I was scrolling through my phone in my room, my loving parents didn't even say a word to me after the dinner. Not that I mind, they don't care about me, I don't care about them either. Simple as that.

I heard a knock on my door. It's weird, they never knock.

"yes" I said and sat straight. 

"Pihu" it's my dad, since I came back from the boarding school which was almost a year ago. I've never talked to him. Just one time I bumped into him in the kitchen all he said was 'I see someone's hungry at this time' and I just smiled in response. 

It feels like my father wants a normal relationship but something's holding him back, probably my mom.

"can I talk to you?"

"sure" He smiled weakly and sat next to me. 

"I'm sorry but I had to do all this, but I know Samir is a really nice man he'll never let you be upset. Trust me, and I've seen the way your mom talks to you, I'm sorry for that too. She just sees you as an object just to make this deal. I always wanted you to be comfortable with me but I'm so filled with guilt that I can't bring myself to face you" His voice was low and I knew all of it was coming from his heart, this was genuine. "I'm sorry, forgive me" 

I know that my mom doesn't want me but I don't know the reason behind this.

"It's okay dad" I said with a slight smile, it's the first time I've called him dad. He is so pure and I knew it from the start. 

"I'm sorry" I put a hand on his shoulder and smiled at him. 

"it's okay dad, I am not even upset with you" To my surprise he kissed my forehead and patted my head. 

"And the marriage, it's too soon, but I trust Samir, he's a grown up man not any screwed up teenager. He always have his ways for everything" 

I nodded and he rested his hand on my cheek. "I'm really really sorry" 

"it's okay don't say it over and over again" 

He let out a deep breathe "Go and sleep you're probably tired" 

I nodded as I watched him walk to the door. "Goodnight" 

I smiled and replied "goodnight" He walked out and closes the door behind his back. 

This is the most friendly interaction I've had with him.

I think I was way too easy on him, whatever atleast he had a normal conversation with me for the first time. I smiled to myself and pulled the sheets over me. 

..... 

It did not take long for the wedding day to arrive. Tomorrow is my wedding thank goodness it's a court marriage otherwise we'd have to face a lot of people, cameras and all the rituals. 

My dad did not really talked to me except for good mornings and greetings.

My mom did talked to me once, yesterday. She was telling me all the things I had to do after marriage and asking me to behave like a woman in front of them. I did not care about any of that but there was something she said that made me rethink about it over and over again. 

'Men's don't like rejections' 

She said in a serious voice and was asking me to never say no to Samir no matter what he says, also on our first night. 

I'm such an Over-thinker. 

But this was something that really had me wondering. I don't like to do things the way people ask me to do, that annoys me. 

But, I had no choice the boarding school was better actually a lot better then this place that I don't even feel like calling home. 

I have to sleep now, tomorrow's the wedding, yay. 

I closed my eyes pulling the sheets over me and snuggling into the pillow. Did I mention that I have a habit of hugging something while I sleep, it helps me fall asleep and without hugging anything I just feel kind of empty, if it makes sense. 

I sighed and snuggled more trying to rest my body. 

Tomorrow's the big day honey.