty dream

(how the fuck do you describe someone waking up from a nightmare💀)

(Also, try to read this in a 'serious' manner. Actually, nvm I don't give a duck anymore.)

Those voices.

Different voices.

They were so fucking loud even a deaf person would probably be able to hear it.

I looked around me to find myself in my dorm, covered with my blanket and pills with a bottle of water beside my bed.

I looked at the clock on my wall , "2 PM,"

"I should probably eat,"

I jumped out of bed and immediately got a headache. I felt dizzy but I dressed up anyway.

Took my wallet with me and went straight out, leaving the pills behind.

Walking out of the campus, gojo appeared before my eyes.

"Oh no, not this motherfucker. His ganna asks me lots of questions." I thought.

He looked like he wanted to say something to me,

but instead, he ignored me.

I wanted that to happen but... why does that get on my nerves. I rolled my eyes and walked out of the campus to buy myself lunch.

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yum yum in my tum tum. I got me-self an udon. Take-away. I'm ready to eat it in my dorm while watching Yarichin bitch club. (Put whatever you want. I'm just memeing)

I felt my stomach grumble and my mouth drooling.

"No one's gonna stop me from enjoying my time," I thought. And then I saw gojo,

Sitting on the bench at the school's garden. Alone. "Staring" into space.

"What a loner lol,"

I looked his way, making an L on my forehead with my right hand and the udon take-away on my left.

Gojo then turned his head to my direction with no expression and stared at me.

It was so awkward, I ran away.

Finally reaching my dorm, I whipped out my phone and checked the time, "3:30 PM Wednesday,"

"Is that why gojo was sitting alone on the bench? Why didn't he drag me there? Is he ignoring me? URGH HIS GETTING ON MY NERVES,"

I stormed out with my udon to the garden. Clenched fists on both, I felt my head raging.

"What did he do to get on my nerves? He didn't even talk to me. Let alone make eye contact"

(Author's note: "eye-contact" hehe, get it? No? Just ask me if you still don't get it )

I walked into the garden and I saw gojo slouching with a sad expression.

"He makes me so angry,"

I stomped towards him and threw punches directly at his face but he kept dodging them.

Gojo caught my right hand's punch with his left and lifted my udon on his right hand.

How did he get my udon.

❤️

What the fuck. Wasn't he just sad yesterday? Is he bipolar?

His fucking bipolar.

I said, trying to snatch my udon back but failed miserably.

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We ended up sitting down on the bench, eating MY udon.

Yeah yeah. Shut the fuck up gojo. HE ATE MOST OF MY UDON >:(

I asked.

Gojo's getting on my nerves again.

I said, fumingly clenching onto his collar.

He said. I'm joking he didn't.)

gojo said.

Gojo's getting in my nerves-

Gojo yelled.

As soon as he yelled at me, my vision started to go blurry. I looked down, trying to hide the fact that I'm crying.

gojo said, lowering down his volume.

Did I make him mad? What have I done? Just as I thought I'm over him, I'm not.

Every-time he's calm, sad, relaxed, I feel like I could do whatever I want. But when he gets mad, I feel like it's the end of me.

What have I done? I shouldn't have come. I'm the worst. I should die. I'm better off dead anyway.

In embarrassment, I ran away. Back to my dorm.

"I'm such a mess.

I'm so stupid.

I'm better off dead anyway,"

To be continued...

This is such a boring and short chapter but I promise you it gets . TRUST ME!!

It felt so suffocating to be writing in such a formal manner so I decided to go back to my style :))