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Los Angeles, California

June 6th

Friday

Dr. Ford squinted her eyes at Cameron as she was avoiding eye contact with her. Cameron played with her locket while her leg bounced up and down.

Dr.Ford wonders why the sudden behavior changes, usually Cameron who comes in with a smile on her face and is ready to talk. But today it was like it was her first time coming to therapy again. Granted, Cameron hasn't been to therapy in a week since Dr.Ford had been on vacation but Dr.Ford didn't know when she came back things would change.

"Cameron?"

"Yes ma'am?" She said lowly.

"What's wrong? We usually have a topic to talk about. Is everything okay?" Dr.Ford asked very concernedly. She knew about Cameron's depression and the things she would do to herself when she kept things in.

"I-I lost a friend last week" She mumbled, before sighing.

Dr.Ford furrowed her eyebrows "Really? Who? What happened?" She asked, opening her notepad and pen.

"See... what happened was... I was drunk and I-I kissed Sekani '' She twirled her hair with her finger. "I-I don't know what happened. We were talkin' den next thing you kno' I jus' kissed him. It almost led to something else but we stopped" She explained.

"Then like a day or two afterward, he tried to talk about it but I told him it was a mistake. Which it was since I was drunk and I freakin' ruined our friendship because he's been distant ever since. We don't talk anymore, he jus' ignores me. When I see him, he acts like I'm not thea' and doesn't even acknowledge me." She explained, "And-and I miss him, a lot and I-I don't kno' how ta' fix it." She said taking deep breaths and not trying to cry.

She was tired of crying over the situation honestly. Even though sometimes they're still around each other, it's not the same. They aren't the same. She just wanted her best friend back.

"Cameron....baby girl. You're one of my slowest patients when it comes to feelings that I have ever had" Dr. Ford said bluntly and shook her head.

Cameron frowned "W-what?"

"I don't kno' if you're doin' it on purpose or if you're just that oblivious" Dr.Ford twisted her lips to the side while looking at her. Cameron still looked at her confusedly.

"Cameron, how you don't see that you have feelings for him? The way you act, how territorial you are over him. You don't even let nobody mess up that boy's name without gettin' on their ass!" Dr.Ford laughed at Cameron's facial expression still looking confused.

"Your eyes light up like darn Christmas tree's when you talk about or someone even mentions his name. Even when you're looking sad right now because he's not talking to you. You still have this look in your eye. You went and bought him flowers every week last month." She explained.

Cameron sucked her teeth "I bought flowers fa' all da' men in my life last month" She waved her off. Seeing how men didn't get flowers until their death bed really rubbed her the wrong way so she bought all the men in her life flowers. Not just Sekani.

"Okay. Look me in my eyes and tell me you don't like Sekani. If you can do that, I'll leave it alone and never bring it up." Dr.Ford leaned up at the edge of her chair.

Cameron sighed before looking into her eyes "I don't like—" She stopped and tried to break eye contact. "Aht! Nope, look at me and tell me, Cameron." She said. Cameron looked her in the eyes again, but she couldn't do it. She couldn't say it. She never had to say it before she always said 'ew' but she couldn't even say that at the moment.

Dr.Ford started smiling "Mhm, you can't do it can you?" She asked, sitting back fully into her seat. "You think the kiss didn't mean anything but a drunk mind is always going to speak sober thoughts" She pointed her black pen at her.

"And I want you to answer this. If Sekani goes out and gets a girlfriend right now, how would that make you feel? " She asked, Cameron instantly rolled her eyes. Even the thought of Sekani having a girlfriend irritated her, she didn't think anybody deserved him.

"See! Look at your face Cam. But kissing him was a mistake? It didn't mean anything?" Dr.Ford raised her eyebrows but Cameron didn't say anything. She was too lost in her thoughts and trying to process it all.

"Tell me the time frame of you and Seth break up. What happened?" She asked, looking at the notepad and then back up at Cameron.

