'How do you want to play this? Want me to knock some sense into them?' Alana's voice bombarded my thoughts.

'No, I'll handle this,' I answered.

'They're going to walk all over you,' she snickered, but gave up on trying taking control of the situation.

I could see her, sitting comfortably eating popcorn like she was at the movies in my head. That was yet another reason why I couldn't fail. I had to show her and Jayden that I could handle myself.

Ignoring the boys curious stares; I walked around the desk and sat on the other side of the boys. As soon as I perched my butt on the chair, the boys gasped dramatically.

"What?" I asked, wanting to know why they were acting as if they just saw an alien.

"Nothing... It's just that alpha never lets anyone sit in his chair" one of the boys spoke up.

"Is that so?" I asked not really intrigued. They both nodded their heads and I left the conversation at that.

"Firstly, I'd like to know, why were you guys fighting?" I asked and sat up in my chair awaiting their answer.

"He stole my girl" the blonde guy mumbled.

"I did not. She came at me!" the brunette fired back.

"Well, you could have rejected her advances" the blonde guy sulked.

"I tried to tell you that she wasn't any good. I'm sorry that I slept with her, but at least now you know that she was just using you to get to me" the brunette explained.

Wow. This seemed like a private conversation that I wasn't supposed to be part of.

"It's just that I always had a crush on her and when she said yes, I was so happy that I didn't even realize that she wasn't into me" the blonde said with a frown.

The poor guy looked distraught.

"I'm sorry for sleeping with her. In my defense, I was drunk as shit I didn't even knew it happened until the next morning" the brunette explained looking remorseful for his action. "Truce?" he suggested.

"Truce?" the blonde mocked. "I'm going to rip you to fucking shreds!"

They both got up on their feet ready to attack. They were doing so well, but they had to let their giant egos get in the way.

Not thinking about it, I changed into my wolf. The transformation was a bit painful, because I hadn't been in wolf form for months.

I let out a loud growl that shook the walls of the pack house. The boys finally looked away from each other, and looked at my huge white wolf terrified.

I could see the fear in their eyes as the backed away and I jumped on the desk, which collapse under my weight. Jayden is not going to be happy when he sees this. I growled threateningly at the boys as they quivered in the corner.

I knew that this was a bit excessive, but I think it was getting my point across quite clearly. Alana was having a field day watching the boys shake violently in the corner. I swear there was something wrong with her.

I jumped off the now broken desk and landed in front of the boys. I could have sworn I saw them crying, or was it just my imagination.

The whole thing was ironic though. Imagine seeing two boys crying because of a white wolf that normally looked adorable. Alana cackled evilly at the situation.

"Please don't eat us. We won't try to fight again. I forgive him and he forgives me. I promise that we will live in peace and harmony as of from now. We won't-" I cut off the blonde guys rant with a growl.

"Yeah, what he said" the brunette agreed, nodding his head frantically.

"What is going on-" Jayden started, but cut himself off after seeing us. I heard a snicker followed by hands clapping.

"Babe, I didn't mean that you should scare the poor boys to death. Although I would have done much worse" Jayden chuckled.

I let a wolfish grin form on my face after hearing what he said and took a few steps back from the boys that were shaking like leaves.

"Get out!" Jayden ordered in an authoritative.

As soon as Jayden said that, they dashed out of the room like it was on fire. I changed back to my human form as soon as they were gone, completely forgetting that I would be as naked as the day I was born.

I tried to cover myself as best as I could from Jayden's perverted eyes, but that only seem to anger him.

"Don't hide yourself from me" he ordered.

I slowly let my hands down and by my side. Jayden took this time to analyze my naked body, groaning ever now and then.

"Beautiful" he whispered.

And that was how we spent the rest of the day cooped up in his office, doing exactly what Katie had insisted I would be doing.

...

It was now morning. Jayden and I were cuddling in bed, and teasing each other. This was how I wanted to wake up every day, with the love of my life right by my side.

"Can I ask you something?" Jayden spoke up breaking the silence.

"Sure" I replied not really paying attention.

"Why were you on the floor?"

I stayed quiet after his question. I was a bit hesitant to tell him the truth. I knew he would want to know why he saw his mate sleeping on the floor of an unknown room. I just thought that he wouldn't ask.

"You don't have to answer if you don't want to" he quickly rushed out when he realized my discomfort.

"No. It's ok. I had a panic attack. I didn't want anyone to see me like that, so I rushed to the nearest room I could find" I explained.

"Why didn't you say anything?" he asked concerned.

"I didn't want to interrupt your meeting"

"No meeting is more important than you. Please just let me know when something is wrong so that I can be there for you" he urged looking at me guiltily.

I knew that he was still trying to make up for his past behavior, but I already forgave him. It seem like he hadn't forgiven himself, and he was carrying the burden still.

"Ok" I replied and gave him a reassuring kiss.

"Are you ok?" he asked out of the blue.

"Um, yeah" I answered unsure.

"I knew that you have been through a lot, and I just want to let you know that I am here whenever you want to talk about it" I was sure that he was referring to the incident that took place at my old pack.

The memories came rushing back and I just broke down in tears. Jayden looked at me alarmed and panicked when he saw that I was crying.

"Shit. I'm sorry, I didn't mean-" I placed a finger over his mouth to silence him.

"I always have nightmares about that day. It was the scariest day of my life. I couldn't believe that I killed every single one of my old pack members. What hurts the most is that I killed all those innocent kids, robbing them of their future. I don't deserve to live, I don't deserve-"

"Hey, hey, hey. It was an accident. I'm sure you didn't mean to kill them" Jayden said trying to make me feel better.

"But I did. I wanted them to suffer as much as I've suffered. I didn't want them to die, but I wanted them to pay for what they did to me for so many years. I was a prisoner in my own pack, their punching bag, their scapegoat. I just wanted them to feel as much pain as they've caused in my life. I didn't mean to kill them. I didn't mean it. I didn't- I didn't- I didn't" I cried. I didn't want him to look at me with disappointment and disgust.

"It's ok. I'm here" he said holding me in his arms, while I cried. He stayed.

I cried until there were no more tears left to cry. Even though I was getting my tears and runny nose all over his chest, he never once loosed his grip on me.

He held on tight whispering comforting and encouraging words. Again, he was here for me at my lowest and I couldn't be more grateful. I just needed to get it all out, and for once since it happened, I felt a little better, but I knew I would carry the burden and guilt for the rest of my life.

"I love you" I murmured through hiccups.

"I love you more" he said kissing my forehead.

"Impossible" I said sleepily.

"Yes possible" and that was the last thing I heard before my body succumbed to the darkness.