Last night I thought I was having a dream. The woman at reception already warned me that the walls are thin and if someone's voice is loud enough, it could be heard from one room to the other. I didn't pay much attention to this and booked my room. Last night I woke up at 3 am, and while half asleep, I was hearing Adrian's voice talk on the phone, coming from the room right next to mine. I thought it was just a dream and turned on the other side, falling back asleep. But this morning I found an envelope laying down on the wooden floor in front of my door. It was a little bit heavier than a letter so it was obvious that it contained an object. When I opened it, I found the wooden keychain which I gave Adrian for his birthday.

Oh hell no...

I grabbed my robe and stormed to the reception, asking the lady if it were delivered for me by post. It was obvious that it wasn't since the envelope had no name or address written on it, but I hoped. She gave me a strange look saying she doesn't know anything about it and that it wasn't her who left it there. Then I asked if she saw a tall blonde man and she nodded, saying he checked in late at night. Pissed, I went back to bed. I won't let him ruin my peace.

I laid thinking what to do, well aware that I cannot handle him on my own. I prefer to take care of myself rather than ask someone else to do it, but Adrian is impossible. I figured it would be best to tell Julian that he followed me, maybe he could call him and convince him to come back home.

I picked up my phone and went on his Instagram profile. I saw that he posted a story. When I opened it my heart stopped and my blood froze as I saw a picture of him in a night club, ice bucket filled with bottles placed on the table and him seated on a black leather sofa with a girl on his lap. Forwarding to next one, it was a video recorded by his friend who was recording himself but caught Julian and the girl kissing in the background. I practically lost all my nerves and felt like to go through the screen and choke him. Yes I did end it and yes I know he will move on eventually, but not the first night!

Mostly it was anger which I felt but then it suddenly turned into sadness. Once again I realised how irrelevant and insignificant my presence in his life is. For him I'm just another girl and for me he will always be my first. But then, I reminded myself that I did it knowing it wouldn't result in anything and now I shouldn't feel disappointed.

The anger returned, turning into pure rage and soon I found myself banging loudly on Adrian's door with the envelope in my hand. He didn't take long to open but his look gave out that he had just napped.

"Listen to me you sneaky jerk!" I moved passed him and into his room. "You will stop following me and leaving your trash behind!" I shouted and warned, as though I was just about to kick his ass. I ripped the envelope into pieces and threw the pendant against the wall.

He only chuckled and watched me in amusement. "Rawr...tiger." He mocked me which only provoked me further.

"I am so sick of you!" I rushed towards him, pushing him with my hands against his stomach. He let me do it.

"I don't blame you." He still had a dumb smile on his face, but seeing that he didn't become aggressive or tried to push me back, it slightly calmed me.

"What do you want from me?" I demanded resting my hands on my hips.

He stared at my eyes for a few moments before speaking as though choosing what to say. "You." He finally spoke.

"Well that you can't have I told you." I reminded him of the obvious.

"I know. You can't have me either after what you did with my brother." He shrugged, confusing me.

"Then why don't you stop following me?" I said it with some sarcasm in my tone, trying to show that it is common sense.

"Because I can't let go. Although in my head it's done, I don't want anything to do with you. What you did hurt me." He confessed but I didn't let it get to me.

"Well you hurt me too with Scarlett. That makes us even. Now please make up your mind and leave me alone for good." I said all I had to say and walked towards the door in order to leave.

"Wow you really do hate me. I never thought you could be as cold as ice." His words stopped me.

"I don't hate you." I casually replied as though I just told him 'milk is in the fridge', and locked my room door behind me.

Adrian is completely unpredictable. In one moment, like now, he shows some humanity, but in the other he is a total jerk. Even though he didn't do anything now, I know that I can expect problems in the coming days. At least he took my mind off Julian kissing that girl.

But not for long as I cried myself to sleep by thinking about it. Instead of having a few peaceful days until work starts, I'm dealing with these two as usual. Julian and I are both supposed to move on, but I didn't expect him to do it so soon or post about it. I was tempted to unfollow him at first but now I think it would be best for me to deactivate my account for some time.

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As soon as I woke up I met with Tom. There isn't a particular reason, I just felt like seeing him. Despite his desperate attempts to flirt with me, he is one of the most positive people I know so being in his company will certainly improve my mood.

We walked through a modern art gallery and admired the art works. But we didn't pay our full attention to the artifacts as we were engaged in a conversation.

"I have high hopes for the future with this new club deal Lana." His eyes displayed hope which he talked about, but mine showed the opposite.

"I have no doubt it will be a success." I spoke what I thought but not fully. I believe in Tom and his business skills, but I'm not sure that my future is as bright.

"You will benefit from it too. Aren't you excited?" He gave me a big smile, waiting for me to do the same and agree with him.

"Yes, I just need some time to adjust. A lot of things happened lately." I tried to explain my lack of excitement. He nodded.

"I noticed something has been going on with you. Ellen mentioned you broke up with that guy." He referred to Adrian.

"Yes, that's one of those things." I cut it short because I didn't feel like to explain it. "I like this town, it's big and there are a lot of things to do."

"That's what I like about it too. If you are in the mood next week we can go somewhere else. Don't worry, I'm not asking you out." He smiled while saying the last part.

"Haha okay." I accepted.

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Once I arrived back to my motel room, the feeling of sadness waited for me just like last night. It's all because of Julian kissing that girl and I simply cannot stop thinking about it. Even when I forget for a bit, subconsciously it's there and it doesn't let me relax. I couldn't stop myself from sending him a message.

'It didn't take you long.'

I opened that same story again and replied to it. It's a bad idea, I should have just deactivated my account, but sometimes there are those things which we simply have to say even if it is better not to.

He replied faster than I expected and my heart skipped a beat before I opened to see what he wrote.

'You let me go.'

His text took me by surprise as I feel that he is the one who let me go, not the other way round.

'No, you let me go. But I didn't run to someone else.'

I complained, bringing up the kiss again.

'Are you jealous?'

Another text which caught me by surprise and I took some time to think before answering. Unable to come up with a good comeback, I opted for the truth.

'Yes.'