Jensen stared at me in shock for a moment before he pulled his hand back and spoke so quietly I could barely hear him. "How? How do you know if you don't try?"

"Because Jensen it just won't!" I was so close to yelling at the tears had already sprung in my eyes.

"Why not? You can't just say that it won't work without giving me a reason as to why it won't work!" His voice was louder, not a yell, but getting there.

"You know why!" I protested.

"Because I'm your boss? Because it's inappropriate? Because society looks down on it?"

"No!"

"Then why?"

"Because I hate getting close to people because in the end I'm just going to have to say goodbye!" I yelled.

The tears streamed freely down my face, I didn't bother stopping them. Jensen stared at me in shock, but stayed quiet so I could continue.

"Every time I get close to someone, they leave, or they hurt me. I can't put myself through that again, I just can't. Jensen I'm sorry, I really am. I love you, I do, but I just can't put myself at that risk, in that same situation again." My voice was cracking as I spoke, and some sobs forced their way out on between my words. I quickly started grabbing my things and rushed out of the vehicle.

The sun had disappeared behind clouds, and the smell of rain was in the air. My arms were crossed and my things were shoved into pockets or held closing to my chest.

Jensen's footsteps were right behind me and I felt him grab my arm and spin me around. His hands were on both of my shoulders, and he stared me in the eyes as the rain started to fall from the sky.

"I don't care about the damn weather you need to hear this." He paused and licked his lips before continuing.

"I would never hurt you, and I would never leave you. I've already done that, and it hurt. Everyday I saw you in the dammed office with that look on your face, the look of dissatisfaction, disappointment, and hatred, pointed towards me, I shattered. Every single damn day. I didn't care about you, not even when you came into the office with tears streaming down your cheeks, but I wish I did. God I wish I did. I was a fool to leave you, I was an idiot to sit there and tell you to suck it up and get to work. I treated you like you were shit. But the thing is, your not, your so much more. You're beautiful, sweet, caring, you're great with Jj, and when you smile it's like the sun hitting my skin. I wish I knew that then, and god how I wish I never made you feel like everyone in your life was going to hurt you. There's so many things that I wish I could do to change the past, but I can't. The only thing I can hope for is the future, the future I want to have with you. I want to wake up next to you every morning, I want to make you breakfast, share a bed, have children with you. I want to make you smile and laugh, I want to grow old with you and never let you go. Your the light of my world, and without you, it's dark, gloomy, and scary, but you light the path and I follow you. I follow you because I love you, and you're the only thing I want. I could never leave you because leaving you would tear me in two, because without you, I'm nothing."

I stared at him with wide eyes. I was shocked, completely shocked. He had told me how he had felt so many times, and yet, I never knew that it ran this deep.

He leaned his forehead against mine, and by this time the rain was pouring down, and we were both soaking wet. His hands found my wet hair, and rested just below my ears.

"Y/n your the one that want and the one that I need. Without you I'm nothing, because your my everything."

Jensen leaned down and kissed me. It was very soft, unsure even. Until I kissed him back, my hands went behind his neck and pulled him down closer to me.

I sighed into the kiss and melted into him as he grew more confident in the action, and his kiss became more passionate and longing. He was warm in this cold rain, and everything about him, including his kiss, was comforting. Almost like something needed but wasn't sure of.

Pulling back, his forehead still rested against mine, and his stared into my eyes once again.

"I love you." He said, with a small not-so-confident smile.

"Oh Jensen, stop being such a dork. I love you too."

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