"If so, then grant me access to your memories."

****

Now that I look back, those words were rather childish. But it's something that can't be helped.

I really am quite fond of this innocent straightforwardness shown by a child. Tragically, almost everyone loses this precious aspect, as they grow up.

They grow adapt to deceit and end up fooling even themselves. While accommodating to the encompassing falsehood, we lose happiness felt through freedom.

For me, growing up is synonymous to climbing up the ladder of hypocrisy. Constantly rotting through lies and enshrouded by complexity, one forgets the 'simple joys of living'.

I take rather pride in the fact that, I had always been truthful to myself. If I find something dishonourable upright or something esteemed upsetting then I will unhesitatingly say so.

So much so, that I will admit I was rendered lovestruck at the first sight of this enchanting violet maiden.

Even though she is infinitely distant from my perception of a human being, she is my ideal type. Because in her face, I can see everyone I love.

But off life and love; Of course, I chose life.

I guess love should just remain source of happiness and nothing more. One should stay clear about the order of one's priorities.

As for those fools, who put romance over life, I haven't seen any yet. Clearly anyone who appears to follow as such, is either dead or a shameless hypocrite.

"As thy lord wishes."

The conversation ended on that short note. A glimmer radiant violet light surrounded me. I leapt through notions of consciousness and blankness.

The colour violet faded and the crystal forming my body shook vigorously. A tremendous amount of waves were absorbed by the crystal.

Without further adieu.. a steady transmission of an outrageous amount of memories commenced, instantaneously.

Thankfully, it merely took half an hour to reach out this point of time in her memories. I had plundered a treasure crest of knowledge, gradually accumulated over millions of years, in such short time.

Such efficiency, would have definitely left me delighted. But, unsurprisingly so, that wasn't the case.

In the past half an hour, my facial expression had shifted over so many times. Initially I felt sympathy, followed by agony, then pity, hope, anger and finally dread. Such a plethora of emotions left me visibly shaken.

**************** Memories.

A few centuries ago;

In a brightly lit plane, I unenthusiastically spectated over the passing anecdotes of a rudimentary colourless lifeform.

Day in-Day out...seeing the same old asylum over and over again. Nothing worthy of my intrigue.

Suddenly my gaze fell upon the obvious outcast amidst this silvery white light. With no sense of secrecy, this magnanimity has condensed itself momentarily, out of nowhere.

A Gargantuan Jet Black Gate. Simply too awe inspiring for me hold sighs.

In terms of immenseness of stature, it vastly exceeded any skyscraper I've encountered before. Huh..I really am in the future.

'Clang'

The short lived silence came to an with an earth splitting sound. The firmly closed majestic Gate zapped open instantaneously. A ray of jet black darkness descended, piercing through brightly lit space !

By this point in time, I was so tired of pointlessly ranting over, the inconceivable nature of every single damn event, that I lazily accepted it.

The world had been reformed over so many times, in the timeframe of innumerable number of eons that everything and anything was possible.

A crimson-blonde haired stunning beauty appeared literally out of nowhere, seemingly condensing herself from the dark ray. In a sweep, she made sphere from the black light and dropped it onto the ground.

Just like I told myself, this world was just... so unpredictably random.

Unfortunately or Fortunately, it was filled to brim with inconceivable revelations.

Appearance of a crystallized Ape-Swine, a mystic maiden made of violet moss and finally a blondie condensing out of 'black light'. These were simply too deviant, unreal events.

Bursting out of the tiny sphere, emerged a large familiar creature. Too familiar that I unintentionally rubbed my eyes.

"What is going on ?"

It was none other than that accursed 'Loofian', which had defeated me in a bout and then enslaved me in this crystal body. As always, seeing him gave me a very bad feeling.

"Oi Jumbo, as promised here you are. Now guide me to the 'Salvager' of this asylum. I will leave the garbage her"

'Jumbo..... The name fits perfectly like a match made in heavens. Really Jumbo.....Mu Fa Ha Ha ha ha ha :)'

I burst out into a huge uproar of joyous laughter. I fell on floor because of stomach pain induced of laughter.

