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Taylor Swift// This is me trying.

The saying, 'how the tables have turned' was defining you today. Whatever was happening today was very unexpected in every way. First, suddenly each and every man who was on Park Beom- Seok side was laying on the ground, dead or alive you were not sure. Then, out of nowhere your people came to your rescue. And now, your supposedly dead mother was standing in front of you.

Good morning to you all too.

Your mind was turned blank. You thought it was some other lady who just resembled her. But her silky brown long hair, her beautiful green eyes which was shining brightly with hope, her perfectly shaped face, her pale white skin where her tears were tainted and of course, her aura.

It was really your own mother.

You just blinked watching her as she started to take slow and careful steps towards you. When you realised she was walking near you, your brain finally started working and you did what seemed right at that moment. You turned around as you started running, away from.

The wind was cold on your skin, you were feeling cold and empty. The winter reflected your existence. Cold, empty, alone. People stay away from cold, they hide in their houses to not feel cold. Just like you, people abandoning you always because they were afraid you will make their life miserable like yours.

You couldn't wrap your head why would she leave you and make you believe she was dead the whole time. You felt your whole life was a lie. You, yourself was a lie. You did not know what and who to believe anymore.

You reached a place as you near the tree as you started crying uncontrollably hitting your chest. You were not bothered by the insufferable cold, but the loneliness. The loneliness was killing you. You were believing each and every word your father used to tell you when you were young.

/Flashback

At the age of 12 girls usually enjoy their last year as a child. You were going to turn 13 tomorrow. The teenage year was going to start. You went into the kitchen, you were wearing some old clothes of Chaeyoung. You were grateful tho, that it was not tore like the other.

As you walked inside the kitchen, you saw your father seated in the chair of the dining table. He was usually never there for meals. You stopped dead in tracks, you were expecting that he was here for your birthday. You remembered how they celebrated your sister's first teen birthday. Although, you liked the idea of celebrating, you wanted nothing like that, you were scared of people.

No, you were not scared of them. You wanted to be one of them. The people made you feel disgusted about yourself.

He looked at you as he shook his head and turned around again. You walked to the maid who usually gave you food a little more than others.

- You! Come here!

You heard Chaeyoung's voice as you looked back to see her walking towards you. Her gorgeously blonde hair was dancing with air as she strode towards you and before you knew her hand collided with your cheeks. You gasped as you held the cheek caressing it to stop the burning sensation.

- Hey hey, take it somewhere else, Chaeyoung. I am eating right now.

- Daddy, she stole my diamond ring.

Your eyes widened as you shook your head as you were muttering 'no' continuously.

- Yes you did bitch, don't lie to me.

- I didn't. I don't even know you have one. Please leave me.

Chaeyoung scoffed as she held your hair pulling it as you cried in pain. Your father got up as he came towards the both of you and made her move away from you.

- Did you stole the ring?

You shook your head as your hands were in a pleading way. You were begging them to leave you alone.

- I-I didn't. F-fat-father I am not l-lying.

You said between your cries. Your father looked down at you as he caressed your sisters hair.

- I will but you a better one.

Your sister started crying as Boss Parks eyes widened.

- Why are you crying, princess?

- S-she even stole the guy I used to like.

- Who?

- Sehun. I like him but she never let him be with me.

Your eyes widened at the confession. Your sister liked him too? Boss Park turned towards you and he slapped you hard, as you fell on the floor. You cried slowly as he held you by your neck and pulled you up. Your breath was choking, your legs were flying in the air. You were beating your fathers hand to stop him.

- You filthy little slut! You are a good for nothing person. You don't even deserve to live. I am doing you a favor keeping you here and making you live here. You're just like your whore poor mother. Fucking bitch, listen to me, you are a trash okay? You are nothing. Don't bother living understand?

He said as he threw you on the ground as your back hit the hard ground as you were coughing loudly holding your throat.

- You will be staying away from that boy. If I find you with him again, I will skin you and your lover boy alive.

He said as he left you there. But Sehun never stopped, never gave up. Even after getting orders from your father he came that night and treated your bruises, cried with you and consoled you.

He was always there and now he is gone. And you've nowhere else to go to find home.

~

You opened your eyes as you found Seokjin standing in front of you. His face was red too, eyes puffy. He crouched down as he held your hand and with the other he caressed your hair.

- You must be feeling cold. Let's go.

- I can't Jin, I am not ready to face her. I cannot face her. I don't even know what I should do. I don't know why I am like this. I hate myself.

Seokjin was getting angry. He hated seeing you like this. So vulnerable, so broken.

- Sssh, don't say anything. Let's go home now.

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After reaching home, you went inside and had a bath. Taehyung was currently in the basements hospital as some doctors were checking on him. Your heart was broken when you heard how they treated the love of your life. You couldn't imagine how he must have endured so much pain. Like a snow flake falling on the ground, he was alone, facing all problems on his own.