"Umm, I stayed wit' my dad fa' 2 weeks. I moved into my own apartment then Sekani moved in across da' hall afta' we caught his ex cheatin'. We started gettin'—Awh hell"

"Sekani. I got over him because I-I had Sekani '' She mumbled before covering her mouth with her hand. Cameron always thought she and Sekani just grew closer because they both were at a dark time in their lives, not because of feelings.

"Now I want you to say it."

"I-I like Sekani." Cameron shook her head. "Dis jus' makes everything worse now." She frowned.

"Why? You always talk so highly about him unless calling him annoying or mean. Why does realizing you like him makes things worse?" Dr.Ford asked confusedly.

"Because I'm me! Cameron the annoying li' girl he grew up wit'. His best friends li' sister, my brother's li' sister. I'm not his type! I'm dark skin, not light skin or—or"

"Woahhh, slow down. There isn't anything wrong wit' you being dark skin Cameron. You're gorgeous." Dr. Ford scrunched up her face.

"Growin' up, I've never seen him date anything but light skins or foreign girls. I have seen him date maybe 2 or 1 dark skin or brown skin girl in my whole life of knowin' him." She explained which was true. That's probably why it was so hard for her to realize her true feelings for him because she didn't think his preference was her.

Cameron was insecure about her skin a lot. She grew up getting bullied for it at school and all types of backhanded compliments. It doesn't make it easier that society still does it to this day.

Dr.Ford pulled out her phone "Do you read the comments of the video you posted of the vlog you did with Sekani?" She asked.

"The cookin' one or the one when I did a day in my life?" Cameron asked. Sometimes there are too many comments for her to read them all, she tries her best but she still doesn't get to them all.

"Either one of them. Listen to this one 'Look how he looks at her when she isn't looking' someone commented and even put in the time" She handed the phone to see for herself.

Cameron looked at it and clicked on the time. She was out house shopping and took him with her. When she looked away, Sekani licked his lips while staring at her before she looked back up at him. Cameron never noticed it when she edited.

She started going through more of the comments she had never seen before of her supporters pointing out the looks Sekani gives her. "Oh," She mumbled, looking at more and finally seeing the signs that were right in front of her.

"He has that same sparkle in his eyes when he looks at you. Just like you have when you talk about him." Dr.Ford said. Cameron sighed and gave the phone back to her.

"It's jus' a messy situation," She said, Dr.Ford pinched her eyebrows together "He's still my brother's best friend. As soon as I tell dem dat I kiss him behind their backs, it's goin' ta' be a mess. They are gonna see it as me sneakin' around." She explained.

A part of her feels as if she disrespected her brothers in a way. Cameron has just been feeling guilty, and sad this past almost 2 weeks.

"I understand the respect you have for your brothers but you don't have to tell them every single thing you and Sekani encounter. The kiss is you and Sekani's business, you don't have to tell anyone if you don't want to because it isn't any of their business. We talk about this all the time Cameron, you have to do what makes Cameron happy, not everyone. You have to choose yourself."

"Now if you want to tell Reem and Zay you like Kani, that's okay. But they can't police who you date. As your big brothers, they would understand, and as well as they know you, they know Kani just as well. I haven't heard you speak badly about who he is as a person yet and I'm positive they know he would treat you right."

Cameron nodded, taking in everything. She didn't know how she was even going to talk to Sekani since he does everything to not talk to her. She gasped and covered her mouth "Salvador" She mumbled.

Dr.Ford frowned "What about him? Cam, it's obvious you don't like him as much as you say you do"

"Noo, it's not dat. Da' day after da' kiss, I said I was gonna go see Salvador" She said with a yikes expression. "But I didn't go! I swea' I didn't go! I actually haven't talked to him cuz I feel guilty for kissin' Sekani while I'm gettin' kno' him," She explained.

Sekani was always jealous but now she realized it was more than because she was hanging out with someone new. It's because he didn't like the fact she was talking to another male. She's been hurting him this whole time and did realize it.

"He's never gonna talk ta' me again" She huffed.

"You are Cameron. You better make him talk to you. You want him, go get him simple"

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"I'm surprised you aren't ova' thea' wit' yo' best friend" Kareem came over to stand with her by the car while everyone waited for the jets so they came aboard.