Really happiness does come in unexpected ways.

Further more, the ever so solemn 'Jumbo', shuddered hilariously at the piercing commandment. Then, timidly replied back.

"Your graciousness mademoiselle, this humble one can only lead you to the Lord. I sincerely ask for thy to request to the lord.."

As the gorilla was in middle of making his troubled analogy, he uncharacteristically made a startled expression. This was immediately followed by a pained impression.

"Oh what ? the Lord is absent for the moment, How can this happen ?

This humble one sincerely apologies to mademoiselle. Unfortunately, thy audience with the lord will be held adjourned. "

A cold glint flashed in the eyes of the lady. In but a second, the gorilla was completely subjugated. The entirety of its body was stretched out sadistically by bleak chains.

Before the pathetic ape could even squeal, the blond haired psychopath merciless threatened.

"Tell me where the salvager is. Your lord has nothing to do with it. If you further ostracize me, I won't just stop on salvager.

Blurt it out in 3 seconds, unless you desire true oncoming of hell on this asylum."

I misjudged her. She was simply too domineering and savage to be called a lady. Sigh. how barbarous...

" It's located over there, that colourless fluid. Thy majesty please let me guide you towards it."

Such spinelessness. Are you going to make me feel ashamed that I lost to you ?

Whoosh. Once again, the black ray pierced through white light. Momentarily they flew towards me.

"So this is the salvager here. How pathetically primitive. It all turn up into a huge waste of time.

mmm.. Whatever, I will just test it's rate of evolution by using it to get rid of some D's."

'Why do both of them keep referring to moss as the 'Salvager' ? Also what in hell are "D's" ?.

That 'extremely brief summary' the gorilla gave to me, is already falling short on so many fronts. I hate this feeling of being kept in the dark.'

Yet again, with another wave of hand an aggregation of humanoid figures came to my view.

Their characteristics were almost completely distorted statures and eyes filled with cold.

There figures were practically so disarranged that it was inspiring for them to have held desire to live.

Clearly the blonde barbarian lady, was some big-shot. Not only Jumbo... but also these manikins acted subserviently towards her.

The conversation, they held had too many otherworldly technical terms for me to understand.

But the brief idea was that the lady was testing the moss out in some way by migrating these "D" ?s into the asylum.

In turn, she will see the results over a period of time and decide efficient usage of moss. Just like how chemists test out the rates of reactions.

Thus she took her leave and Jumbo.. returned to his stronghold.

"Ah"

But in that moment of departure, a small ball like creature entered through the black asylum.

Although it appeared harmless my instincts were screaming loudly to stay away. I felt a chill run down my spine

. "Is that Zodius....?"