You changed your clothes as you wore one of Taehyung's hoodie and went downstairs to find an unknown girl. You clutched the knife Jungkook gave you in your pocket as you took slow steps towards her. Just when you were about to attack her, she turned around and her eyed widened as she stumbled back.

- I mean no harm to anyone! See I am wearing white, take it as a white flag.

She said as you frowned, you lowered your knife but was still alert.

- Who are you?

You asked as it the girl smiled showing her gummy smile as she said.

- I am Kim Dahyun, Kim Taehyung's sister.

Your eyes widened at her words and you kept the knife safely inside your pocket again.

- Wait- its not possible you were-

How can it be not possible? When your dead mother was alive and under the same roof as you, how can it be not possible to find Kim Taehyung's lost sister.

- I am sorry, I didn't mean to be rude.

You apologised quickly as she laughed and waved off.

- It's alright, we all must be alert alwa-

You heard footsteps as you turned around to see Jimin and Hoseok rushing towards the basement.

- Taehyung is conscious again, Y/N.

~

Taehyung was awake now. He was sleeping for the whole day, and as soon as he woke up everyone went to him. You looked at Taehyung as his face was pale. Bruises covered his body. You discovered that they made him take high dose of drugs, which played with his mind.

- Taehyung-ah.

You whispered as Taehyung looked at you. His eyes held the weigh of emptiness.

- Are you real?

You nodded crying as you held his hand as you touched it with your cheek.

- I am. I am here for you. I will always be. I am so sorry.

You said as Taehyung smiled.

- She's real.

He whispered as he smiled slightly and sighed closing his eyes again. You didnt wanted to cry in front of him as you moved away and your friends crowded him.

You were trying to avoid your mother but it was impossible now. She was standing in front of you as you looked at her and gulped.

- We should talk, don't you agree?

She said softly as you nodded your head. You both sat on the couch as the whole hall was silent. No one was here except you two. She cleared her throat but before she could say anything the words left your mouth.

- Why did you leave me with them?

You asked as she was taken aback by your question. She expected you to be very ecstatic to find she is alive.

- Are you not happy to find out I am alive?

You scoffed as you took a deep breath in roaming your hands around your face as you pushed your hair back. SeokJin's voice was still clear in your head.

Tell her your real feelings. What you really felt. Tell her your struggles.

- I don't know what I am feeling okay? What am I supposed to feel after knowing eventhough my mother was alive she still left me in hands of monsters? Why didn't you take me with you huh? What was your problem? Do you even have any slightest idea what your fucking husband and his fucking children did to me everyday? Let me tell you. They fucking tortured me. Every fucking day. They wanted me dead and i was a stubborn soul who was not dying so they tortured me instead.

Your mother hissed as your words pierced through her soul like a blade.

- I always woke up and was fucking disappointed that I am again alive today. I fucking hated waking up but was too coward to take my own life. I never experienced luxury like you Madam Deok!

- I never had luxury too-

Your mother said her eyes filled with tears as you scoffed.

- Oh please, you had people who loved and adored you. Thousands of people. I was surviving each and every day. Every fucking second. Hope was the only thing which kept me alive but as time passed by I lost my fucking hope too. What do you want from me now? After 15 years, what the fuck do you want from me?

You yelled as Yoongi and everyone came to the hall listening to your screams. They were near enough incase the matter was out of hands they will be there for you. Yoongi came near you as he placed his hand on your shoulder.

- It's okay. Stop it now.

He said softly as you pushed his hand away.

- But you know what? Thank you. Thank you for leaving me. If you wouldn't have left me I would not have met so many wonderful people like them. Like my Sehun and my Jisoo.

You said as your heart ached more at the memory of Sehun. His body image flashed in front of you as you screamed to remove the memory from your brain. You hated the fact that it was he who died.

- Y/N, honey please listen to me. I am very sorry but I couldn't take you with me. It was impossible for me-

- I don't want to know what was your excuse. The end point is you left me and you never bothered to know about me. So fuck you and fuck your excuses. I am not going anywhere with you, I have my family and I have my husband here. Goodbye, I hope I never see you again.

You said as you ran to your room. Yoongi sighed as he looked at your mother who crying looking down.

- Just give her some time. She is feeling overwhelmed right now.

He said and just then Jeongyeon came inside and said.

- Park Beom- Seok will be leaving for the factory. When are we going to go there?

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Hey lovelies!!!

How are you?

I wrote this chapter because I wanted you all to have an idea what our female lead was going through for her whole life. I am so proud of her<3

And also I don't want her to move on from Sehuns death so soon yk? Like he was her saviour so it wouldn't be fair to their friendship and to Sehun if she moved on so easily.

Thats

What do you think? Is Y/N right to be angry at her mother? How will they catch the Boss Park?

Well, please continue to support me like this.