The past few days have been pretty basic. By pretty basic I mean- the same fights, going out at night and just being ignored by my mate. Life is just so great sometimes.

Anyway, I just got back from another on one of the boring meetings. This time though, there was only my family, me and two other leaders- Alexander and leader of the witches- as the others had gone with the troops to scout the area.

As soon as I entered my room, I already sensed that something was off. There a strange, yet faint smell lingering around the room. I moved carefully and used my hearing to detect the presence of anyone else but nothing. My sense of smell led me to the window, where the scent just disappeared. Probably because of the wind.

Then out of nowhere, the pungent smell of blood reached my nose. I let my eyes wander around the room until they rested on a black box near the closet door that I managed not to notice earlier.

I made my way to the box and took it in my hands. It was not too big but not too small and was in plain black colour. I scrunched my nose as the smell of blood was even stronger. I opened the box and held back a scream and forced down the bile that was rising in my throat.

Inside the box, was the heart of someone and by the looks of it, it seemed to have been rotting since a few days now. The blood was smeared around the sides of the box. I was about it throw it away, thinking of it as a stupid stunt my sister may have pulled to scare me but I noticed a piece of paper underneath it.

I tried to get the paper from underneath it without having blood on my hands but who was I kidding. I placed the box on the floor and opened the letter with my hands. Compared to the bloody box, I must say the handwriting is pretty neat and beautiful

Are you serious right now?

Totally. I mean look at it.

Shaking my head, I started reading the letter.

Well, well. If it is not the youngest princess of the Royal family that has returned after so many years. I don't think you know me but I do. I am sure you did not forget about the little incident that happened when you were around five right? The same attack that got you sent away and what made your already not so great family hate you even more.

Well, that time you were saved. Yes. The attack was to get you but we know how it turned out to be. This time, you will not escape though. Be careful, we could be watching you at anytime and you would not even know it. By the way, the heart is a little gift from my part to you. You know a little death offering...

Get ready to die Princess.......

None other than,

Your dear enemy

By the time I read the last words, my hands were trembling. No way in hell had I imagined that this so called war we are at with the vampires is actually because they want me. That must be why that vampire tried to kill me the other day. But, how did he know it was me?

What shook me to the core was the part that the attack that took place so many years ago. It was all because of me. Whatever happened was because of me. They died because of me. And now, the past is repeating itself. It will happen again and this time also because of me. People may die and because of me!

I felt tears starting to well up in my eyes as I fell on my knees. My life is such a mess and because of me many other people's life are going to turn into a mess too. I let the tears fall freely down my cheeks and I kept reading the letter over and over again.

It is all because of me. It always was and will always be.

No its not! Lizzie, calm down.

How is it not Cresent? Whatever happened years ago was because they wanted ME. They died because of ME. The war right now, is also because they want ME! How is it not MY fault? Everything is coming back to haunt me now.

Don't let their words get to you. Please Lizzie.

I tried to focus on Cresent's words but kept failing miserably. My thoughts kept wandering back to what happened years ago.

The blood splattered everywhere.

The lifeless bodies laying on the ground.

The messed up room.

The people fighting.

The small girl, standing in a corner, helpless.

I may have moved on in life and have become stronger than I was but deep within me, that girl was still there. The weak me. The one I tried to bury for so long and just as I am nearly successful, something just pops out of nowhere to ruin it. The guilt was overwhelming as I relieved those past trauma.

Lizzie fight it. You are strong and crying does not make you weak.

I felt my body start shaking as I no longer had control over myself. I felt this unreal power flow in me and my body started heating up. I clenched my fists and tried to calm myself down but it did not help. I felt sweat rolling down my face. My eyes started changing to their silver colour. I let go of the letter and wrapped my hands around my shaking form. Each breath I took, felt like several needles poking me, tearing my skin and setting it on fire. Everything became blurry and due to my sensitive hearing I kept hearing too many noises -from the guards downstairs to the ones outside, along with an irritating beep noise. I could not breath properly as my mind was clouded with disturbing thoughts. I wanted to scream, to yell but nothing came out. I felt my heart clench and thump louder than it has ever.

Soon, I heard the sound of different things starting to shake, followed by the sound of crashing. Looking around, I found some of the vases, broken on the the floor as well as the books that were on the shelf just a while ago, now on the floor. I looked at my room with wide eyes.

I am losing control of my powers.

Analise calm down. Focus on something. Anything!

I did as Cresent said and focused on the different things around the room until I saw the letter. The shaking of the room got even more violent and I was never more thankful for having soundproof rooms.

Then I did the most logical thing yet probably one of the most stupid things I ever did in my life. I jumped out of the window, well aware of the fact that someone could see me or worse, the vampires could see me and attack me. But I had no choice. I f I stayed here and lost control even more, I am afraid I will end up killing people.

I dashed through the forest and tried to stay in between the trees so that people would not see me. The run seemed to have calmed my nerves a bit. I used the tunnel and got to the cave. I collapsed on the floor and kept panting.

The sweat beads kept rolling down my face but my body was no longer shaking. I took in deep breaths as I gave in to the strange feeling overwhelming me. I never felt like this before. I felt a rush of adrenaline pumping through my veins and all my sense were heightened. Everything inside my came alive. All my emotions wanted to get out as I kept them in for so long.

I was in full control of my body but at the same time I felt like someone else. I made my way out of the cave, into the forest. I stood in the middle of nowhere and closed my eyes. All the scenarios kept replaying in my head. Not only the ones of when I was five but everything till now. Even the letter.

I felt the same feeling again, but stronger. I clenched my hands as I let the power take over me. I felt my eyes change colour and I opened them. I finally let it all out. I screamed like I never did as my power spread through the forest, destroying the part of the forest in the process. I screamed for what felt like forever before submitting to the darkness.

I woke up to the impact of water droplets falling on my face. As I stood up, I felt drained of all my energy. I guess all that screaming took its toll on me. I looked around and assessed the once beautiful and lush forest. Some part of the forest were burnt while in another part, the trees were uprooted. Heavy gusts of wind passed through my hair and the trees shook like they were cold, their leaves falling off of them. The ground opened up in many places and it kept going on. My elemental magic destroyed the forest.

I sighed and made my way back to the cave, totally drenched in the rain. I laid down for a while as I listened to the pitter platter of rain and the sound of the small waterfall.

What happened Cresent?

Nothing. You just lost control over your powers because you because of your emotions.

I should really stop bottling up my emotions now.

After what felt like an eternity, I made my way back to the palace. I easily climbed in room through the window. As soon as I stepped into the room, I froze on the spot upon hearing a cold voice. "Where the hell were you!"