Hey Journal I'd like to tell another close story to my heart, but with a little more fiction thrown in to make it more exciting!

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I feel it coming, a source of energy burning inside of me, similar to caffeine, a rush causing me to shake and shiver. I don’t feel hyper, but calm as the energy rushes from the tip of my toes to the strands of hair on my head.

My lifestyle pushes me to a new rank, a grunt, working for a higher power then myself. The tasks given to me is managing the structure of the desires of my other grunts that do different tasks. To keep them content, to be efficient, and to fix any issues related to stress.

The more I manage the desires of the other grunts, the higher power gives m more energy, to keep me going. Although I continue to get a reliable source of energy, my parts start to deteriorate as I try to perform at my best since the start of my grunt work. I’m overdue for a checkup, but I can’t stop looking after the other grunts. I have grown too stubborn to not let them feel stress.

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The higher power starts at o notice I have been making mistakes, and functioning slower in comparison of how I was the last 30 cycles of energy intake.

Everything is dark, the higher power stopped giving me energy. I slowed down completely to a stop. My skin, it peeled off, my components are exposed to a prodding for small periods of time. I am constantly under examination for many unused cycles I could run on, but every time energy comes, it is drained out me after a short period.

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Finally, light shrouds me in a very blinding manner, then I feel my body shiver, then I suddenly feel a pinching sensation all over my body, my joints ache in excruciating pain. My sight is restored, I see my reflection in a metal wall and tools all around me scattered, as well as cans of some kinds of fluids. Then I hear a voice speak in my ear...

“Can you hear me? Testing hearing transmitter. Looks like a success there. This engineer unit will have to restart its tasks soon again. The diagnosis from the level of performance to deterioration ratio has been adjusted. This unit was aware of needing a repair but refused.”

A man in coveralls with a tablet and stylus, is busy writing notes while walking in a circle around me. It looks like he is one of the higher powers that gives me energy. He has gifted me with sensation and hearing. My understanding of their language and my tasks are a little out of date as I feel no urge to immediately go find my other grunt workers to help.

“Results seem to be a success, this unit will now properly repair itself when it starts to break down this time. It will keep maintaining the other units to a bare minimum, instead of its best. This way it will last longer and we will have less stress on the engineer units. Even though the other units won’t be at top performance all the time, this was a good experiment.”

They made me break down by taking care of others on purpose? They made me feel the urge to resist the urge to help myself when I ended up with so many mistakes because of it?

“This unit did work really well, we now know which pieces to upgrade, and know some of the glitches it will go through. Even though it destroyed several fabricating units, it rebuilt them back to a better performing unit. It learns as it tends to the other units and updates it personal blueprints for each different unit.”

Well yes, I did destroy a fellow grunt worker when its tools started to jam, I tried to fix it but caused it to explode into a wreck. I used the pieces it was working on, and its original pieces to remake it with an unjamming function built into it. It was its biggest desire as I rebuilt that unit.

“We are giving this special unit the ability to hear its surroundings and feel its surroundings so it can better make blueprints that are quieter and gentler, to ultimately make a trait of smooth soundless functioning units. We have uploaded its personal blueprints throughout the main systems to implement these fixes for better functioning stations.”

The man in coveralls approaches me as he focus on different parts of my body until he rests his gaze at my head, at my hearing transmitters.

“So let’s see how caring you will be this time, when you can only upgrade others, and not yourself. To a bare minimum for others and to only repair yourself back to pristine condition after each boot up. While still being as efficient as possible at doing your work tasks. Do you understand your function unit 867?”

I nod at the higher power as I feel myself need to wear clothes and lubricate my painful joints. I then look up in my blueprints on my unit on how to do so. I go and attach a tiny tube with a needle tip to my joints and pump a fluid from the can meant for joint relief. I then ask the higher power for clothing to protect my components from deterioration.

“Good the self preservation rule is in full effect in this unit this time. Better then it was when it was functioning like a unclothed manikin. Here, take these jeans and dress shirt. Make sure not to get your clothing jammed in the other units when repairing them.”

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I nod to show I understand. I wasn’t given a sound making device like the higher power to communicate. It wants future units to be quiet, so I will do as it desires.

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So journal, that was my experience for some of my work life until my depression took over and caused me to burn out with a smile of my face with tears leaking out of my eyes. All the while, trying my best to support others rather then myself.

My story is still going, and I have more experiences I wish to tell. So until next time journal good night.