"He's not talkin' ta' me right now" She sighed, turning to her left, seeing Sekani leaning up against his parent's car, bobbing his head to the music playing in his beats and looking down at his phone.

"Whatchu' do?" He asked, slightly confused.

"Bubs I like him." She blurted and looked at his face, kinda scared of his reaction. He just blankly looked at her before fake gasping "Whatt? Damn foreal?" He looked shocked.

"Yess and I kno' dats you and Zay best friend but I really do. Which is crazy cause duhh it's me. Someone he tried to drown when I was 7" She chuckled and Kareem started cracking up laughing.

"Angel I already knew. We could've told you dat you liked him" He chuckled and her eyes widened "H-Huh? How did you kno' and I just found out myself?" She questioned.

"You're overly clingy when you like someone Peanut. All of us are, dats how we show our affection. A month ago you basically cussed me out cuz I said dat nigga was trash and you were so mad tryin' ta' defend him"

"Because don't talk 'bout him! You're mad he beat yo' ass in 2k when you jus' suck." She rolled her eyes then realized she was doing it. "Ohhh, well I'll be damned" She chuckled and he laughed with her.

"Well, why didn't you say anything? You're cool about dis? You aren't mad?" She asked, she would understand if it made them uncomfortable.

"Yeah, don't hurt him doe. I'll be yo' ass" He warned seriously. Even though she is his blood sister, he cared about Sekani just as much. He wanted him to be just as happy as he wanted his sister to be.

"I think I already did" She mumbled, looking back over at Sekani. She instantly got annoyed when she saw one of Wynter's friends talking to him and they were laughing.

"I'll throw my suitcase at dat bitch" She grumbled, getting more annoyed the more she stared at them. Kareem's eyes widened, knowing she will actually do it. That's what all the siblings had in common, very territorial over the people they liked or were in a relationship with.

"Peanut...." Lex came over there looking worried at the look Cameron had in her eyes. Lex looked in the direction that Cameron's eyes were glaring at, chuckling under her breath when she saw Sekani laughing with someone.

"Cameron. They're jus' havin' conversation" Lex said and stood in front of her so she wouldn't be looking at the two anymore.

"No. Dey ova' thea' akeke. Ain' shit dat fuckin' funny. Da Fawk" She said with her accent coming through extra thick while Kareem was cracking up

"Go drag ha' " He instigated. "And will," Cameron started to take her earrings off but Lex stopped her.

"Move Lex. I have ta' go give him dis food" She tried to push Lex out of her way. "Noo, you weren't tryna go give him da' food den so don't do it now dat you see him talkin' to someone," Lex said, already knowing she wasn't going to go give him no food when they have been standing there for 20 minutes now.

"I forgot. Now move Alexis befo' I move you myself" She said seriously, Cameron just wanted to give him the food she forgot to give him earlier and she wanted to know why was the girl so comfortable touching his shoulder.

"Angel. Chill out. Dats, not yo' man" Reem joked and she snapped her head in his direction "Dats my mothafuckin' man. Go look at his lock screen and tell me who you see" She scoffed. Cameron was just mad the girl was still touching him but more so this was the reason she hated liking people.

She starts to do the most when they aren't even dating yet.

"You go give it ta' him den. And tell dat bitch ta' stop touchin' him to wit' ha' dirty ass hands" She gave the bag to Lex.

Lex started laughing while walking away to go give him the bag. Cameron watched the whole time. Sekani took the bag and Lex pointed at Cameron. He looked at Cameron and nodded before going back to talking to the girl.

Cameron sucked her teeth before turning around and Kareem raised his eyebrow. "Go getcha' man and stop gettin' mad." He said.

"What if he doesn't even like me anymore?" She mumbled, she was really beating herself down for what she said and how she went about things.

"Who wouldn't like you. Your Cameron" Reem chuckled.

"He said thank you and to stop lookin' at him befo' he knocks yo' eyeballs out yo' sockets," Lex said coming back over to them. Cameron busted out laughing and turned around to look at him again. He glanced at her, sending her a quick wink before looking back at the girl.

