Jasmines pov

I snuggled into my pillow but it didn't feel like a pillow. I slowly opened my eyes and Nate was staring at me. I finally realised he was my pillow. My cheeks went bright red I looked like a tomato.

Embarrassed I quickly pulled away. Even though really there was no reason to be embarrassed. We use to snuggle like that all the time when we were younger but it just felt different. It probably had something to do with the fact that we hadn't known eachother for a while. We were different people now. Well I was. I had done awful things and seen worse.

I was a monster. There was no nicer way of putting it.

That one line resonated in my head. Echoing for what felt like forever. I was a terrible monster and I didn't deserve him. He deserved someone good pure light.

I knew once he found out everything he'd never forgive me. I could never forgive myself how could I expect him to.

I don't deserve to be happy. But I love him so much. Could I be selfish and not say anything. No he needs to be happy. If he's happy that's all that matters. Even if that happiness is without me. Why was it so hard to tell him? Something was preventing me from just saying it.

"Nate I...."

"Jazz it's ok. I'm sorry for earlier I shouldn't of pressured you. I feel terrible. Could you ever forgive me?"

What was he going on about I love him. Why would I ever be mad at him? Slowly it hit me. He was talking about yesterday he thought he made me cry.

"Nate you didn't make me cry. I was just feeling overwhelmed. For so long I haven't been myself. I've been controlled by that thing. I also miss my parents. They didn't deserve to die like that they are good people. Sorry were good people. "

I could feel the tears building in my eyes again. Nate pulled me to his chest and started talking.

"Hey shh it's ok I have a surprise for you. It'll be here in a minute."

I was very confused but I was overjoyed to be in his arms. He brought me over to the bed and we relaxed.

There was a knock on the door. This must be the surprise. What could it possibly be.

"Come in" Nate's voice startled me.

The door slowly crept open. Why was time moving so slowly? Was there a weird suspense leading up to this particular moment in time. Why was my wolf suddenly so excited?

Then they came into the room. How was this possible? How did they survive? Is this all a dream? Am I going to wake up in Sebastian's castle in one of those torture chambers. No this has to be real life I can't go back there.

My scars started tingling. It was like they were each being ripped open and formed again. It was agonising. I felt like I couldn't breathe. Good thing I was sitting down or I would of collapsed. Even though I was sitting it didn't stop the little black spots slowly filling my vision.

The last thing I saw clearly were the three faces I love most in this world. But I couldn't fight the darkness.