It’s Saturday afternoon. It hasn’t stopped raining all day and my parents aren’t home yet. I actually got a text from my mom that said they’d be late and have to meet me at dinner tonight. That’s fine I guess. I’m used to it by now.

I’m at my desk currently, trying to block out the rough draft of a history paper, and Ravina is sending me pictures of herself in various clothes.

She said she’s nervous about meeting my family, but I’m not. They’d ignore her, like they ignore me. Unfortunately I couldn’t change the fact that I’m the baby of my immediate family, and still haven’t been accepted as one of the adults. Not that I care.

My phone buzzes with another text-

Ravina <3

Does my ass look fat?

Along with a picture of Ravina wearing light wash jeans and a black t-shirt. She stood in front of her mirror and hid her face with her phone. She looks different. She looks hot.

Theo

No, you’re too skinny for words. But you look amazing as usual!

I try to get back to writing, but she’s distracting me. I smile down at my phone when she sends a picture of her pulling her shirt up.

Ravina <3

I wish you were here to help…

I feel myself blush. Damn, I might have to make that my new phone wallpaper.

Theo

Are you flirting with me?

Ravina <3

Definitely.

Theo

I wish I was there too. You’re beautiful.

Ravina <3

All for you baby ;)

Theo

I can’t wait to see you tonight

Ravina <3

Likewise. I love you.

She said it, she meant it. I think. I think Ravina and I were for real. Oh screw it- I was just gonna believe her…

Theo

I love you too. Please wear that black shirt.

Ravina <3

Why? You like?

Theo

Yes.

Ravina <3

Do I look nice?

Theo

Yes.

Ravina <3

You sound like you’re smiling…

Theo

How can you tell?!

Ravina <3

I know you.

I smile. Yes, she does. She’s maybe the only person that does anymore, actually.

Sighing, I go back to writing but my heart is still racing a little. I bite my lip and grab my phone again…

Theo

I wish we were back at that party right now.

Ravina <3

Theodore Kim, are you flirting with me?

Theo

Definitely.

I hope she feels the same way…

Ravina <3

I liked that party.

I smile. Me too.

Ravina <3

I like when you do stuff like that.

Theo

You do?

Ravina <3

Mmm…

Theo

What are you thinking of?

Ravina <3

Your hands on me.

Theo

Where?

Ravina <3

Everywhere…

Theo

Ravina, so help me, I’m this close to actually coming over there.

I glare down at the screen. Why does she have to be so cute?!

Theo

I’ll pick you up at 7. Emo kitten.

Ravina <3

Rawr

I get to her house a little early…

Ravina runs out the door in dark jeans and the black shirt, with a long silver necklace that I haven’t seen her wear before. She hops in and smiles at me before crossing her legs and tucking her hair behind her ears.

“I like,” I say as I stare at her.

She smirks. “Uh huh.”

I try not to blush. My entire body is tense. Normally I’d go for a run, but this doesn’t seem like a good time to say to Ravina-

Heh, sorry I’ll be right back. It’s just, I’m like reeeeeally turned on right now and you’re not helping by leaning towards me like that.

I want her. And it’s probably the worst time ever.

She blinks, then looks up at me.

“Are we going?” She asks, confused as to why I’m not driving yet.

I bite my lip.

Come on Theo. Button it up.

“Yes, um yes.”

She tilts her head a little and I watch her dark eyes flicker down to my mouth like she can’t help it. My heart skips a beat.

“Ravina I need you,” I say suddenly.

Her eyes widen a little when I unbuckle my seatbelt, then; “Woah really?” She gasps.

I nod, “Please come here.”

Ravina’s face turns pink, then she smiles shyly and climbs over into my lap. She throws her arms around my neck and I feel my hands settle to her hips as she smiles.

I swallow, desire cutting through me like a knife.

She just grins.

“You seem frustrated.” She bites her lip, and I can hear that she’s trying not to laugh.

I frown. My heart is racing like I just finished a 5K-

“I am frustrated, I want to be alone with you.”

Remembering the pictures she sent me, I grab onto the hem of her shirt and lift it up. When I drag my fingertips across her stomach, she shivers…

“Are you cold?” I ask, looking up.

She shakes her head and I see that her eyes have widened.

“Not cold.” She says, and doesn’t bother adding more before she leans down and kisses me.

My body reacts immediately even though I know I shouldn’t be doing this. We’re literally in her driveway, making out in my car. I feel exactly eighteen right now.

Ravina presses her lips to mine softly, then draws away and kisses my cheek a few times, her hot breath and sweetness making my head spin.

Somehow, I’m aware of her hands sliding up from my neck to grip my hair.

I close my eyes…

Too much. Too fucking much-

“Ravina,” I sigh.

She nuzzles her nose against mine slowly and then kisses the corner of my mouth.

“Hmm?”

I should probably tell her to stop, right? I mean, we can’t stay here forever. Can we?

It’s getting more and more difficult to remember what I should be doing versus what she’s making me feel…

I wish we had more time. Wish I could tug her t-shirt up just a little bit further. Wish I could show her how much I love her.

Ravina pulls gently at my hair and I force my eyes open-

“Stop, I can’t. You’re driving me crazy.” I gasp.

She giggles.

“I can tell, you’re so tense.” She runs her hands down my bare arms and I feel goosebumps appear on my skin.

I swallow. “I seriously want you. But we need to stop.”

Her blush is so pretty…

“But I want you too,” she mumbles, pouting.

Heaven help me.

“Please Rav, please.” I whisper, as her lips hesitate inches from mine.

Her bangs are in her eyes. Damn she’s cute-

“Okay,” she finally smiles.

I pause. “You sound disappointed.”

“A little.” She shrugs, and I feel her hands fall to my shoulders.

Ravina’s fingers flex, her nails digging in slightly like a cat. I smile.

Suddenly, she hugs me-

Her arms around my waist, her head on my shoulder.

“What are you doing?”

She sighs deeply.

“I just want to hold you. Let me hold you for a second.”

I close my eyes and put my arms around her too. The position of our bodies reminds me of that swing-set game ‘spider’ but I don’t think it had ever been so comforting.

Ravina tightens her arms around me, and I can almost tell that she’s smiling to herself.

“What?” I say.

God, I could stay here forever…

She’s so delicate, and yet she’s the one holding me. I love it more than I dare say.

“I just… missed you. How you feel. You’re so precious to me.” Ravina whispers against my skin.

Shit man. That is quite the thing. I need something clever to say back.

Apparently, “You too.” Is all I can come up with.

Internally I’m kicking myself, but then Ravina laughs softly and pulls away from me. Her eyes shine with false innocence. I quickly realise why.

I feel her grab the waistband of my jeans, her fingers fluttering under my shirt, against my stomach. I bite the inside of my cheek.

“Sorry you’re uncomfortable today.” She says.

I highly doubt that…

I blush, “Mmhmm.”

Her eyes find mine once again and it feels like she can see through me.

“I’ll help later.” She says suddenly.

“You will?”

Ravina nods. “Of course.”

“You mean…”

She just grins.

My heart races-

“Fucking hell Rav,” I sigh.

Her lips part as she gently pulls her hands away.

“I like it when you curse.” She tells me.

I smile. “You do?”

Ravina nods. “Yeah, it’s hot.”

She doesn’t say anything else, just climbs off my lap and goes back to her seat. I let out a breath, resisting the urge to place a hand over my heart to check it was still beating…

This girl will be the absolute death of me-

And what a way to go.