Her heart fluttered "Oh Ima get my man by da' end of dis trip" She smirked. That small wink just told her all she needed to know.

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Baton Rouge, Louisiana

June 8th

Sunday

"You ready?" Sekani patted Kareem's shoulder as all the groomsmen were all getting ready.

"Hell nah. I'm nervous as hell" Kareem huffed, fixing his bow tie. Sekani chuckled and started to help him fix his bow tie. "Allat complainin' you was doin' now yo' ass bein' scary" He joked.

"Man dis shit scary. Ain' nobody told me 'bout dis part. What if I mess up on my Vows or ha' ass run out on me" He started rambling on. Sekani was honestly shocked to see how nervous he was being. Usually, Kareem was the more of the tough one and barely showed emotion.

"Keep my mind of dis. What's goin' on wit' you and my sister?" Kareem asked, trying to calm his nerves. Sekani's smile faded away and he cleared his throat after finishing fixing his bow tie "Dis not da' place or time ta' be talkin' 'bout dat" He said, honestly not wanting to talk about anything that concluded Cameron.

"Focus on yo' vows. If you forget whatchu' wrote down jus' speak from yo' heart. Da' right words gon' come ta' you while lookin' at ha' " He advised.

"Nigga take a shot and shut the fuck up," Leon said, coming over to the both of them with three shots of something brown in his hands.

"Fuck you bitch" Reem huffed, taking the shot and Sekani took his, smelling it first. It was Crown royal. They all tapped the cups first before throwing them back. They all hissed, putting the cups down but Kareem still looked uneasy.

"I needa call ha'. Jus' ta' make sure she still wants dis" Kareem said nervously. Sekani chuckled and pulled his phone out of his pocket. After opening it, he called Samara before giving in.

"Sam, put ha' on da' phone befo' I cancel all dis shit" Reem fussed while walking towards the balcony. Leon and Sekani just laughed before Leon eyed his friend, who was brushing his waves on the mirror.

Sekani noticed he was staring and curled his lip up "Always knew you were a li' fruity. Fuck you starin' fa'?" He asked. Leon sucked his teeth. "Stop playin' wit' me bitch" He mugged him and Sekani laughed.

"Wassup with you and Peanut foreal tho? Y'all wasn't talkin' not once on Friday when we were at yo' grandparent's house or at the rehearsal" He said, still eyeing his best friend. They all knew each other like the back of their hands and could tell when something was off.

"We don't gotta talk all da' time" Sekani shrugged nonchalantly.

Leon scoffed "But you and her do talk all the time. What happened?" He asked, squinting his eyes.

Sekani huffed annoyed now, "Bro nothin'. Im cool offa' ha'. It is what it is. Leave it alone" He said annoyed before walking away.

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"Okay! Show time everyone!" The wedding planner said excitedly as the groomsmen and bridesmaids walked out of the room. "Okay, Sam and Zay upfront please, and Cam and Kani behind them" She instructed.

Sekani stood behind Zay since he was the best man and Sam was the maid of honor. Cameron walked beside him, and he glanced over at her. Seeing her in the red long dress that hugged the little curves she did have perfect and the long slit she had going up to her thigh, showing her thigh tattoo. Her hair was in a long slick back ponytail and she didn't have on much makeup.

She looked good, she always did to him but he really liked the red on her. It complemented her really well.

She looked over at him and smiled. "You look handsome" She complimented. "Thank you, you beautiful," He said as she looped their arms together.

Her beautiful smile grew even wider. "Thank you, kind sir," She said and he chuckled a little. Silence fell between them as the wedding planner continued to get everyone together and Kareem started to walk out.

"Sekani about wha—Nah it's good. I regret it" He waved her off, already knowing what she was about to say. "Y-you regret our kiss" She whispered asking. "Yep" he lied and nodded before looking down at her face but she quickly looked away from him and looked ahead.

Sekani only lied because he felt like she regretted it too. The first thing she said when they were about to talk about it was she was drunk. It stung but her saying how she was going to see Salvador afterward stung even more and he honestly didn't want anything to do with her anymore.