I lay on my bed at home my earbuds on highest volume trying my best to drown myself in The Vamps. My head bobs softly to the music. 

"All I want to be, all I ever want to be yeah, yeah is somebody to you." I sing along. 

Sammy walks in and sighs, "How long have you been in here?" 

I shrug and lift the pillow to cover my face. 

I feel my bed shift and i peek from under the pillow to see Sammy sitting on the edge of my bed. "You can't just mope around like this-," He says when he's interrupted by his phone beeping and he takes it out and looks at it and the biggest grin I've ever seen spreads across my brother's face. 

I raise my eyebrow, "Isabella?" 

Sammy clears his throat his cheeks turning pink and putting his phone back in his pocket. "That doesn't matter. What matters is that you've been moping around the house since you've gotten here. You haven't even put your stuff away!" He gestures to my still packed backs piled on the floor. 

I shrug once again and Sammy sighs again. "Why don't you just talk to him?" This time it's my turn to sigh and cover up my eyes with my arm and shake my head. "I can't."

"Why not?" 

"For many, many reasons, Sammy." 

"Which are....?" he pushes. 

I shake my head again. "First off he doesn't like me. He hates my guts and will do anything to make my life hell. Second, he's a player, Sammy. He uses girls for one thing, and that's the end. He dumps them once he's done playing around. And these mood swings? One minute he's spitting fire and talking crap and just being mean. Then the next minute he's," I sigh, "Possible showing interest in me. It's just such crap and it's annoying and just not okay." 

Sammy shakes his head and squeezes my foot sighing. "Alright, Sis." he gets up and leaves the room. 

Sam's right. I shouldn't be moping around like this for Bain. I have to get used to it. Bain will be at school. I'll have to watch him make out with girls. Thank god I'm almost done. 

I pick my pathetic self up and sigh putting my hair up into a pony tail and get to putting my things away. 

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"You have got to be kidding me," I pant grabbing onto the back of the couch for stability. 

"I'm sorry I-I didn't know you wanted her to stay," Isabella says. She's gone, Ashley left early. 

I can't believe I ran all the way here, for nothing. 

"You didn't know?! Of course I fucking wanted her here, Isabella!" I yell and her eyes widen with hurt and her eyes start to water. 

Ah, fuck. 

I sigh and bring my little sister into my arms and rub her back. I shouldn't have yelled at her, she'd had enough of that when she was younger. "I'm so sorry, Belly. Ba-ba didn't mean to yell at you." I say referring to the old nick name she had for me when she was very little and she giggles and sniffs wrapping her arms around me hugging me back. I sigh let Belly go kissing her forehead then going to my room and closing my door. 

I need to be alone. 

I take off my shirt and my shorts falling back onto my bead with a sigh. My hands up behind my head staring at my ceiling. I can't stop thinking about her. The way she laughed. The way she looked scared, but the sassy words that came out of her mouth were saying the opposite. I'm man enough to admit how sexy I found her defiance to me. Usually as soon as I look at girls, they drop their panties and beg. If i said to jump they'd say how high, but not Ashley. No she wanted to give me sassy come back and snarky remarks. The way when she rarely got mad her nose would crinkle in the most adorable way. 

Listen to me I sound like a pussy. 

Suddenly my phone rings and I grab it looking at the caller I.D and i glare at my phone. "Speaking of pussy," i mumble and answer the call, "What do you want?" 

"Son, that is no way of speaking to your father." 

I sit up annoyed and glare at the floor, "First of all you are not and never will be my father. And second your lucky I even answered the damn phone." 

David sighs and I can already see him bent over in a chair rubbing a hand over his face in frustration. "Son I just called to see how you are. You know I can help you if you need food, clothes, money-" 

I stand up my anger flaring, "You know know damn well I want nothing to do with your or your money." 

"My blood runs through your veins. I am trying here, Bain. Son, rather you like it or not I am your father."

"Well you should have thought of that before you left." I move the phone from my ear and hang up on him trying to take deep breathes. He has some fucking nerve. 

I hate him. 

 I hate him with a burning passion. He's nothing, but a coward and an asshole. 

Suddenly I hear the house phone ring and Isabella picks it up, "Hello?" Then seconds maybe minutes pass, and then , "Oh..." Shit. 

I quickly put on my shorts and run to the living room grabbing the phone from my sister hearing David finishing his sentence, "-know we haven't spoken in a long time, Honey it's just your brother is hard headed, but I've missed you a lot and i want you to know-" HOW DARE HE?! HE'S CROSSED THE LINE.

I clench my teeth so hard i think they might shatter and I'm shaking with fury, "How dare you try to turn my own sister against me." 

"Bain she is my daughter! I deserve to talk to her!" 

"Yeah?! Well you lost those privileges when you walked out that fucking door!" 

I hang up the phone and throw it against the wall shattering it and yell with frustration, "Ahhh!" pulling my hair so angry I can't even see. 

I finally look up to see my sister standing there shaking with tears falling down her cheeks. Suddenly she turned and ran to her room slamming the door. 

I lean back against the wall and slide down it slowly sitting on the floor my head in my hands between my knees. And I do something I swore I wouldn't let myself do again. 

I cried. 

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