Keep your head up.

Everything will be fine.

You'll overcome all obstacles.

No.

Nothing is ever satisfactory.

My head is always sinking into my chest.

I give my all for you.

Hell, I'd even die for you.

I Put everything on the back burner for you.

They say, if you love someone, you can always make time for that person.

No matter the circumstances.

Im always here to interlock fingers and vanquish all complications.

Slaying any predicaments you face.

To provide comfort and security.

But still, it's no where close to enough for you.

Sorry I can't compare to your exes.

Sorry I can't leave you alone.

Sorry I'm a little unsteady and not up to your standards.

Sorry I can't be everything that you want me to be.

I can try and seek for an answer.

But I'd just be taking a shot into the abyss of confusion and probability.

Just guide me on how to love you.

How to tend to your wounds.

Your battle scars.

But there's one thing I can always say I've never failed at.

And that's that I've never exhausted every little ounce of myself to produce something meaningful.

Maybe I'm just blowing everything out of proportion.

But there's little moments where I just feel like cutting my losses and facing the fact that she'll never love me like I love her.

Facing the unsightly demons hidden inbetween the sweaters and jeans.

And there's other moments where my vigilance is paying off and I feel like we can take on the world.

Just the two of us.

Perhaps I'm not used to this.

Being given the cold shoulder.

So cold that I feel myself slowly disintegrating on the inside.

My organs turning to stone and weighing my body down to the frigid earth beneath my weary feet.

5/1/19