**** The scene changed. Now I briefly felt the presence of an immense amount of despair and hatred touch myself. The humanoid manikins had collected all the moss into pots and were leisurely cooking it. The moss could only conceive pain and was devoid of any expressions. A Pity.. Decades passed slowly. Everyday, it suffered not only being grilled into the food for its foes but also being unable to express the staggering amount of pain in to anyone including itself. The humanoid manikins grew more and more formidable in numbers. Their collective appetite was solely fulfilled by the moss. Unlike the established equilibrium, that the moss had formed over with Loofians, this incoherent setup was self destructive. Those who live accustomed to peace, suffer the most at the arrival of an unwelcomed change. But it is also stimulus that shapes a man. Instinctively, the moss tried to destroy its own nutritional value, for the purpose of cutting their numbers. However, that ended up backfiring on her, as more of her was consumed because of that. They used her to neutralise the toxic hunger in their bellies. Again and again, the failure, suffering and struggle repeated themselves over. As a result, it's own instincts sharpened to inhumane levels. The nearest it ever came to eliminating them, was when it blighted their reproduction mechanism. But they overcame this emerged flaw by simply evolving themselves. Finally the hope for salvation came for the moss, came in the form a larva. A juvenile weak lifeform. Most vicious of predators have most harmless of camouflages. At first it devoured them in one's, then in ten's and finally in hundred's. Within barely 3 months, its consumption increased from one's to thousand's. This abomination's growth was just as explosive as its appetite. The overgrown larva soon grew shed it's skin, transforming further into an even more horrendous beast. As the memories were blurred, I could only make out it's silhouette. But still if that was Zodius, then I probably am done for. I thought it was karma. Manikins payed the price for tormenting moss, as they were mercilessly devoured. On the other hand, the weight of extinction was lifted off the shoulders of the moss. **** Yet another time, the scenario shifted. Now I was at the Head Quarters of the Manikin civilization. "Rooooaaaaar" On an another ordinary day, an ear splitting roar surrounded the horizon. Hearts of men and children were shaken alike, both were drawn into explicit chaos. Abandoning every chore, they ran ferociously in utter dread. But.... they clearly weren't fast enough. It was over. That satanic monster deviously devoured each of them alive. Curses, wails, tears, pain and most evidently despair. A scenic view of hell bought forth on earth. To spare the children from this fate, the adults committed themselves committed infanticide. As the beast didn't fancy eating dead! In merely a day, a century old civilization came to an end. Of the million people, only a hundred or so corpses were left. It was very painful to continue watching. I was so disgusted that just vomiting won't cut out for it. Until the day, I have exterminated this son of a bitch with my own two hands, I will have to live with regret. But that was just my opinion. However, the moss mostly felt schadenfreude at their demise and somewhat grateful to Zodius. Clearly, its own meticulous efforts had bore fruit. The manikins were significantly weakened, this hastened up the inevitable. But just as its peaceful live about to return, all of it was pulled helplessly towards a suction. With a gulp, it was also eaten alive. Crushed and squashed, followed by most hellish of all tortures was experienced in first hand. Betrayed by it's own trust in someone. Helplessness at the lack of strength. And finally hatred for the peace, that instilled weakness . To this horror, I really couldn't keep my eyes open. All I could possibly do, was to barely touch... the feelings the moss felt. Yet, it was still more than enough to bring me to tears. The show came to an end. Culminating in all of its vitality withered away in the beasts stomach. But clearly, this unreasonable defilement didn't end here. In a sorry state, the partially dead, pitiable creature was then excreted at the corpse filled ground. Even more of a humiliation, was the distasteful and disdainful look Zodius made on his face, before leaving. The long desired peace became meaningless. In that instant, all emotions came to a seizure. After a brief lapse of blankness, boundless hatred surged forth, but then again, it also ceased. The animosity was derived from moss's own weakness. What's the purpose of hating itself ? How Pointless. Then came something even more foundamental, the inborn ravenousness. Kill and eat. Devour the dead world to seek forth your own true life. Spare nothing; end everything by devouring it. If the world is unfair, then all it can serve as is my food. Within a blink, all the corpses vanished. The peace loving nature had already dissipated, and all that was left was something broken. And then came, the period for me to finally awoke. Eh.. about now. **** The moss was initially indifferent towards me, but when its evolution came evidently because of me, it took a possessive approach. When I connected my consciousness with it through Pico chips, it was overwhelmed. Wariness and suspicion were there, but what constituted the majority