"I'm bored of this shit; why can't these tier 2 monsters be stronger." So I said to myself on top of twelve monster corpses. "Everything is so weak or too dumb even use their abilities correctly. Even the meatball was the strongest thing I have fought and was stuck at the bottom of a mountain."

I jumped off the corpses and put them inside the tattoo, then began walking again in search of more tier 2 monsters.

I can't be mad at them because they are still considered baby monsters, but I fucking want to be mad.

As I continued to walk, searching for anything to fight, I heard something closing in on me from the sky. Having experienced this before, I summoned 129 dark-type bolts to conceal the light from them, not to alert the fucking bastard coming my way.

Five seconds later, it appeared above me, and I released every single bolt ready, trying to control each one to guide it to the target Barry.

"Hey, there fucko how ya doing?" Barry said as he dodged every single fucking bolt. " Ha loser, learn to aim better. So as I was going ta say, Barry is leaving the Void to go to new god. He things go crazy soon, and I would get faster going there, so Barry comes say bye bye shit face. Ah, you two levels from tier 3. Not like you are going to make it. Barry's new god says light lights are coming here after Barry leaves. But they are just afraid of Barry's magnum power. God says that means big."

What in the fuck is he even talking about? New god? "Barry, is that why you came here just to boast and brag about running away? I am staying here to kill them. If so, please leave faster because I would rather deal with them than with your annoying ass." I told him while shooting a bolt every few seconds to try and kill him.

"Since Barry's all-powerful Barry weakling like you and Spider and others. Plus, if Barry stays new god says he won't show Barry how to go faster." Barry said smugly while flying circles above, dodging bolts.

As I was getting ready to shoot at Barry again, a crack appeared and sucked him into it, making Barry disappear. For the first time, I was truly happy. I wouldn't have to deal with that fucking bird again for a long time, or hopefully never again, and Barry would end up as someone's food. I pray to Mother and beg never to see it ever again.

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After praying for the first time, I began to search for more tier 2's to hit level 15 and go to the second layer to evolve to tier 3 since I felt like my body was now hitting the very limit it had with all the training I was doing making it unable to grow without leveling up. My stats have increased significantly by training, but none have increased since I left the Spider's home.

Well, everything except for Int has stopped. So I found a way to increase it by trying to make new magic spells or alter my magic skills. But, unfortunately, my physical stats are bound to my body, so its limit can't increase unless I have better tools or do something stupid and break through those limits. But Int and Chs are not based on the physical limitations of my body but instead are linked directly to the soul. And that is constantly growing with my magical practice. At first, I thought it was limited to my body like my other stats were, but I felt it grow during training in the cult. Even if the hole was still there, where my old self was, it seemed less like I was filling it in. Trying to connect my new soul to the old and making it truly mine.

As the new and old were fused, it was still a slow process. However, leveling and evolving seemed to increase the pace at which it fuses. Practicing magic also increased it but only by a negligible amount. The old me was still asleep inside my soul, too weak to communicate. If the pieces of my soul fuse completely, the old me might slowly become one with me, or he might try and take control of my body. I feel like that will happen, but I don't know what will happen in the future. But there is no time to be thinking of things like this. I need to find ways to get stronger faster and find more things to kill.

Now another thing to think about is magic spells and skills. Spells are not skills unless you make them into one by luck or practice enough to make them into skills. Even my lance skill was just the bolt skill combining many bolts into a single lance. I was talking to the goblin monster who could use fire magic instead of void magic and learned that you could create skills by practicing magic and making spells with enough practice. It told me that the goblin tribe that kicked it out had taught it about this before he mutated and became a fire-type monster. This amazed me and forced me to stop focusing and twilight bolt after I hit tier 3 with it and began to try and create spells.

I had a hard time thinking of things to try and create but realized that I could not fight things that could fly and was faster than me, like Barry. But then I thought of Colt and the Spider and how they had skills that could affect things around them. And since I wanted it to be different than theirs, I tried to do the same thing I did for the lance skill and use the bolt as a base component to the magic so I could shoot it at my enemies and have it explode, dealing damage then have it do continuous damage over time of have an area around the blast be like space of destruction destroying everything inside its effect.

