I wake up with a start from a deep curious, bitter dream. With this cold sweat, I can’t say I feel well. The world full of wonder and danger for the living, I can’t help but continues to endlessly replay in my head. Now, there, “don’t worry, it’s alright, nobody will come and hurt us anymore.” With that smile of his, I wonder how can he always be the positive one in everything?

Like the three sugar cubes that I drop and mix in my cup. This butterflies he care some much, the relieved world continues to spin. “I love butterflies, and I love you by just looking at this tiny creatures flying around the green field and flowers, we can take a trip with a big manta high to the sky!” he said to me.

When I ask, “do you hate me?” he stare at me for a second, then he pats me. He get up from his spot, his hand stretched out to reach my head. He pats me. Ayin, I wish I was like you.

I sit in an old and worn rocking floor I usually sit. With my feet tucked under me, I can’t say that I feel well. Still in the same place, same world with different time. I count every time passed by in flash. Just like in Daylight, I now in Valley, facing the twins Elder. “my my dear” one of them starting, “worrying nothing is bad” another continue. “it’s alright, nobody will come and trick us anymore” with their one eyes smile, they say.

Like the four sugar cubes that I drop and mix in my cup. This bright warm light from the sunset full of gold covered in snow white blanked, the relieved world continues to spin. “we love games, and we love you. By just looking at this clinking of golden solar around our place together. We can invite the grumpy lady to a dance!”

Their playfullness tone always bright like the sunny day. Their love and passion can rivaly the sun itself. When I ask, “do you hate me?” one of them simply snickers, the another chuckles. Sah Mekh, I wish I was like you.

Now, there- “there’s no need to worry,” she said calmly staring right in to my eyes with her sharp gaze. This time, I’m in Hidden Forest realm. “nobody will resent or curse us anymore” calm and cold is her. As her home full of what is left of her heart. Despite anything, she stay calm, keep strong for the better. But how? Stay calm in the verge of dead is hard. The trees cannot grow without it’s leaves.

Like the five sugar cubes that I drop and mix in my cup. Her heart keep crying with shell keep steeling. Trapped in endless tear, the relieved world continues to spin. “I love rain, and I love you. By just looking up to the sky full of clouds, we can hide in the middle. We can scatter weightlessly in the galaxy and jump universes”

She look up in dreamland. Aahhh she still miss it, year after year we spend on this world, will never can change where the heart belong.

“do you hate me?” she paused. Her eyes shifted back to me. She sighs with a peaceful expression and, ahh, smiles at me. What a rare sight to see. Even though I can only see it from her eyes, it’s clear as a day from this falling water. Not a surprise nor a common, just a welcoming gesture I know.

It’s been a while since my last time. I sit on a grassy field of my floor solemly stare at the flower. With this mask covering my face, I can’t say I feel better. I love this world, and I love everything. But this... this hollow feeling keep haunted me? As if the nightmares is not enough. “nobody will come,” I said in a hush tone, “nobody will hurt,” I stare intensely at the flower as if I searching some answer from it.

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Merry Christmas and Happy New Year my dear readers!

It's been forever since the last time I write another chapter like this.

Up there is the inspiration song and the visual of the story of this chapter.

I only change it a little bit but overall, it's still the same.

Here a gift for you all!

Happy Reading! (⁠*⁠˘⁠︶⁠˘⁠*⁠)⁠.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