was joy. Incredible joy at being given some freedom of expression. As we shared consciousness, it quickly learned the ability to move using my kinetic sense. And so as the events unfolded themselves, the moss grew more and more fond of me. Primarily as it was benefitted analysing me. "Yet, here I thought it was a low lifeform. Ah..it really is future and I am the one who is primitive." When I was defeated by Jumbo... really it too embarassing to admit. Ahm.. the moss straightforwardly declared its intensions using some pictorial language. Which meant "If he dead, then I'll make a slaughter house of you" Plain and clear. And then to supervise the successful reformation of my body, it intensionally merged our consciousness again. Unintentionally, though it ended up living my life .... and here we are. **************** To put it simply, I am deeply conflicted. Conflicted by the dilemma revolving around her inhumane personality and her resolved loyalty towards me. Which stand should I take from henceforth ? One thing at a time. For now, I decided to calm my mind first by peacefully laying still on the sullen ground. Decisions made under direct impact of an revelation, are often regrettable ones. I gazed briefly at the perplexing anxiety and profound longing in the eyes of the violet maiden, who was standing there looking at me. She was an impersonation of myself. Yet she held an additional set of memories, as her base. My base was the time I spent as an infant, for her though, it was a few millennium, filled with torture. Watching another person's life as yourself and experiencing it personally, were two fundamentally different point of views. Sigh... if they had been same, then the humanity would have never screwed itself over so many times, by repeating the same mistakes in the past. Despite that, she ended up 'experiencing' all of my life anyway. Through the waves of information, she was imbued with my memories as her infant-like mind synced with my own. Like a painting drawn on a blank canvas. She became a replication of my own consciousness. Hence, it was only natural, that she appeared visually likeable to me, encompassing the people I love. However, that wasn't the case with her mental structure though. To be fair, it was quite a bit twisted and a whole lot fragile. Simply too weak on foundations. Forlorn to the degree, where someone with zero combat ability,such as me, was deemed as her god within a matter of few days. Committed to me, she viewed me as a holy progenitor and the lordship of her existence. This was more than enough to illustrate the fact that how empty of a life, she had lived. To be honest, It was somewhat of narcissistic joy to my prideful self. But at the same time my heart filled with pity. Thus, I was conflicted on this regard. But as she had deeply engraved myself as her origin and as such 'belonging to me' was her purpose of life besides devouring everything abiotic. Thus, there was no need to contemplate any further on her loyalty. As a proof, she had already saved me over so many times. While I had unintentionally provided her support with her evolution, she had become essential for my survival. She was like a ray of light amidst hopeless darkness. For me having her was akin to having some more hope. Another dim source of hope, was arguable survival of my brother, Cecil. If means be, I will definitely transverse through the 'Void' and find him. Who cares if she is twisted ? It's not like that I plan to take her back to my world and start a marital affair. I bet that everyone I shall meet in this world, will more or less be twisted. For example.. Jumbo or Zodius Ironically, many a times my pessimistic views had turned into prophecies. I had already resolved my mind to employ any means for my survival. Thus, I nonchalantly said. "Now that you have gained a significantly secular mental entity. So let's set firm terms for our enterprise" "Ahhh" As if, she was enchanted, a look of pleasantness and delight arrived on her face. Ungracefully a melodic moan came from the mouth of this indifferent girl. It was so evident that she wasn't expecting such favorable turn of events and neither was I. Then she raised her opinion with a conflicted voice. "Oh thy lord, I hereby vow to be subservient to you. As a being strives to preach his creator, my purpose of live is to serve my progenitor." Annoying. "PLEASE STOP IT. I don't fancy buttering. Strictly refer to me just as, Fenrir. And as for the conditions to our relation. I will put my term's first, If you agree then put your terms." "Yes, thy lord Fenrir. I shall accept any and all terms excluding the seizure of this one's life. But before that stop referring this one as 'moss' in your mind. Please give me a proper name. I guess, 'Helen' would be fine" Helen really ? Get real. " Oh a name, lets call you Helly." The moss confusedly asked. "Why something so obnoxious as Helly ? I don't think I have been ever cruel to thy lord Fenrir" " Naw. You did. You hid it secretly from the memories. And you even had the nerve to ignore it. No counter arguments here, your name is finalized as Helly." Yeah..how can I forget. Back then, when my heart was struck dead, after receiving the final strike of that Gorilla, Didn't you just voraciously consumed most of it ?. Had It not been been that cystal breath.. That would have been my last sight. You do love me much more as a meal. Don't you ? Helly.