My only two problems with this were that I wasn't sure how to keep the damage going after the first blast and the time it took to use the spell. The first issue was more pressing than the last one since practice would make using it faster in the long run. I tried using only light magic and then only using dark magic, but it didn't do anything after exploding. So this is what I have been using to kill the weak tier 2 monsters that try and attack me. I know I don't have the right mix of magic, but I am making good progress. Making spells is challenging but surprisingly relaxing. Since I am new at making spells, I don't know what I am doing. The red goblin didn't have enough information of knowledge of making them except for the knowledge of knowing it was at least possible to create them. I need the skill to examine the magic skills themselves to understand how it works. All I do know is that I am fucking up some pretty basic things.

Looking through my status page again, I was admiring the growth and progress of my skills and saw it. The only skill that I had that wasn't bout combat or survival. The only skill that I had only used like five times since obtaining the skill. The Eyes of Twilight lv1/10 tier 1. This may be the thing to help me in creating a new spell and hopefully turn it into a skill. It may or may not work, but I had a feeling that it should since it is a skill about revealing the secrets of things that are hidden.

I tried to use the skill to examine the magic I was using and to look deeply into the bolt and lance skills to see how they were constructed may give me the knowledge needed to go from there and create the spells that I want to later on. So I summoned three bolts and one lance to look at and examine. Since the skill was passive, it was always working since I wasn't focusing on the skills themselves. I wasn't using my twilight eyes entirely right.

The bolts gave off very faint strands of light that were hard even to see; not sure what this was, I began to try to find out what the strands were. So cut off the mana I used to fuel it and watched the bolt. Then, as the extra mana being used to keep it here stopped, I watched the tiny white strands slowly break off and disappear until the bolt was finally gone, as it had run out of fuel. I'm not sure what those strands were, but it is safe to say that it might have been the mana used to fuel the bolt, or the strands were a magic construct that gave the skill its form without the mana to fuel the construct breaking apart into nothingness.

Because my eyes skill is such a low level and tier, I can't take what I am seeing now for granted, and when the next time I rest, I with hold up in the shack and research what this could be at the desk. Since training my physical stats is not possible right now, that is my best option.

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As I walked around, I kept trying to examine the bolt in front of me to try and level the skill since nothing was around me right now to kill. However, I learned something interesting since this all began: that my bolt skill can pierce through things or explode on contact, which was remarkable. Thinking about the best way to use this to deal the maximum amount of damage is to have the bolt go into the body and then explode inside, dealing more damage overall instead of just going through and out the other side or stopping just inches inside something. For some reason, thinking like this horrifies the old part of my soul about this line of thought, even though he is sleeping right now. But that only makes me want to do it more since I can kill more things efficiently.

I could focus on becoming so strong I can force my way through with overwhelming brute force, but that seems like wasting power when I can create and master my skills and then overwhelm them all with my true strength. Power and mastery over my skills will give me the best chance of survival and possibly a chance of becoming a god myself. However, I won't be the same type of god last time. Like I was told, I protecting everyone, no matter who they were, I was betrayed and was almost had my soul wholly destroyed. Thinking about this made the old me angry for just a second. Still, it felt sad instead, which pissed me off because rather than being mad that we were almost annihilated, he would rather sleep and cry about it than be angry and do something to change. The only time he got angry was with the hivemind.

Why am I fighting myself over this? He was a protector like the Spider is a healer and leader. I am me, and I am neither a protector nor am I a healer. I will fight, bite, claw, stomp, and tear my enemies apart. My magic will only enhance my abilities to kill and destroy. I need to calm myself down and be cautious of my surroundings; even if a danger sense helps warn me of attacks, it is better to think and keep a cool head outside of battle.

I heard some movement behind me to the left, trying to hide behind some trees, and I was happy to take out the self-anger I had on whatever it was. And hope It helps finally get me to hit Lv 14.