I grabbed at the berries that I could find on the outskirts of the forest. Some of the berry bushes pricked my fingers however, I was too busy thinking to even notice the pain. I couldn’t stop thinking about Bruno's death. It ate my mind slowly as it warped all of my thoughts. Everything was happening so quickly. Just a few days ago I was out drinking while complaining about work. It felt as if everything in my life fell into shambles for no reason. Almost everything that has happened since I got here felt as if it happened with no rhyme or reason. It was like everything I knew was a lie. I put the berries that I picked into a basket that Ezra gave me when we talked earlier. I wondered what everyone else was doing with their hour of freedom. I wondered how they all knew what the metal noise meant and if they had all met the strange man. I wanted to ask them all about it but I felt worried about it remembering the rule to not tell anyone about the rules. As I thought about that I remembered that Ezra had reminded me about the rules. Did he tell me because he believed in the rules and wanted to help? But by telling me he broke a rule? Did he trust me? I didn’t know and honestly I didn’t want to worry about it. As my mind wandered I heard the ringing of the bell. I quickly picked up my basket of berries, held my head down and ran back to the church. As I entered the church I lifted my eyes and saw that everyone else had already arrived. They had already started making lunch. It seemed to be roasted berries. Annabelle served the food and we all ate quietly. I sat in the corner as I still thought about Bruno. I couldn’t help but feel like if I had just told him about the rule he wouldn’t have died. I felt guilt and responsibility. After lunch everyone started doing their own thing. Matilda was still asleep in the corner. Cherryl and Jack were talking to each other through sign language. The Albino girl was sitting in the corner doing nothing. Amar was writing on some old paper he found in the church. Annabelle was playing with Wilson. As I was watching everyone else Ezra walked to me and sat down next to me. He looked at me in the eyes and I looked back. He stared at my gaze as if he was looking into my soul. I felt uncomfortable and looked away. “You think that Bruno’s death was your fault don’t you?” he said. Before I could respond he continued “I don’t think you understand the situation we are all in completely boy. Every single person here would abandon you without hesitation if they had to. Including me. You have a good heart for thinking it's your fault. If you want to live though, think of only yourself. If you have to push me into the mouth of a lion to survive, I will do the same.” After giving me his words he patted me on the back and stood up, went to his sleeping spot on the floor and started to take an early rest. I sat there and hugged my knees as I thought about his words. I came back to reality after pondering his words with a new resolution. Survive no matter how nasty it may be. I would sacrifice others if it meant my own safety. I felt as if for the first moment I felt the severity of the situation. Although the church felt safe. On the day the seventh bell rang I would have to run into the forest to get back to the strange man and from there who knew what would happen. I may encounter dangers unknown to myself. Although the church felt safe it was only for a while. I was truly never safe. I had to always keep my guard up. As I thought of this I noticed that Ezra was snoring. How could he give me such important advice and then just fall asleep like that? Did he trust the safety of the church. What if someone attacked him in his sleep? I felt as if my thoughts were getting off track. I saw that Amar had started making dinner and I asked him if I could help him. He was crushing berries to make some kind of berry paste for us to eat. I wondered if I would have to eat berries and only berries for the rest of my stay on the island. I suddenly craved chips and junk food. As I helped Amar finish crushing the berries. We split up the food into ten different portions he called everyone to eat. Ezra woke up from his nap and he came over to eat. We were all sitting there eating except for one person, Matilda. She was still sleeping. We all sat there and ate silently as Matilda added an uncomfortable atmosphere by merely being here. I was suspicious of her. The strange stuff that she did at night made me curious as to what she was doing. Amarr seemed to get annoyed at Matilda still sleeping. He got up and started walking over to her. Annabelle saw this and said “Just let her sleep, it's not like she is doing any harm”. He looked at her for a moment and ignored her pleas and continued to go towards Matilda. “Hey get up”. He spoke sternly however she didn’t respond. He said it again this time more sternly still, no response. Finally in an act of annoyance he get down and started shaking her shoulder. He did this for a moment before standing up in shock. After a moment of shock he said to the rest of the group “S-She’s dead.”